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Stressed out!

Monday, January 29, 2007

I'm trying not to let it get to me and just to have fairth. I found out Friday that my current boss is going to let me go because I went to a job interview that I would get paid 3x as much as I am currently. I told them not to call unless I'm a serious candidate. They called and my boss is very upset. I'm still doing a great job for her. I studied until 4 a.m. in the morning and went to Sac for a 2 week course with a husband and bored teenager in tow. I came home and studied and passed 22 more online exams and then 10 days later went back too Sac and passed the State exam. The next day I'm back at work making tons of calls and setting up appts and then I get this news that when my boss gets back she is going to let me go. I haven't even gotten a job offer from the other place. She would rather pay for training another person instead of using me while I'm here. I'm only getting paid minimum wage! I was thinking about staying. I haven't even gotten reimbursed for my trips down there which she said she would do because she can't afford to pay me. Our last staff meeting was talking about laying people off. I was the last one hired. And she is upset for me looking for a job elsewhere. Ugghhhh. Maybe this is just a sign to let go. I have been eating peanut M&M's like crazy. I'm going to start back up at Jazzercise today. The exercise will help with the stress.


One day at a time

Thursday, January 25, 2007

I'm really learning to live in the moment. I have a lot of things going on now. I started my job 2 months ago learning something that is totally new to me. I passed the state exam. That wasn't easy. Now, I'm waiting to get the clearance to go ahead from the DOI. Then, a job that I'm more familiar with came along with 3x the pay and benefits. They called my boss last friday and told her that I was in the top 3 candidates and there are 3 positions open. My boss of course is upset and asking me what I'm going to do. I haven't been offered the position so I just keep moving forward with the job I'm currently at. I don't know what to tell her. I can't say I would turn down the other job if they offer it to me. It could take months knowing the state. I guess this is a lesson in patience. I'm still unsure if my current boss is going to let me go because of it or not. Time will tell. Breathe. Patience is not my best virtue but I guess I'm going to get a lesson in it.


Pushing forward

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

This site is amazing. It started out as a tool for me to lose weight but as I started learning more about myself I wanted to push the envelope and stop living in my fear. I learned a new profession and just yesterday passed the state exam for it. All in 2 months. This old dog can learn new tricks! It feels great and life is opening up and givng me all kinds of choices. Thanks Spark!

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BDMIRELE 3/6/2007 2:00AM

  Facing fears I have used this in other aspects of my life to resolve issues or meet goals. The comment about being out of your comfort zone hit home with me. I have not considered there is a fear involved with my eating habits. Something to ponder tonight. Thanks.

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spinning my wheels

Monday, January 15, 2007

It feels like I have so much to do that it's overwhelming me today. My weight is doing well but I feel really stressed. I put really high standards for myself and I need to ease up and do the best that I can and know that it's ok. It just seems like everyone is so confident that I'll pass and I don't want to let anyone down. I will set out a plan and do one thing at a time. It is nice to be able to just vent. I know it will turn out. I just have to remember to breathe and enjoy the process.


I'm getting there

Saturday, January 13, 2007

I have the 52 hour course out of the way and the fingerprinting and background started. My date for the exam will be the 22nd of next month. I still have an online course to get out of the way in the mean time. I need to keep concentrating on the information that was taught. I met a lot of great people down there. I'm so nervous about the test but it feels good to challenge myself and to learn new things.


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