6 days and counting...

Friday, September 28, 2012

It's Friday!

It is time to make my weekend to do list: (This is my last weekend before I go to New York)

Friday:

Kaleb and I are going swimming after work today.

I making stew beef with pasta and tomatoes tonight.

I am putting my official tag on the car

Saturday:

1. Returning library book

2. I am going to try a water class in the morning at the gym

3. trash

4. stopping by to pick up my registration for my car

5. Grocery shopping

6. Laundry

7. Pack my bags for our trip

Sunday:

1. Church

2. Cleaning the bathrooms... again

3. Vacuuming

4. Sweeping and Mopping

5. Swimming

Highlight of the day: Donuts have been offered at work... I avoid, I changed my routine... I did tempted however I did not indulge!!!!

  

Venting so I do not emotional Eat

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I will be honest with you. I am really depressed. I am really lonely. I miss having a man to hold me at night. I miss sex. I miss being close to someone. I miss the feeling I cannot breath without the other person. Maybe that only happens when we are a teenagers or maybe in the movies. I want that. I want romantic gestures. I want passion. I want that connection with another human being. I want long talks that are interesting

Lately, I have been wondering if that is actually in the cards for me. I am wondering I am meant to be alone. I am wondering if I will ever have a date again. I am wondering if I will every feel comfortable with someone and have incredible sex.

I do not know what is in store for my life. I am trying to remain positive. I feel like the only single person in this whole planet!

  

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HDHAWK 9/28/2012 10:25PM

Venting is the better choice! Yes, it can happen for you. It did for me and I never thought it was possible. Hang in! Report Inappropriate Comment

40LESSOFERIN 9/28/2012 3:03PM

Hang in there.....I miss sex too and i'm Married! LOL But trust that i have been there to. It never feels good. But your right to vent it out! I use to tell myself that i was to heavy to date. Then i kicked myself in the butt and said YES i deserve to find someone! I figured my dream guy wasn't going to come to my door, so i had to get out there. I joined groups and also asked every single person i knew to set me up on a blind date. Also to be very honest to the guy about what i looked like. I had a few BAD dates, but hey at least they were dates...lol but would've perferred to stay home and shampoo my hair. i did that for about a year with no real prospects, but i did figure out what i was looking for. It gave me confidence that when i did finally meet my husband he was the one Nervous to ask me out...lol and i was over 200 pounds when he asked me =) so have faith and get out there... Report Inappropriate Comment

MELTEAGUE 9/28/2012 3:01PM

Venting is better than holding it all in....hope you feel better after blogging and one day you will look back and it will all be a distant memory...and these ladies are right, when you are not looking for it, it will happen! Hang in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

ZIGGY7611 9/28/2012 1:43PM

Sorry sweetie. If it is any consolation, most of us single girls go through this at some point. The only good thing is that it will get better. And you will probably meet someone when you least expect it! Aside from that, I am super proud of you for not eating to feel better! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALEXSGIRL1 9/27/2012 9:48AM

it will happen when you least expect it give it time Report Inappropriate Comment

YOGAWITCH 9/26/2012 3:14PM

Wow, I think we are twins. I am down 80 lbs and only 30ish from goal. I thought it would improve my odds....not a single date. Starting to wonder if its my personality and not my size. Lately been working on how do deal with my situation instead of dwell on it. I don't have any answers for you, but you are not alone. I haven't had a date in 2 years Report Inappropriate Comment

BECCA315 9/26/2012 2:55PM

Keep plugging along! Even when things are going in what you feel is the wrong direction, good things can happen. Becca Report Inappropriate Comment

LJOYCE55 9/26/2012 2:54PM

Venting is allowed here so good for you for opening up. Report Inappropriate Comment

Update on Weekend List

Monday, September 24, 2012

My power steering pressure hose is fixed. Chad could not fix it on Friday but he fixed it on Saturday. He is a good mechanic except he has no concept of time. At least its fixed and fixed right. I have my tires already to go for my trip. No more maintenance needs. I am ready.

I did do all the laundry this weekend. I tackled the winter / fall clothes as well. I separated and put away the clothes. I went to the dump and dropped the trash. I moved the furniture and put my books away. My house is looking like a home.

My therapy was cancelled. Three weeks ago they notified me that they had to contact my insurance company. They forgot. It just pisses me off. They need someone on top of their game. I love Beth. She needs better help.

The only things I did not get done on my to do list was cleaning the bathrooms, vacuuming and cleaning the car.

I think I did pretty well this weekend.

Kaleb and I went swimming on Sunday instead of Saturday. We did not make the park.

  

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ALEXSGIRL1 9/25/2012 5:18PM

you did get a lot done Report Inappropriate Comment

Weekend List

Friday, September 21, 2012

Friday Night:

1. Getting my power steering hose fixed... I brought the part and fluid last night
I am not sure how long it is going to take to fix so I did not make any plans tonight to swim.

2. When Kaleb and I get home I will be making us dinner. I have know idea what I am going to cook tonight.

3. Gather all the laundry and put it in the car

4. I am hoping to be in bed by 9 pm. I know its early but we have a lot of running to do on Saturday.

Saturday:

1. laundry is first

2. the my therapy... I have not seen Beth in two weeks. I really need to talk and she makes me so happy.

3. YMCA... swimming Kaleb and I love the pool. It makes me so happy to chill out with my baby.

4. I am getting new used tires on my car. That will end my car maintenance for being ready for my trip.

5. Grocery shopping for this coming week

6. Get out my fall/winter clothes and separate what fits

7. having lunch at my parents' house

Sunday:

1. attempting to go to church

2. clean the bathrooms

3. Vacuum the bedrooms

4. mop all the other floors

5. Move furniture and books

6. take Kaleb to a park

7. clean out the car

I have 13 days until I leave for my trip!!! Yippee!

  

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ABC... took from a Spark person

Thursday, September 20, 2012

A. Are you at all artistic?
Yes but I do not showcase my art

B. What are your favorite burger toppings?
Mushrooms

C. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Green

D. Diamond or pearls?
Diamonds

E. What exotic pet would you like to have?
Camel

F. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
TED

G. What is the worst gift you have ever received?

In junior high we had secret santa and I was given perfume from one of the peppy girls. The note said,"You should use this. I heard fat people stink."
It has been over 20 years since leaving that school and she gained 100 pounds. I guess karma is a b*t#h.

H. What habit would you like to be able to break?
Biting my nails

I. If you could be invisible for one day, what would you do?
I would go to my exes houses and rearrange furniture, when they came home watch to see their reactions

J. What do you like about your job?
It is one of the easiest job I have had and pays the most too

K. Did you ever learn to knit?
Nope

L. Would your friends describe you as 'ladylike'?
haha - I don't think so -

M. What is your middle name?
Lyn

N. Are you a night owl or an early bird?
Early Bird

O. Do you like okra?
Yes, its yummy

P. When was the last time you cleaned out your purse?
Last Thursday

Q. What is one of your favorite quotes?
Life is like a box of chocolates

R. What do you have on the outside of your refrigerator?
nothing

S. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
Speed of Light

T. Do you prefer a truck or car?
Car

U. What is under your bed?
carpet

V. Did you wear a veil when you got married?
Not Married

W. Can you whistle?
Yes

X. Do you know what a Xenopus is?
Google just told me.

Y. Do you eat yogurt?
I have never tried it

Z. Do you enjoy zombie movies?
sometimes

You are invited to copy and paste this and insert your own answers. I hope you do. It is a fun way to get to know people a little better!

  

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JOHNMARTINMILES 9/20/2012 9:36AM

An alphabetic introspection. One must know their self in order to improve. Make Today a Great Day! Report Inappropriate Comment