I wasn't on much yesterday. I walked into a mess at work. My friend, Scott, quit his job for medical reasons. And... Cindy, my co-worker that was going to be taking me to the gym, was fired. I had to do my job, their jobs (which is my old job) and train a new person. So I am behind at work. I am disappointed that my plans for the gym had to change.
I am still trying to remain positive. I am thinking about asking my dad to borrow his Wii. I like the bowling games.
I did something to my back yesterday. I am so sore. It is hard to bend and stretch.
Yesterday, my boss talked to be about the dark cloud over my head and the heartache that follows. She and several of my co-workers have gotten together. The plan is I am going to lunch on Friday. I also get an 11/2 hours paid too!!!
Then I started talking to one of my co-worker's, Cindy. She lives a few minutes down the road from me. That being said, I haven't worked out last week and this week doesn't look to promising except Saturday. Next week, I will be riding with Jayne. After work, she is dropping me off at my gym. Cindy gets out an hour later. She will be picking me up. I figure I have about 40 minutes to do a workout in! I am super duper excited about it!!!!
I will be filing taxes tonight. My car should be fixed within a month!!!
And... things are just getting better. I have been talking to a man online. So far we seem to have a lot in common. The best part he lives in my town. We haven't decided to meet. I am taking this slow. He is a chef. He knows I eat healthy. I will have to wait to see.
I am feeling a lot better now that I have caught up with my sleep. I am still thinking about my ex but yesterday I almost went the whole day without thinking about him. Its such a waste of time. I did update my profile on a dating site. My bff encouraged it. I have been talking to a couple of men. Its a nice distraction.
I didn't workout at all last week. Starting today, after I get home from work I will be asking to borrow someone's car so I can go to the gym. I have been super stressed.
It didn't help I went to church with my mother and well...they are very touchy people. The pastor yells everything. She said I was being convicted. Give me a break! I don't like to talk to a lot of people. I don't like being touched every 5 seconds by people I don't know. I walked out of the church with a monster headache. I don't need to be yelled at or touched to know that Jesus loves me and I need him in my life!
Completely irritating to know the ones should know me and love me for who I am, don't!
I did get some sleep last night. I feel more rested today then I have all week. I stopped crying about the ex last night. Enough is enough. I need a man and proof he wasn't one. He was lucky to have me but he deserves her.
Note: There is a blog of what he exactly said to on facebook to break up with me.
So now, I am going to move on from this...
I found a trusted mechanic to fix my car with a guarantee. It is a little more then I can afford in the next couple of weeks so I will have to wait for my taxes to come in. At least, I have a ride back and forth to work.
Jamie's boys' have adjusted to school. They love being able to come home and go play outside! Her youngest is a little overweight. Now instead of coming home and eating noodles he goes outside never asking for a snack!!! It is a great feeling. Now the her boys' are outside, my son loves going out with them. I love the fact he likes the outdoors.
Ever since my sister had her baby she has been so nice its creepy. I hope that stays that way too. So even if everything in my life has been flipped upside down I still have things that I am blessed about.
My f#%king ex boyfriend, James, broke up with me over facebook. This is exact message I received.
Ok I hate telling you this at the time that you are having but my ex wife and I are working things out and are getting back together. I love the time we had together but we live too far away and you are twice as pushy a woman as I have ever seen or met. I hope you find everything you are looking for and I hope you understand that this is not just about me or you or her. It's mainly about the kids that I have. I'm very sorry! And hope you understand.
So being a woman that I am... I need to vent because I didn't and I am not planning on responding to such an asshole!
When we had our first date I asked him if there was any possibilities that the ex wife and him would get back together.
His responses, "No, I can't trust her. She is a cheat. We were dealing with each other 10 years and it didn't work out."
Next thing, Yes we live a little bit farther that I would like. I thought it was ok for now. If you like someone it shouldn't matter the distant. I was wrong.
PUSHY! Hmmm... how can I be pushy if we only see each other once every 7 to 10 days! PUSHY MY ASS! HE JUST DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN! F@CK HIM! We had to plan to see each other because we lived so far away! What the F@CK? We both have kids, jobs and responsibilities! Planning is necessary it is not pushy!
Then to end it all...its about the kids! What the f@ck?!!! Was he looking for a babysitter? I am a woman that wants a real relationship! F@ck him. F@ck this!