Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I log on to Sparkpeople just about ever day. I read all of the success stories and motivational stories but I just can't seem to let it sink in. I am struggling! I am out of control with my eating and nothing stops me. Not wanting to do it for myself, for my son, not for anything or anyone. How do I capture that feeling, that feeling that so many of you have? I get up every single morning and tell myself today is going to be the day and it works for a little while but then I end up right back into my old habits. It sucks! Absolutely sucks. I keep gaining and gaining and just can't stop. Then when I think about really getting serious about losing the weight once and for all I get disgusted. Disgusted that I let myself get like this and I have to start all over again. How am I going to possibly lose over a 100lbs. I so badly want to do it but I just can't get out of my own way. I am an absolute mess!! So I ask where and how do I begin?