Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I have been on this weightloss journey seriously since the beginning of July 2008 (at least that's when I signed up on Spark). I weigh about fifteen pounds MORE now than I did then. This is so damn frustrating! I try doing what I read and hear that I'm supposed to do, and then I gain weight. So then I find something else to try, and I gain weight. One step forward, two steps back. And I don't think I would mind it so much if my clothes seemed loose or I felt more energized, but they don't and I don't. It is so damn frustrating!
I am not giving up. I refuse! I smoked for 30 years, but I quit! Granted, it took a while to do it. I quit thousands of times, but I finally FINALLY found a method that worked. My fingers are crossed that I something will finally click with this weight rollercoaster too.
I am so happy for everyone who has lost any weight. One pounds, fifty pounds, one hundred pounds! That is such an awesome achievement. And I am always hearing about "I lost thirty pounds last month" or "I lost fifty pounds last year" and I am so happy for these people...but DAMNIT! I've been busting my ass just as long as you have and all I have to show for it is a FIFTEEN POUND GAIN! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ok...done venting now... and I actually feel better. Onward and upward (or downward...please God, downward!)