Friday, June 21, 2013
This past week, more like 8-9 days, I've had some aches on my left side. First I thought kidney stones as I was in town most of two days back to back last weekend thur/fri and I knew I was dehydrated and not eating as well. Then yesterday, it was bugging in front lower abdomen, and we wondered if it was spleen issues, possibly from Lyme Diseaee (we pull off 5-10 Lone Star ticks off our dog every day!). I had noticed a red bite looking thing on my lower left abdomen, not far from where it hurts...
Called my doctor and she is out today, her usual backup is booked solid and so the third doctor saw me and after listening to me and a short exam, she pronounce that I have Shingles!
Not entirely surprised, in retrospect, but it hasn't occurred to me. I guess I thought I had to be muuuuuuch older. I had chicken pox as a kid, and have the scars to prove that I did maul myself.
Got stuff from health food store to deal with it on the nutritional end of things and will rest a bit before heading off to the local dispensorary (sp?) for pharmaceuticals...
Let the summer begin!!
Saturday, June 15, 2013
PROVERBS31JULIA I realized in therapy a week or so ago that a reason why I turned to food for self-medication was because most 8-17 year old kids don't have access to bars and money to buy booze...liquor might be quicker, but candy was dandy, ice cream was on my team, and I could bake a cake without anyone knowing it was just gonna help me get stoned on the sugar and chocolate and caramelized butter!! I could huff it all day and no one knew why.
In the immortal and likely immoral words of Bob Dylan
"We would not be so all alone -
Everybody Must. Get. STONED!"
I could relate to that - even though I never did take drugs, legal or illegal.
It's really weird, reading these articles about how science has figured that food addiction is just as real as drugs, alcohol, etc. I have an acquaintance (not on SP) who is sort of trying to recover from various of her addictions, but I think she is only sober for a few weeks at a time. And here recently I was telling her about my struggles with food, and she suddenly starts telling me she would go do cocaine with me whenever I wanted. I'm thinking whaaaaat? Did she not hear me? (Probably not!) I don't have any desire to try the illegal stuff when I am still messed up with food addictions.
Being addicted to anything is not really good for a person (except for the possible argument of people who switch from drug/alcohol abuse to running or triathalon or similar events - and I am not even qualified to discuss that phenomena. I'd say it was good for them!!).
So anyway I'm still on this journey...
This article talks about being grounded and mentions various typed of events - in my case I'd say most of the time it is "intrusive memories" etc.
I'm tired! Need to go to sleep and focus on this later when rested.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
I'm kinda of loosely humming the intro to "A Day in the Life" - I think it is? the Beatles song that starts off "I read the news today, oh boy" something like that....
I saw a horse today, oh hey!
I saw it walking on the road today.
It turned around and looked at me,
Well, I just had to laugh—
And then I made the video
He watched me park the car;
He didn't pay any attention to
The neighbor lady helping him;
She'd seen the horse before;
Nobody was really sure
The number to his owner's work.
and so on and so on...
I need to bail out right now and go to yoga.
Friday, June 07, 2013
I fixed a pot of black eyed peas the other day - soaked them earlier and they cooked in the crockpot all night long and were basically perfect today. I just needed to season them - put in about a tablespoon of ghee for the entire crockpot full (I probably have 3-4 quarts of beans in it, all cooked and yummy), shook in some of that Tony C .... someone's creole seasoning, comes in a green canister but I'm too lazy to go bring it here and type in the name... and some sea salt.
Wasn't sure if I wanted to try to make a Hoppin' John kind of thing but didn't feel like messing with making rice before going to my Tupperware Party (I know, right? quaint! was a fun "retro" look too.). Looking at cupboard, I decided to cook up a mess of canned turnip greens, a can of yellow hominy, and a can of tomato paste, and about a teaspoon of Bragg's liquid aminoes for extra seasoning.
I thought that way, my son could have some beans by themselves and skip the veggies if he didn't want to try it (but I wouldn't be "ruining" the entire crockpot - plus, I wasn't really sure how the combination would actually taste.).
My husband got home from work just in time for me to suggest that he could whip up a pan of his cornbread (he cooks it in his mama's old square cast iron skillet, makes the BEST. CORNBREAD. EVER!).
I got home and my little bowl of beans really took the edge off and kept me from going face down in the homemade salsa and beefy quezo (sp?) cheese dip that the Tupperware Lady made with her various Tupper products (okay alright already, I'm not advertising Tupperware, it was just part of the day's events.). But I wanted to try his cornbread and try the veggies with the beans. I took just a tiny slice of cornbread (1" wide by 2" long, maybe more like 3/4" wide.), drizzled the turnip greens/hominy/tomato sauce combo on top and topped it with a scant serving spoon full of the beans, into my little tiny dessert bowl (way smaller than the soup/cereal bowl). Ahhh it was all so satisfying, as if I'd had a slab of meat, but there's no meat in it (oops, well a couple packets of the chicken broth concentrate that comes in little mylar type squeeze packages inside of a cardboard box, which I had put into the black eyed bean broth earlier in the day.).
That made me wonder if there was a "protein combination calculator" where one could plug in the vegetarian food options they had eaten and it would tally up the proteins and the various amino acids and tell you how much protein you had actually consumed, and how many of which amino acids you actually got, so you'd know what to eat to balance out the amino acids you might be "low" in (Keep in mind, hominy is a type of corn, and of course, cornbread is made with ummm corn meal, so I really did have some complementary protein going on there.).
Anyway, I found these links, will go back and finish reading them. I don't think they actually demonstrate what I have in mind, so far as an online interactive protein calculator counter thingamajigger dealie whopper whatchacall it...
michaelbluejay.com/veg/protein.html Now this one has some interesting charts, and a Calorie & Protein Calculator - not quite what I visualized, but looks handy to have it around. Just plug in the age and weight and height, gender, body fat, activity level and while you are changing it, the box in the right changes, with little green highlight bar to illustrate the energy needs at the level of activity you are at. This makes it handy to play little "what if"... as in, how much protein would I need at this age, weight, etc if I increased my activity level for the week. Yea, I think I'll keep this website...
(EDITED: WOW this website just goes on and on - basically the VEGETABLES themselves are all COMPLETE proteins. He's got this chart saying it, and it's evidently online from the USDA website. He has a list showing many common vegetables - corn, green peppers, pinto beans, cucumbers, oatmeal, rice, tomatoes, lettuce, potatoes, and they EACH have ALL of the Amino Acids!
Then he launches into a discussion about how the "myth" of incomplete proteins can be traced to the book "Diet for a Small Planet" published in 1971 by Frances Moore-Lappé (which I have heard of forever but have yet to actually read.).
WOW. Well the website is very long, very detailed, very interesting. I'm not even done reading it.
Okay, editing over, back to the original blog material... I'm definitely keeping this website!}
Has interesting charts with "Group A" and "Group B" - and what amino acids each group is low in...so you can see the relationship to each other. Basically -
Group A: [Deficient in lysine. High in methionine and cysteine.]
Grains: barley, buckwheat, cornmeal, oats, rice, rye, wheat.
Nuts and seeds: pumpkin, sesame, sunflower
Group B: [Deficient in methionine and cysteine. High in lysine.]
Legumes: beans, chickpeas, lentils, peas, peanuts, soybeans
A search for Proteins Complementary etc will bring up gobs more so who knows, maybe I'll find the calculator that I'm wishing for eventually. Not gonna have time to get to them all today!
But... I should sleep pretty good tonight!
Monday, June 03, 2013
I saw a video and it occurred to me that the woman on this video was a physical embodiment of the little pieces we are trying to get back into our lives - the attention to the little details that gradually lead to a larger goal. The focus on these details - and balancing it all in our lives.
The Incredible Power Of Concentration - Miyoko Shida
Look how calm and serene she is?
Beautiful! And Inspiring.
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