Friday, February 06, 2009
My boyfriend, Roger, father is in hospice. It has been such a rough week. On Monday, his family decided that they will no longer be doing treatment because it is just not working. So Tuesday, Roger and the family came to Georgia to say goodbyes. It was hard on everyone. I on the hand stayed home and attended my night class. That was really hard because I never known if my phone would ring and say he has past. Wednesday morning, I attend my classes. After class, we including myself when to the hospice which is at 2 hours away from home. It was so hard to see a man that I met a couple of years ago who then was strong and power be laying there. I never said a word and started pray. I am not a real big pray warrior when it comes to speaking in public no matter how comfortable I feel. I did start praying. Low and behold people started bowing there heads and listening to me speak. Inspiration hit had room like a flood. Hey Amy, can you read this scripture or that one. When you get finished how about this one. I read to Clary and his whole family for hours. We let about 9.
Thursday, we went up for round 2. I worked on my paper and taking breaks to pray with each family member. I enjoyed the fact that I felt like I had nothing to offer and several members of this amazing family brought their bibles to read along.
Friday, has been tough including myself. Clary's lungs are filling up. The doctor says no more than a day. As it approaches night fall I feel scared. Roger's 30th birthday is Saturday. How much this has to hurt knowing that you are losing your father possibly on your birthday.
My 30th is Monday. As it stands, the funeral will be on Monday or Tuesday is what the family is talking.
Please God help this family. I love so much and it hurts because they hurt. I wish I had long arms I would rap them up in my arms and shield them for the pain. As I see them go through this all I can think of is my parents. How much I would hurt if anything happen.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Well in my last blog I had a list of goals I set for myself and I just want to have a little progress report to make sure I am holding myself accountable.
1. TO log in everyday to sparkpeople
In my opinion I feel that I have logged in everyday. So I would give myself a 100%
2. Log my food
I am not doing so go with that, I have logged food just about everyday but I am not finishing my list of food. So for effort I give myself a 80% and for actual logging 60%.
I need work.
3. 8 glasses of water
This one for the most part I get done everyday....so I give myself 80%. I still need progress but I am coming along.
4. Working out 30 minutes everyday
Well, It depends on how you look at it. Monday, Wednesday, Friday I am working 60 minutes in the morning before classes. I just feel great. Tuesday and Thurday not so much. I just find myself having to complete other thing or go to doctors appointments with Roger. Weekends forget it...I don't even have a chance to catch my breath...Doing laundry, planning meals, getting homework done, and having time for Roger. So I would give myself a 75%. I can do better but I am not going to beat myself up about it.
5. Time for myself
Well, I have not been doing that to much. I did it today. Usually, I came home right after class and go right into clean, cooking and crap. Not today...I am at campus just surfering the net and enjoying coffee. No one asked me to do anything for them. I can very much enjoy making this a part of my routine. SO I am not going to give myself a grade just yet.
6. Back to School, Passing with B's
I have got a schudule to keep when it comes to read, writing papers and going to class and so far its working great.
I am reading ahead in all my classes so that if something comes up which it hasn't I will still be prepared. I am not waiting for last minute for papers I actually starting them early and I signed up at the writing center. All my classes are on Monday, Wednesday, Fridays, I make appoint to get up early and go workout. It starts my day right. And who goes to bed and gave exercise. Its working for me. Old testment I took my first quiz 80%. Math, I am very much active asking and answering question and of course, English...frist paper back....I was very creative and entertaining as a writer. I am also taking Music History one day week. I figured that one out yet but I will.
So over all....90%.... there is always room for improvement.
7. Weight loss
The scale isn't moving to quickly but it will. I know that I have lost inches. So grade 70%. This is just a jumping off point.
100% I am posting everyday.
My overall score 80%. Its good but I can do better.
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