Wednesday, October 01, 2014
Here were my goals for September:
1) Track nutrition every day. ACTUAL: 22/30.
2) Walk outside every day. ACTUAL: 20/30.
3) Attend five dance classes per week. ACTUAL: 5, 5, 1, 4.
4) Lose 7 pounds. ACTUAL: 2 pounds. I'LL TAKE IT.
5) Eliminate alcohol to help jump start metabolism/ results ACTUAL: Did not fully eliminate but drinking was moderate outside of my husband's birthday weekend.
I LOST TWO POUNDS THIS MONTH. That is the big take away. This is the first time I've ended the month lower than I started since (checks reports) . . . MARCH? Yeah, this is a big deal.
Here's my secret weapon: http://www.beckdietsolution.com/
I've been at LONG last tackling the habits and thinking that undermine my success and lead me to overeat. In short, I'm working on me. I'm journaling every day. I'm looking forward to a successful October but I'm also being a bit introspective so I may not blog much. But let it be known, progress and changes are being made. I'm seeing glimmers of the "old" Olivia and for the first time in a year, not only do I BELIEVE I will be successful but I'm seeing how EASY it will be for me once I just get out of my own way. I've been struggling so much with negativity and sabotaging thoughts over the last year. And I'm letting it go. I thought that by beating myself up I would "motivate" myself to lose the added pounds even though logically I know that to be false . Instead, I paralyzed myself, made even the slightest positive action impossible without a litany of self-criticism and self-sabotage. The difference is now I can SEE IT so I can CHANGE IT. So, thank you, Dr. Beck. I will continue working on this and I will come back stronger. I already am!
Goals for October:
1) You vs. You Challenge at the gym (4 classes a week including one ST)
2) Continue with Dr. Beck.
3) Begin to implement Paleo diet.
4) Track nutrition.
5) Lose however much weight naturally results from the above actions!
Friday, September 05, 2014
I've had two really lovely desserts this week. Delicious unexpected treats that did not break the caloric bank.
1.5 oz burrata cheese (would also work with a nice fresh mozzarella)
1 white peach, diced (deliciously in season right now!)
A drizzle of honey (I tracked this as .5 tbsp but really I just stick a fork into the honey and drizzle a bit over the top)
Serve cheese on top of diced peaches and drizzle with honey. This was so tasty! The burrata has a creamy richness and the honey and fruit add sweetness.
1 single serving packet of Justin's All Natural Chocolate Hazelnutbutter
Now usually, an apple and nutbutter is just a snack. But Justin's adds a bit of cocoa and a bit of sugar (about 6 g's) to sweeten this up into dessert territory.
I had forgotten that one can satisfy the sweet tooth while still eating healthfully! I wouldn't eat these treats on a daily basis but a few times a week as an after dinner snack/dessert -- not bad!
Thursday, September 04, 2014
This morning I awoke with an aphorism rolling about in my head: "Life is NOT a dress rehearsal." I'm not sure where this phrase came from but I'm sure of it's meaning: You only get one shot in life. This is your only chance, so make it count. There are no do-overs.
But this morning, I thought to myself: "What if life IS a dress rehearsal?" As a former thespian, I remember dress rehearsals fondly. The whole cast, dolled up in costumes and make-up for the first time. Spirits were high. Everyone was excited. But we were still loose and comfortable -- there was no audience yet, no fear, no stage fright, no nerves. I remember giving some of my best performances in dress rehearsal.
The following night, we'd premiere the show before a live audience. Sometimes it was better. But sometimes it was stiffer, more awkward. Sometimes, we were crushed under the pressure, the weight of our own expectations and the wanting eyes of the audience.
You'll only live THIS life once. But what if you lived it like it was a dress rehearsal? Bold, free, liberated from expectations? Alive, in the moment and with unadulterated joy? No audience, no critics, just you, the stage and the spotlight.
Life is not a dress rehearsal. But maybe it's time for you to live it like one.
Wednesday, September 03, 2014
I brought an enormous quantity of healthy snacks with me to work today to help me combat the ravenous hunger that has been plaguing me. Strangely, I find that I am half as hungry today as I usually am. Possible interpretations:
1) I've been drinking more water?
2) Psychological comfort provided by abundance of food puts me at ease, makes me less concerned where next nosh will come from?
3) Fibrous fruits and vegetables increase satiety?
Honestly, it is probably some combination of the three but that last one is huge! I always forget how much less food it takes to make and keep me full when I am eating whole foods. Tendency to overeat is almost immediately curbed.
During my walk today at lunch, I started thinking about my exercise goals. I am currently trying to walk at least 15 miles per week. However, I should probably do more. When I was at my old job, I walked close to 5 miles a day on most week days and 1-3 miles on weekends. I was easily blowing through 20-25 miles per week. On some level, I think all that walking was just as beneficial -- if not more so -- than all the cardio I was doing.
It is important to note that there were a lot of factors involved in my successful weight loss -- a veritable confluence. I reduced carbs and calories. I reduced caffeine, sugar and alcohol. I ate mostly whole foods with a strong emphasis on green vegetables. I walked 20-25 miles per week. I did 5 or more cardio sessions per week and two or more strength training sessions. I sought out active play including biking, hiking and swimming. I turned off my TV set and got busy doing things around the house.
Basically, I did everything in my power to lose weight. And if I had continued doing even half of those things, I would have maintained my loss. Looking at this list now, I can see that in the last year I have slowly lost my grip on each and every one of those things. I failed to make them habits. My move last year totally upended everything I had built. I fell immediately back into my older, sturdier bad habits.
It is so tempting to attempt to recapture that whole list of goodness right this minute. I want to run back the clock and be THAT Olivia: The determined one, armed with education and a plan and a fire in her belly. I want to just shake out this past year like an etch-a-sketch and reclaim my health full steam.
But I know how these things go. An attempt to re-embrace it all at once will lead to failure. Baby steps. Right now, I am choosing to focus mostly on reducing carbs/calories and getting back into the cardio habit. That's September. That's what I can do today.
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