Saturday, November 15, 2014
I am good at beating up on myself...my friend calls it "mean girl." It's like there are two of me...one is being really mean to me and telling me what a failure I am. It's that perfectionist thing that says "if you can't do it perfectly, then it is wrong."I do that negative self-talk in all areas of life, not just health. My boss at work will tell you that when I make an error, it's the worst thing in world.
But there is another "me" that just keeps getting back up no matter how many times I fall down. I am grateful that this resiliency remains. When I go down, I may go down hard. I might even stay down for awhile but sooner or later, something has got to change. So here we go again...
How can I be gentle to me? Failure (if that's even the right thing to call this) is part of life and how much sweeter success will be because of the times I missed the mark. I think I will consider this a "relapse" into old ways. For a time, I didn't want to even log in to SP because I would see how the days are ticking away and I'm still not where I want to be. I had a "why bother" attitude for awhile thinking that a healthy happy is life is for others but not for me. To heck with that! I don't know where that thinking comes from but it's not serving me. I don't want to live the rest of my years feeling sluggish and unhealthy. No way!
Looking back on my SP entries, I was at my happiest when I was doing something toward the goal...anything...no matter how small. I was taking some action and moving forward. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. This time, I will be nice to me.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
I am feeling pretty excited because not only did I stay within my calorie range yesterday which is only like the 2nd or 3rd time since recommitting to SP around Thanksgiving, but I also ate "right." I got enough protein, didn't go over on fat yet still got enough of the right kind (well below the max on saturated fat), stayed on the lower end of the carb range, got enough fiber (barely), didn't go over on cholesterol (usually do because I eat eggs more than occasionally), and I even drank enough water which is always a challenge for me! It definitely helped that I ate more servings of fruit and veggies; that does fill me up and nourishes me. Surprisingly, I even broke down and had one of my homemade applesauce oat muffins (healthier recipe) from the freezer and I still did okay. So, I am realizing that I can indulge a little if I am doing well the rest of the day...and because I chose the healthier indulgence (instead of the brownies which were also in the freezer). SP has been telling me that little changes do add up...and maybe if I could just exercise 10 minutes today instead of zero minutes, it would be PROGRESS! Though usually I think 10 minutes isn't even going to begin to address my problem since I am so far gone, after my little success yesterday, today progress is good enough! I don't have to be PERFECT today!
Saturday, December 15, 2012
I had been doing pretty well with healthy eating the last couple of days, and avoiding some of the temptations of this time of year but yesterday (Friday), I pulled a homemade cookie from the freezer and thawed it in the microwave. I thought it would be just one...thus started another binge...I think I had 6 in total but I lost count. I was feeling lonely and the sad events in Connecticut were on my mind so I think this was emotional eating. I felt nauseous from the overindulgence. One cookie has over 100 calories in it... and butter, pecans, chocolate chips, oatmeal...very rich. I want to remember how I feel when I overdo it. One was good but the rest were sickening. I refuse to beat up on myself for it though. It is done and I am going to get right back on track by drinking a glass of water to detox and as a reminder to be kind to my body.
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