Tuesday, May 14, 2013
The times I get hungry, I remember how I used to search the shelves for a bag of chips. Of coz they gave me the crunch and filled me up, only to throw me back at the shelves in minutes. Hence I was experimenting with food and I've discovered some food that take that hunger away instantly and keep me full for a longer time that a bag of chips.
These are my "filling foods"
Peanut butter on a 25 calorie tortilla
Greek yoghurt (mixed with a little sugar syrup)
All Bran cereal
Chocolate flavoured milk
I am still experimenting what keeps me full and so far, these are the food that work for me. :)
Saturday, April 27, 2013
I decided to write up this blog because I am currently doing "Why weight" workbook by Geneen Roth. She's my favourite author for weightloss issues. So there's a page asking me to list out the fat me and the thin me qualities. Here's mine.
The Fat me:
always wears large clothes
is feeling huge all the time
feels like a set of boobs
is quick tempered
is over protective.
The fat me wears clothes that are:
huge and baggy
long and loose
all covered up
When I am at a party, the Fat me:
is reserved and will never talk to someone
eats as much as possible and
When I am alone, the Fat me:
worries about weight and health
wants to lose weight and feel thin
wants to become thin
wants to have smaller boobs, stomach, and butt
The Fat me likes:
deep fried oily food
lots and lots of food and
Many of the qualities I listed above surprised me when I penned them down. But to be really honest and admit it, they are the truth about the ugly side of me.
Now let's come to the Thin me.
The Thin me is:
looks at people in the eye
is able to lift my kids
is smart/ intelligent
loves to hug my kids when I'm sleeping without a pillow in between to protect my stomach
makes good decisions or choices about food and life
The Thin me wears clothes that are:
long sleeved - especially cardigans and sweaters
loves high heels
trendy and fashionable
When I'm at a party, the Thin me:
won't make the first move.
drinks and eats if I want to.
When I am alone, the Thin Me:
is thankful for my body and health
says "Thank you" more often
is always calm
The Thin me deserves:
nice clothes, shoes, bags & accessories
a good hair stylist
to have fun.
The Thin me is also true. So it feels like there are just days when there's a Fat me and a Thin me.
This was what I had to complete in the workbook. Just thought that theremight be someone out there who feels like the fat me or thin me.
Saturday, April 27, 2013
The last blog entry I've made was on Jul7 27th, 2012. That was 10 months ago. What has changed from then till now?
Well I have moved to the United Arab Emirates. I am now working here. My life seems somewhat perfect. I love my house here. I love the atmosphere and my family loves it too. Everything seems rosy, except the weight issues.
I've come to realise that weight is something that I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. It's not something that I can "fix" and move on. Simply because, I have to eat every day. And since eating is involved, how can weight be a non-issue for someone like me who's been fat my entire life.
Well, the good news is, I've not gained any weight since I left Singapore. I still weigh the same. The bad news? I've not lost a single kilo and that's really annoying. I'm trying to think back as to whether I should count calories or go low carb. I'm still not sure. Whatever I choose, the more important thing is that I eat mindfully. I hate to admit it. But I'm a mindless eater when it comes to food. It's as if the "me" is out somewhere while I'm eating here. And then when "I" return, the food's gone, and I hadn't enjoyed a bite. I need to stop doing that to myself and perhaps I will eat less.
Well, that's the update for now. Especially for my friends who've been asking "Where have I been and how I'm doing." I will be posting another blog: the fat me vs the thin me shortly.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Since dropping some pounds, I realise, I'm so not used to this 'new' body of mine.
I had an argument with my daughter today and I raised up my hands and threw them back down after pointing at her and they hit hard on my hips. That's right, not on my stomach like they used to, because now the hips stick out more than the stomach. Or rather, the stomach has shrunk so it isn't sticking out that much.
I was out with my husband having dinner and while I sat, there isn't a lower stomach sitting on my thighs There was just the stomach and it seemed more like 1 segment rather than the 3 it used to be. And I can sit tighter. Does that make sense? When I sit, I pull myself all the way to the back of the chair and I have more space on the seat.
Oh yeah. The cinema seats have gotten bigger. Gosh. The seats are actually very generous. My butt has been so big that I was forever complaining the seats are very small.
I was lying on the bed on my side and the fat on my stomach which used to be prevent me from sleeping on my tummy is now gone and so I can actually sleep on my tummy now. Previously I got out of breath while sleeping on my tummy.
My pants are getting looser and so are my t-shirts. I got them all tailored to a smaller size today because I didn't want to throw them out yet.
When I sit on a chair, I can feel the butt bone. Is there such a thing? I only knew flesh on the butt. But yeah, there seems to be some bone in there and I can feel it.
My frens tell me I've lost weight and ask me what's the secret. I wish I could reply "There's no secret. Everyone actually knows how to lose weight. Less food + exercise = weight loss."
My mum tells me I look pale and asks if I've been eating well.
When I look in the mirror, I look thinner now. And since the mirror might have a different opinion from the camera, I take a photo and check if I look thinner and to my shock, I really do.
This fat mind of mine is still lingering around in a thinner body and I don't know how to deal with her. I'm not used to the weight loss. I'm not used to the compliments. I'm not used to the smaller clothes. All I knew were big clothes and junk food. Now that they're gone, I'm wondering what to cling on to.
Have you faced this before?
I'm gonna end with this. It really kept me motivated when I started out. It still motivates me actually.
Friday, June 22, 2012
My one year old and I were celebrating each others' birthday (no we don't share the same birthday) and so we were singing and wishing each other. And then we shared an entire cake. I ate about 4 slices and she ate 2. Calorie count: 0.
Then I prepared lunch for myself: Vegetable soup and pan-fried halibut fish. Calorie count: 300
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