Tuesday, January 09, 2007
I love my mother very much and I just not understand her. Why does she think I am 12? She gets so depressed and she takes the depression out on me. This my sound hurtful and heartless but its not meant to be. If you know anything about me I travel alot; I currently live in Tennessee. One of my reasons for moving away is my mother. She makes me feel bad about things: eating, sleeping, talking, going out with my friends. She wants me to be as depressing as she is.
My life in Tennessee is very much different then the one I had and are having here. I try to tell her and show her. She really stresses me out. One of my new rules is that one day a week I forcus just on myself. I don't talk to people, I don't visit, I write in my journal, I read, I exercise, I pray. I do me stuff to make me a better person. It my brain time to refresh with out everyday things get in the way. So the phone rings, my mom turns to me and says its your friend, I don't want to talk. She answers the phone and hands it to me. I get off the phone and look at her. Why would she answer? She doesn't answer except to say I am selfish.
I just want to be left alone.