Saturday, September 11, 2010
My life sucks. Everything sucks! Spark sucks and Fridays suck and life is a pain - and I hate everything cause everything sucks! It sucks so bad that my ears are popping and I could just kick a stained glass window.
I'm working 7 days this week, people working fewer hours are making more money than I am, I just know I'm way over my calorie range today, I'm bored silly, I'm sick of having no social life, I'm tired, my dog has fleas again, my kitty has a bladder infection, my back hurts and I'm really tired of my back hurting, I didn't get any exercise today, I have to run some errands tomorrow that I don't wanna run, and I'm just gonna be ticked off!
Did I mention how sleepy I am? I hate everything right now. EVERYTHING!
I haven't even gotten on Spark today. Guess I better go spin that evil little wheel. Yeah, look at that thing....teases me with 500 goodie points but never delivers them.
Forget it, I'm going to the message boards.
There's a thread there.... I guess I should read it. Fine, I'll read it but it'll probably be stupid.
Oh some goodie two shoes is posting about how she ate dinner at McFatties and tracked all the crap she ate anyway even though it was crap. Oh yeah, good for her. Other uppity sparkers are all agreeing about how we should track our food regardless of what it was. Track, track, blah blah blah........ Yeah whatever!
Oh I just hate this. I agree with them. I hate that I agree with them, but I know they are right.
Oh how that chaps my hide! I don't want to be agreeable! RATS NEST! I really hate to admit it. I hate to agree with anyone over anything right now. I want to disagree!
Life sucks. Did I mention how tired I am?
...but I do agree about tracking and ..............
GRRRR!! Oh Fine! Whatever!
I'll track my food today, but it's gonna really suck dog doo.
In fact I'm gonna track every bite I took and probably more. I'll pump up those numbers nice and fat just like I'm gonna be for the rest of my unnatural life and that'll show just how bad this day sucks and what a waste it has really been!
Here's the meal from hell! Take that food tracker! You big old nutrition nazi! What do you think about that? Four zucchini muffins for a snack! Yeah FOUR, what about it? Two servings of lasagna for dinner. That's right! I ate that! What do you have to say about that, huh? You number crunching nut-job! My granny did math faster in her 98 year old head, so take that and shove it in your .....
What do you mean, I'm not over my range for today? I'm even low on my sodium which is normally through the roof?
Are you sure, faithful little food tracker, old buddy, old pal?
Well.....okay..... maybe my eating didn't totally suck. Maybe I'm not so far from my goals after all. Okay, I'll give on that one.
Still, I gotta work tonight and that bites a big one. HA! Gotcha there!
Well, I AM on Spark while I work. ...and I DO have a job.... that's something for which I should be ....... (grumble-full) .........grateful.....I meant grateful.
Dang! I hate that! I have to admit that not every thing sucks.
Okay fine, not everything sucks, just MOST things. Like... Like those danged errands I have to run tomorrow. I'll be taking my son clear to Poulsbo to shop.
....That means a long damn drive
.... in the van with my son. Where we will spend time together...
.....I've hardly seen him all week.
That'll give us time to talk and catch up on stuff. Ya know, I really love him and I missed him a lot this week... and tomorrow we will have hours together.
.....That could be, well, I hate to say it.....kinda of .....well.......
......good. There! I said it! It would be good!
Oh what is this? What now? My little dog is looking for me. Oh no, she's giving me the sweet puppy face and snuggling up to me. Oh I don't wanna be snuggled, not on the day from hell while I'm trying to be the biggest grouch this side of Grinchville. Yep, she has fleas... but she loves me....she just puts her problems behind her and is content to just sit on my lap and look at me with those big brown puppy eyes......well isn't that cute.
...and my kitty....well, the antibiotics are helping. He's getting a lot better and so far I've been able to give him his meds without anyone getting seriously damaged. That's good I suppose. He's purring as if life isn't all bad, as if.........life isn't all bad...
....and what's that? The clock striking 11? Quitting time? Oh good. Yes, that means I can go get some sleep.....in my nice soft bed......with my good old, best friend of a puppy dog. It'll feel so good to stretch out my back. There are clean sheets on the bed. I love clean sheet day! It's the best! I'm gonna stretch out on those nice clean sheets. Oh now that is fantastic.
....and there is something to look forward to when I get up in the morning - A wonderful trip with my son.
...and what's this? My pajamas are too big on me now? Yep, looks like I could get into them twice and have some room left over. I'm sure glad I always take the time to log into Spark and track my food. See the success you can have if you just keep a positive attitude like mine!
Good night puppy dog! Good night kitty! Good night son! Good night wonderful Sparkers! It's been such a great day, and I can't wait until tomorrow! Life is really good.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
I just discovered the Mobile Interval Training Timer. It's a cell phone application that acts as a fitness timer - you can program it for any interval duration you want. It's sort of like the Gym Boss, but cheaper - and since I take my phone running with me anyway, I only have to carry one thing.
This is great for HIIT, running, boxing / martial arts rounds, Yoga, Tabata, CrossFit, stationary bikes, etc. I'm using it for my running program - in place of the C25K program. I can use the same philosophy as C25K, but can set the intervals for my individual needs.
You can check it out at interval-timer.com/
There is a free version for Windows that you can run on your computer or lap top and there is a free trial period for the cell phone application. The full version will cost $14.95 if you want to buy it, but you can use it 10 times for free first.
The numbers display really big so they are easy to see and this application works on newer and older phones alike. (Edited to update - it won't work on an iPhone)
I love it, so I had to share it.
Take care everyone!
Monday, September 06, 2010
Sometimes before I blog, I look around for inspiration - I see what my friends are dealing with, I look on the message boards and see what the recurring themes are - I consider many things, then I write. As I go through the process of finding a topic, I often say to myself, "I know there is a blog around here somewhere..."
Its my way of saying that I'm sure to find a topic if I just look around a bit.
Well, not today. Nope. I really didn't find a topic that jumped out and said, "WRITE ABOUT THIS!"
So, today's blog is all about me.
It's a running day but it's raining. I'm not sure that's going to stop me though. I'm sort of blah and I want to run. That's a big change from what I used to do when I was blah (I used to eat of course). I like it that when I feel blah or bored or frustrated I had the urge to run instead of the urge to eat. That's a real lifestyle change.
I ran Friday and should have rested Saturday. However, I got really down on Saturday and needed to run, so I did. I ran hard, too. I didn't do week 4 of c25k when I ran, even though that is what I am working on currently. I didn't use the program, I just went and ran.
I covered the same distance I would have covered had I used the program, and I covered it faster. In fact I had been running at a pace of a quarter mile in 3 to 3.5 minutes. Saturday I did a quarter mile in 2 min 45 seconds. I can't sustain either pace for more than a quarter mile, but that may come in time.
I'm not one to push for speed. It's just an added bonus to see myself moving a little faster. I'm trying for time (endurance) and good form - that's the main focus.
Now here's what I'm wondering - I enjoyed my run Saturday more than usual and I got a fantastic workout. I want to go do that again. I want to throw c25k out the window and just start doing my own thing. I think I may be able to just listen to my own body and train by doing my own thing. However, I don't want to be setting myself up for injury. If anyone has any thoughts on it, I'd be glad to hear them.
On another topic, I went to a barbecue at a friend's house this weekend. I made really healthy choices and I was very mindful of my portions. I know I didn't guess exactly right portion-wise but I was mindful to err on the side of caution. I passed on the beer and wine completely.
I had intended to have a beer while I was there, but when the alcohol was being poured, my first thought was, "Is this consistent with my goals?" Before I even knew what I was saying, I had politely passed on the beer. I've been practicing that for a while now, asking myself about my goals while shopping, cooking, eating, and drinking. Just like I said in a previous blog, practice. I practiced and apparently it is coming naturally now.
You know the only thing that's more fun than drinking at a barbecue? Being the only one sober at the barbecue. I sipped my water (from my inspirational travel mug) and watched the shenanigans of those who had drank everything BUT the water. It was so much fun. The next day when my friend called (hungover) I counted myself very lucky to not have drank a drop. Not only did I not do anything unhealthy and stayed within my calorie range for the day, I still had fun, and I wasn't hungover the next day. Although I felt bad for my friend, it felt good to know I had taken really good care of myself.
Another non sequitur -
I am involved with the CASA / GAL program in my county. I'm in week 3 of training (in a 12 week program) and I've got a ton of studying to do. It's going to be a very busy week - Josh goes back to school on Tuesday, I have dependency hearings on Thursday, and training class on Friday, plus I'm working a lot of hours this week and studying. However, I am determined to stay right on track fitness / nutrition wise.
Oh, I didn't mention it, but I strained my back last week and it's still not right. I've put my regular strength training on hold until it gets better. I found a really good DVD called "Rehab your Body at Home" by JB Berns. It seems to be helping. JB's DVD has sections for every body part and was designed specifically for rehabilitation of muscles and joints. Most of the work outs are less than 20 minutes and there are two series for each body part - one series for starting out, and a second series for after you regain some strength, flexibility, movement, whatever, of the part you are trying to recondition.
For not having anything to write, I sure have gone on a long time. I'd better either go run or go study.
Until next time...
Friday, August 27, 2010
The old joke goes: A man asked a cab driver in New York, 'How do I get to Carnegie Hall?' The cab driver answered, 'Practice, practice, practice.'
The urge to binge hit me today. It hit hard. This morning I woke up sick and couldn't eat breakfast or lunch. Late in the afternoon I felt better and that's when it hit. I wasn't queasy anymore, I really was hungry, and because it's my day off and I didn't have anything planned, I was bored. Hungry and bored can lead me right into mindless eating.
The Doritos called my name, the Popsicles were paging me, my car keys were jangling out the McDonald's tune, and my stomach was growling in harmony.
It is my sincere belief that we may become good at whatever we practice.
I want to be good at encouraging others, so I practice it. I keep going on and on in message board posts about how we really are in control and living healthy is all about choices. When the urge to binge hit me today, I had a choice to make.
I could have just eaten whatever I wanted. I was sick after all. I could have just looked at this as just one bad day. I could have just chalked this up to a minor setback and started again tomorrow...
...but is that what I want to be good at doing?
I want to become good at maintaining an attitude of appreciation and optimism. I also want to become good at making healthy choices.
I stood in the middle of my kitchen and thought to myself, "Do you want to be good at avoiding a binge? You are being given an opportunity to practice."
With that attitude, I was able to mindfully consider all the food in my house and ask myself what would be in line with my goals.
I really was hungry, so I put a broccoli and cheese Lean Pocket in the microwave. While they are processed food, they are not completely out of alignment with my goals. While it cooked, I disposed of the box of Popsicles, melting them all down the drain in the kitchen sink. I want to get really good at eliminating those things that serve no good purpose in my life. I ate my Lean Pocket and still felt like a binge was waiting.
I want to be good at remaining organized, so I cleaned out one of my kitchen cabinets. In the process, I threw out a bunch of junk that serves no purpose in my life. Then I drank a glass of water.
I want to become good at maintaining relationships, so I distracted myself from food by emailing a friend. After that I still felt hungry. I decided to eat a crunchy granola bar. It would give me something healthy to chew. After that I still felt every food in the pantry calling to me. So, I put my favorite show on the TV and distracted myself some more. By the time it was over, so was my desire to binge. I had outlasted it. It was over.
We've all heard that 'we are what we eat'. I also believe that we are who we practice being. Once we determine who it is that we want to become, we only have to practice and in the practicing, it becomes reality.
I do not believe we can wait until we are good at running before we start running. We can't wait until we are in good shape to go to the gym. We can't wait until we are good cooks to begin cooking healthy meals. We can't wait until we have momentum to begin moving.
If we are to be runners, gym-goers, cooks of healthy food - if we are to have momentum, motivation - if we are to be dynamic, we must first practice.
Practice, practice, practice.
I'm on my way to my own, personal, Carnegie Hall.
I hope I see you all there.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Oh I am miserable! I can't believe I did this to myself!
That darned smoothie, that's what did it. I'm learning about smoothies this week. Don't you just hate those learning experiences?
I'm not talking about the sort of learning that takes place when you read about internet security. I'm talking about the kind of learning that takes place after that clip of you doing the chicken dance in your underwear has already been posted on you tube.
Now I've never done smoothies before, never took them seriously. I thought of smoothies as some sort of trendy-gone-wrong yuppie thing or perhaps belonging only to the realm of militant vegetarians. I would no sooner think about drinking smoothies than I would think about ordering a drink with a little umbrella in it. In short, I didn't see smoothies as my "thing" - not manly enough for this carnivore. I mean, just look at the word for goodness sakes! Any food that ends in an "ie" and sounds cute should probably only be consumed by small children.
I don't know why I thought that. Any guy who is as handy with a textile fastening device as I am has no business being so pig-headedly macho about his food, right?
So I figured I really should give it a try.
This evening I started dinner and then got to work on that smoothie. I put a peeled orange, a banana, some coconut, some coconut milk, and some greens into the mangler (my food processor) and let it mangle for a while. It made a huge glass of tasty concoction. It was so good that I was actually impressed and began to think that I could get into this whole smoothie thing. I thought that it would be something that would digest quickly so I drank the whole thing and about 15 minutes later I sat down to dinner.
I was a little behind on my calories for the day, so, being the brainiac that I am, I decided to make a bigger dinner than usual. I had a double turkey burger with cheese. I felt a little full, but hey that smoothie isn't macho enough to stick around for long, right?
Oh I was wrong. I was so very wrong. Now I'm so full I feel sick. I have no problems eating a double turkey burger, so I know it was the smoothie that got me. I can't tell you how miserable I am. I had to change pants. It's Death by Smoothie, or Smoothie's Revenge, or something like that. That'll teach me to not take it seriously. I feel like some vegetarian version of the Alien is gonna bust out of my stomach at any moment - only my Alien is gonna be ripped like a young Arnold Schwarzenegger from all the nutrition in that smoothie. He's gonna bust out, do 20 one handed push ups and run off to raid my refrigerator, only I won't care because I don't ever want to eat again.
1) A smoothie is not just a cute little fruit drink.
2) A smoothie is not to be confused with juice which can digest rapidly.
3) A smoothie can contain a serious amount of calories and nutrition. It is a darned tasty way to consume more fruits and vegetables.
4) My dog loves coconut.
and most importantly,
5) A smoothie, when combined with a turkey burger, has the ability to spawn Aliens.
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