Friday, March 08, 2013
Tomorrow my dentist says I can start working out again WOOOOT! I had dental surgery last weekend and was instructed to do no heavy activity for 7-10 days. Tomorrow marks seven days and I am feeling great so I can get back with the plan! there were a few days there when I was away from home and unable to track my food. One of those days ended uo being pretty much untrackable, but I did control the urge to binge and since I got home I have been as on track as I can.
My weight is sitting at ALMOST 63 pounds gone right now., of which about 50 is since November. I know I can't realistically keep up that pace forever and things seem to have slowed to a more normal/healthy rate of loss. In February I lost 7.8 pounds which is almost 2lb a week, and this month is looking to be roughly the same. I'll take it!
I would really, REALLY like to be in onederland by my anniversary cruise at the end of April. I have almost 11lb to go to get there by then, I really think it's achievable but who knows. If I can be at my goal (174) by July I will be THRILLED, and if I get to the 150-160 range by my anniversary in August I will poop my pants. no seriously.
For the first time since having my kids, I truly believe I am shedding my fat suit. There have been times over the past seven years that I tried to accept my weight and be ok with my body, but something happened this year...I had to have a biopsy on my thyroid and you know what? I want, I NEED to be alive for my kids. I am DONE with living not my quite best life.
On to the recipe:
SALTED CARAMEL CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE OATMEAL
1/2 cup dry oatmeal, prepared according to directions
top with one packet krisda caramel flavored stevia (available at walmart)
dash of salt on top
mix 3T light cream cheese with another packet of the caramel stevia
spread cream cheese mixture on top of oatmeal (you can melt it a bit if it is too stiff)
top with 1T semisweet mini choco chips
310 calories for the whole serving!
ENJOY OMG MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
and it's filling/satisfying too! Hope you enjoy it as much as I did
Thursday, February 21, 2013
So two of my three kids came down with stomach flu yesterday. the pukes started at 3AM with my four year old, and then my 6 year old started puking at school at 10AM. No one wanted to use a bowl, only four pukes made it 100% into either a bowl or toilet. Normally my kids are pretty good about using a bowl or toilet but MAN.
So the stage was set for a binge...no time to prepare food yesterday, no DESIRE to prepare food (as all I could think about was barf being in my food), sleep deprivation, and feeling low/depressed/anxious.
My dearest husband came home from work and announced "order pizza, these are extenuating circumstances."
Now, I agreed with him, and I did make a decent choice for the pizza (multigrain thin crust, chicken/chorizo/green pepper pizza totalling 190 calories per slice) but the problem is, I don't know whether to count last night as a binge. I felt a BIT out of control. I tracked my pizza as soon as it was ordered (two slices medium with five chicken wings) but then I had that extra slice...and then after dinner I still wanted my evening sweet treat (1/4 cup of brookside dark chocolate goji raspberries)
So was this a binge? my calories were over (almost 1900, tops of range is about 1600). I got on the elliptical after dinner as I hadn't exercised yet and I tried REALLY hard to not feel guilty about the dinner but my emotions DID get involved.
I started the negative self talk "you know you can't handle ordering pizza, you just triggered the end of your success" "your downward spiral starts now" you will never stay on track tomorrow or in the future" "now it will be another week before you see a loss on the scale".
Today I feel a bit more level headed, I mean really? I was about 400 calories over my usual. In the "olden days" a day like this would have warranted a trip to walmart to buy a jumbo bag of faux jelly bellies and a 2lb bar of chocolate to share with DH after we polished off a tray of nachos. So OLD PRIMA would have eaten nachos for dinner (let's be cautious and estimate 1000 calories although I am SURE it was typically more, especially with my beloved queso as well as melted full fat cheddar) then about 500 calories minimum of JBs and then about 800 calories of chocolate. So that would have been an additional 2300 calories, NO LIE.
So here lies the problem, do I consider last night a success because I only went over by a couple hundred? I mean, that's real life, right?
BUT....I felt out of control. THAT is NOT OK.
so basically I don't know how to feel about yesterday. Am I being too much of a perfectionist? How do I let it go and move on? Does anyone have any strategies for these unexpected "extenuating circumstances" days?
Monday, February 18, 2013
These were the goals I set for the period of January 12-February 12:
take care of the WHOLE me, baths, clothes, hair, makeup. FEEL GOOD about myself: bought new makeup as a reward, and I have been feeling MUCH better about myself
Love myself no matter what size: Still working on this one, it is an ongoing battle
Spend time with my kids doing what they enjoy every day: Ok I haven't been 100% on this one...I have taken my kids to do something fun or spent time with them every day, but my heart wasn't always in it. This is something I am really going to work towards this month, because I feel better about myself an my relationship with my kids when I make the time to take part in activities with them.
See a number under 220 on the scale: DONE!!! OMG YAY! I can't believe this one!
STAY ON THE WAGON! I usually fall off the wagon at some point between one and two months, If I can make it through this month on track I will believe I can go all the way: I DID IT!!!!! STILL tracking, STILL exercising, STILL avoiding binging!
Soooo......time for some new goals for month four.
1. No longer be obese according to the scale, this means getting my weight under 209... I know this is a lofty goal being that I am 217 right now but I think it's possible. I won't beat myself up if I am a bit shy of this goal though.
2. Lower my body fat %, which is currently sitting at 39.4
3. CARDIO for 30 minutes minimum, 6 days a week
4. STRENGTH training for a minimum of 10 minutes, 3 days a week
5. Lose the muffin top on my new size 14 jeans
6. KEEP TRACKING
7. Ok this is a hard one...reduce my evening snack to 200 calories or less
8. play with my kids every day
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Hi to all the Wave Runners (and everyone else!) This is my about me post, can't wait to read everyone else's!
I am a 33 year old stay at home mom to three young kids (two boys ages 6 and 4 and one daughter age 2). I am starting university this year (yeah I know I do things in the wrong order!) to become either a labour and delivery nurse or a midwife, depending on which school lets me in first! I have been married since 2003.
In November 2012 I reached a breaking point. I finally kicked the cigarette habit and DH and I were buying bags of candy and 2lb chocolate bars each night, to eat as desert after we finished our nachos. The weight was coming on at an alarming rate. Then I had a few health scares and I just realised I was DONE with the diet train to nowhere. You can check over my gain story in my last post if you like, but I began our marriage at a MUCH lower weight. Since my first son was born I have been trapped in the yoyo cycle, gaining and losing the same 20-30 pounds.
So In November I decided to get off that yoyo train once and for all. Yoyo dieting is bad for my body and I decided that if I couldn't do it with diet and exercise THIS TIME, I was going to the doctor and taking meds or getting a referral for a gastric bypass. I am dieting for the LAST time. I am GETTING TO THE LAST STOP THIS TIME. I am pushing through and nothing will stop me from getting to goal.
Two blogs have been hugely influential in my motivation and I highly suggest that you check them out! Diane at www.fittothefinish.com and Katie at www.runsforcookies.com have been my inspirations.
My starting stats are:
Weight today: 217.4 (up 1.4 since thursday UGH! didn't shake the Valentine's dinner weight!)
and this is the info from the tape method BF% for the second part of the challenge!
Body Fat %: 39.4%
Pounds of body fat: 85.5
Lean Body Mass: 131.5
I was a little bit surprised at my results, when I was 186 pounds (PRE KIDS) I had my body fat tested at the gym and they said it was 36%, so that is only a 3.4% difference but a difference of 31 pounds! I guess all these fitness minutes really are adding up!
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