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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I have one less pound on my body. Yeah. I am very happy about this. I am doing really good with all the serious stress going on in my life. My life in review since November 2006.

November I lost my job. A dream job for me. I loved it. And this job was the frist job I cried over. I losted it due to the company no my fault.
December: Came back to New York for the holidays. Was invited to a friend's house for a Christmas party. Everything was alright until my ex from high school woke up and put gum in my hair. I cried the rest of the night.
January: Boyfriend cheated on me and we broke up. The break up part is all over the place. No true date of when the relationship actually broke up. My Grandma had her breast removed. She still has cancer and parents thought it best not to try anymore. My Dad had his knee surgury and hes doing well. I sleeped with some I probably surent have. I dont know that until March.
February: My birthday...it would have been good except my ex decided to call and make me cry and my good friend never showned up to go out. I got royally f #@k. Then my good friend, same friend, tells me she left her husband and I start making arrangements for her and I to life together. Then I found out she lied to me. We are not talking.
March: Mom went to the hospital because of high blood pressure. She is fine now. Had a friend from the past call me today....I found out alot about things being said about me. I have a new policy about people...dont trust anyone. People really suck. And those people can suck my a$$.

So now I am still in March and since January 1st I have lost 14.7 pounds and like 20 inches. SO either what I am doing or the stress is making me loss the weight. No matter what I am going to be 100 pounds less by December 31st 2007. I have 85.3 pounds left and 9 months. I will be 199 pounds. I havent seen that weight since 1994 when I was a freshman. I will get there. So Devil bring it on.

  

My Future Husband

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I know that its been recent since my ex and I broke up. I am having really werid dreams about him. Well him and I getting back together. I keep praying that God will send my Mr. Right to me. I dont want him back. He has hurt me too much to for us to move past it. I know he still loves me. And I will amit that I still care for him. THe King of All Jerks. I know that his relationship with this new girl wont last. I give it less than 6 months. What always happend between us is we break up...he goes with someone else...it get bad...they break up and I take him back. I refuse to do that again. I dont love him. Well at least that is what I am telling myself. I want to find Mr. Right.
Someone who thinks I am his number besides God of course. I am sick of playing second best. I want someone thats sincere and kind. SOmeone that works and has fun. SOmeone that know how to communicate to me about his feelings without a temper.
I have great qualities that I want in a mate. I am easy to talk to. I love music and traveling and cars. I get along with everyone. I love children and I wouldnt have a problem with a guy that has kids. I have never been married. I dont kids. I am smart and hard worker. I am reliable and sincere. Everyone thinks I would make a great wife and mother. I dont play head games. I just want a nice guy. That will enjoy our relationship the ups and downs.
I am thinking about joining eharmony. I know that sounds werid. But I think my husband is on there. I keep praying that God will bring him to me. Or show me a door. It may sound werid but all signs point there.
In 2000, I was engaged to a guy named Kevin. We were getting married in Oct 2001. So in our church you had to go to marriage therapy stuff. So while we were there my pastor told me to read this book called Finding your Mate in 2 dates or less. I read it. I was impressed. When relationship didnt work out I seen a commerial on tv for eharmony by the same guy that wrote the book. I didnt think anything of it.
Then I started dating my ex and signs like that keeped happening. Like his mother encouraging me to check out the web site for her which was eharmony. Acouple of friends of mine tried and got married.
In August when we separated I decided to try it. I did. I found some people that I was interested in. Nothing really stuck out to me. My ex and I got back together again. I lost my job after that. I came to NY for Christmas.
When I found out we had broken up to make myself feel better I went on the site to see who was on there. Amazingly, they had a promotion where you could communicate for free for a weekend. After the weekend was over, I enjoyed talking to the men. We had lots of fun. Unfortunally, I dont have alot of money and its $50 for month to continue with the communication. I asked God if he wanted me to do this to make away. Well I got a email stating that 60% off the cost for 3 months. Thats less then $50 and i could afford that. I have until March 4th to do it. ANd I am trying to decide. Does anyone have feeling about this?

  

March is coming

Friday, February 23, 2007

March is coming in like a lion and its going to go out like a lamb. I just got back from my friend's house. She is scared and there is nothing I can do about it. All I can do it is be there. I hope March is going to be as good as I think its going to be. As you can see...I am getting ready for St. Patty's day.

  

My day today

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Well, today has went pretty well. I got up. Eat breakfast. Clean the house, got my grandmother up and dress and feed. I worked on my Biggest Loser 2 Dvd. I have noticed the improvement all ready. I ate some lunch. I am energized but my muslces are tired. Today isnt my day to weight in. However, I step on the scale everyday. I know I shouldnt be like that but I do. I step on it like 6 times a day. But today it actually read 287.8 Now of course , I am trilled. My body weight flexes between 288.8 to 295. SO I love that its said that. So on Monday I am going to change my wieght and move my little hearts. Yeah.

  

My ex-boyfriend

Monday, February 05, 2007

My ex-boyfriend could not be more off an ass. Seriously, we broke up sometime this past week. Dont ask me when...because I dont know. I found out we broke up from his mother. She called me to find out why her son was introducing her to a new girlfriend. Its truly over...I cant take the drama any more. I do love him. BUt I cant.

  

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