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It's been a while!

Friday, January 04, 2013

Well, it's been almost 2 years since I've been on Sparkpeople. I took a quick break to have a kid and breastfeed for a year, which, contrary to popular belief, does NOT make you lose weight! It just made me hungry. I actually lost 20lbs during my pregnancy, and didn't hate my post pregnancy body, but of course between extreme sleep deprivation and lack of time, plus that aforementioned breastfeeding hunger, I gained it all back plus five pounds. I've also been hearing this really ominous crunching in my left knee, so it's time to get my s**t together. The one big plus is that now I really have a reason outside myself to be healthy. I don't want to pass my bad habits on to my little girl. Now, if I can just figure out when and how to fit exercise into the works, I should be good.

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MANDAROSE80 1/4/2013 4:52PM

    Congrats! emoticon

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    Congratulations and welcome back. I imagine you've got all the motivation you need now with your little girl. Best of luck trying to find a schedule that works for you!

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Seven reasons why I'm getting rid of my scale!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Well, I've been Sparking for a couple of months now (this time around), and I have decided that the scale is more harm than help. I lost the first 13 lbs pretty quickly, but now I've been hovering around the same weight for a while, and even got on the scale today and was 2 lbs heavier than my last weigh in. Now, I know there's no way I've gained even an ounce of fat, since I've been tracking every single calorie (never once going over), walking, and doing strength training. But the scale says I have gained weight. So, I'm making a big decision today. I'm getting rid of the weight tracker on my signature, and I'm not weighing in (at least for a LONG while). Why? Well, here are the facts as I see them:

1. When I log my calories and stay within my limits, I feel good.
2. When I log my cardio minutes and strength training exercises into the fitness tracker, I feel good.
3. When I can sit down at the end of the evening and can have a few squares of dark chocolate without guilt because I am within my calories, I feel good.
4. If I keep eating within my range and exercising, it is physically impossible for me to not get healthier and lose fat over time. It's simple math; I will be burning more calories than I am taking in.
5. Hopping on the scale will not make this process of getting healthier go any faster. As a matter of fact, it may slow me down. If I step on that scale and don't see progress, I'm likely to want to do something drastic (700 calories a day, anyone?), which will actually set me back both mentally and physically.
6. The scale is not an accurate way to measure fat loss. For that matter, does the scale tell me ANYTHING about how healthy I am? No. As far as the scale knows, those pounds could be muscle, fat, bone, water, etc., so measuring my weight won't help. Weight does not equal fat. Does the scale measure my relationship with food? No. Does the scale measure my physical activity? No.
7. My extra fat isn't the problem I have to fix. My poor eating habits and lack of physical activity are the problems I need to fix. The fat is merely a result of my problematic relationship with food and my lack of physical activity.

It's a difficult decision to make, since the scale and I have had a long, tumultuous relationship; the concept of trying to get healthier without a scale is completely foreign to me. However, my scale isn't helping me; anything that damages my motivation has to go. The last time I Sparked, I lost 45 lbs, then hit a weight loss plateau. After seeing no movement on the scale for three months, I gave up; I still had in my head that this was a diet, and that I was racing to the finish line. When I hit that plateau, instead of focusing on how great I felt in my new clothes, or the fact that I could do 45 minutes on the elliptical when I couldnít finish 2 minutes when I began, I focused on that darn scale. I was ashamed and frustrated that the scale wasnít moving, so I stopped coming on SP and slowly began to self-medicate with food. Before long, I had gained back that 45 lbs plus 20 more.

So clearly, watching the scale doesnít work for me. No more weekly weigh ins for me. I'm also going to make an active effort to remove the words "lose weight" from my vocabulary. Instead, I'm "getting healthier." I may not be able to lose weight every day, but I CAN get healthier every day. My behavior is always in my control, even when my weight may not reflect all of my hard work. Each day that I stick to my plan, I am healthier than the day before. I am proud of myself for changing my unhealthy behaviors, and Iím going to keep at it!

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ISLANDBETH 2/23/2011 7:28AM

    Great post and great idea. I did the same thing after I hit a plateau of several months last year. It is not good to stay fixated on the scale when you know you are making a lifetime change for the good. The fat will come off over time. :)

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TUCSONJILL 2/22/2011 7:04PM

    Brava, Dr_T! I think it takes guts to make that sort of change in thinking--good for you!

(And I also like the idea of the pitch-the-scale workout that Biggirl2082010 suggested, even if it's not practical... emoticon )

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DALAI_LALA 2/22/2011 4:28PM

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PRAISECHEESES 2/22/2011 3:56PM

    Thanks! :) I won't be actually throwing the scale away, since hubby uses it, but I won't be getting on it for a LOOOOOOOONG time! :)

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ELLYFINT 2/22/2011 3:09PM

    P.S. Saw your blogpost on the Separation of Church and Weight page. In case you were wondering how I landed on your blog :)

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ELLYFINT 2/22/2011 3:01PM

    Very convincing reasoning! Whether or not you literally throw out your scale, your idea of checking your weight after long periods of healthy living is a GREAT idea! All the best to you on your healthful journey!!!!


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BIGGIRL2082010 2/22/2011 2:02PM

    So, have you TOSSED the scale yet? Do it. It won't hurt. It may even count as a workout. :D

Totally agree with all you are saying about how the scale plays mental tricks on us. Your assessment that just fixing your choices to be more healthy will get you to all your goals is spot-on - GO for it!


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DEELYNNE1 2/22/2011 1:19PM

    I love this! Last time I weighed at the Dr's office it showed I hadn't lost a pound and I KNEW I had; it just made me feel bad and afraid I was losing ground. You are right, it's the health and the positive mentality that count most. Thanks for posting this.

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Couch to 5K and BREAD!!!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Hubbs and I started the couch to 5K program today. It went pretty well, although after the 5th running interval I just couldn't run anymore. I guess I'm going to have to work up to "Week 1 Day 1" of the program. I was proud of myself though that I managed to do 5 intervals, and of course that I dragged my sorry ass out of bed when it was still dark! :) I bought myself a new pair of running "shoes" (Vibram Fivefingers , so they're really more like running barefoot), so that was a motivator. I also managed to find cute workout clothes for CHEAP at Walmart, so I didn't feel like a dork running in something unattractive. I feel like I've already got to have my fat flopping around while I run, I might as well do it in something cute! ;)
Also, I have to put in a plug for these books I've been using to bake bread. The first one is Artisan Bread in Five Minutes a Day and the second is Healthy Bread in Five Minutes a Day . The recipes are SO easy to make (no kneading - just dump everything in a bowl and stir it up!), and they're not bad for you. Well, some of them aren't bad for you. ;) I've been using their recipes to make light whole wheat bread, which isn't too bad in the calorie department, and it fat free. I'm finding that, while it does have more calories than the light bread I was buying at the store, it actually has substance and flavor, and it keeps me full longer. Not to mention, roll out the dough and grill it? Flatbread. Roll out the dough really thin and bake it? Pitas (with pockets!). Roll out the dough really thin, grill it, then throw some veggies, garlic, tomato sauce, and a little grated parmesan on the top? Pizza! I LOVE that I can control all of the ingredients and that I know exactly what's going into my body. I do have to do a little guesswork on the calories, but I think I'm coming pretty close it getting it right. If you want to try out the recipes before buying the book, just go to their website or google it, there are a bunch of recipes online. :)

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GAGEJ11 8/31/2010 4:33PM

    YAY FOR FIVEFINGERS :) I struggle running in them on the pavement but love running trails on them. I am just starting week 4 of c25k best of luck to you!!

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MISSANTHROPY15 8/31/2010 1:20PM

    Ok... do you feel weird running in the VFF's? I mean, do you feel like people are looking at you funny? LOL Have you had a lot of people ask you about them? I think I need to pick some up. I seem to be surrounded by information about them and I am fascinated!

Stick with the C25K! I am in week 7 and it DOES get better... I promise!

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PRAISECHEESES 8/30/2010 2:37PM

    Chocmom, believe it or not, my feet, legs, and knees actually didn't hurt AT ALL. Supposedly this is because when you run barefoot (or with "barefoot shoes") you land on the ball of your foot instead of the heel, which reduces impact. So, your body is running the way it is designed to run instead of running with foam pads strapped to your feet (like with regular running shoes). I've never had any knee issues, but I did sprain my ankle 2 weeks ago, and I didn't have any pain at all from running in these five fingers shoes. :)

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CHOCMOM 8/30/2010 2:30PM

  So how do your knees feel after running barefoot? I like the "idea" of these shoes but I would think my knees would need more support than what you get. I will be following your blog to see how it is working for you! Thanks. emoticon

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PRAISECHEESES 8/30/2010 10:32AM

    No prob! I plan on posting fairly often about the running. I can't really compare it to anything else, since I've never run with regular running shoes, but I can definitely give you my opinion! :)

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OTTAWABOUND 8/30/2010 10:06AM

    Hey--will you post something in a month or so about the vibram 5 finger running experience? My husband has really been wanting a pair, but we don't have the money to go out and buy a more traditional pair of runners if these don't work for him.

The bread sounds yummy!

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To not be hungry...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Two days ago, I was, for no reason I can put my finger on, just NOT HUNGRY all day. I wasn't sick; I just wasn't hungry. I don't think I've ever in my life before that day had a day where I wasn't sick but also wasn't just hungry all day. I kept thinking to myself all day, "this is what thin people must feel like." It was wonderful and terrible at the same time. It was wonderful because I felt great. I wasn't constantly thinking about food, and when I ate, I ate small portions and was satisfied. It was terrible, though, because I knew that it wouldn't last. I knew that I would go right back to constant hunger, and I was right. I'm still sticking to my eating plan, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hungry. The problem is that when I eat what I'm supposed to eat (even when I eat lots of veggies and fiber), I'm hungry again only a short time later. I wish there was a magic pill I could take to just make me not hungry. The last time I lost weight, I lost about 45lbs., and after being on a plateau for 4 months, I finally just gave up because I couldn't handle being hungry all day with no results. My biggest fear is that even if I lose all the weight I want to lose, I'm going to have to be hungry for the rest of my life to maintain it.

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BARBARA_G 5/11/2010 7:45PM

    I completely relate to your blog and your fears. I have the same ones. I sometimes wonder if my brain just is not working quite the way it's supposed to and is not getting the "your full signal". Or maybe the signal is simply not sent. One time when I first started taking Prozac, it changed my eating. One time I sat down to a meal, ate half a sandwhich and at once realized that I felt full. That was a first and a real revelation. The thought that popped into my mind was: Oh that is what it feels like when you are full. Unfortunately that lasted for about a year and the side effect wore off.
At this point I'm restricting calories and am losing weight, so of course I'm hungry at various times. However it does not relate so much to the type of food I eat but the time of day. I'm eating vegan except for dinner. But that is the time when I struggle, despite my dinners being rich in protein. Protein takes longer to digest and is supposed to keep you fuller. But it does not seem to work for me. Besides, I get adequate amounts of protein from my vegan meals according to the WHO, not SP however.
I'm sorry I'm not providing any answers for you. If you find a solution please let me know. I'll do the same.
Meanwhile hang on in there!!!


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ELSIE_BEE 5/11/2010 6:33PM


I take psyllium husks in my daily smoothie and it really fills the corners in. I think that a tablespoon expands to about the size of a beachball in your stomach and you don't have room for much else.

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PRAISECHEESES 5/11/2010 3:41PM

    Thanks for all the great comments :)
I actually do get plenty of protein. I watch that little protein monitor on SP and make sure I'm in the zone. I eat lots of beans, legumes, and dairy, so I get lots of protein that way. I'm going to try to switch to smaller, more frequent meals. I think the key to that is going to be prepping in advance so I'm not grabbing for something processed. :)

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WILDFLOWER- 5/11/2010 3:33PM

    There is no reason to be hungry.

Here's how I avoid it: I eat something every 3 hours. And make sure your eating protein. I typically eat Kashi Go Lean with 2% milk for breakfast at around 6:30am. At 9:30am I have either a serving of cottage cheese or a cup of greek yogurt. At around 12:30 or 1pm I have a 300-400 calorie lunch. By 3:30 or 4pm I have either high fiber whole grain crackers or a high fiber snack bar. I eat a 400-500 calorie dinner. And I ususally have a sweet Skinny Cow ice cream cone for dessert.

Now - I battle with boredom. I'm not really hungry, but I want to eat - mostly because I'm bored. So I also drink a lot of green tea & I keep a sugarless gum available to chew on through out the day.

It's sometimes tough for vegetarians to get the protein they need. My sister has been a vegetarian for 20+ years and she doesn't always get the protein she needs. It's tough, but not impossible.

It takes a little trial & error to find out what will work for you. But don't give up! Soy Chips, soy nuts, hard boiled eggs, or a serving of legumes .. can all help fill the protein bill.

You CAN do it!!

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JAZZMINE 5/11/2010 3:25PM

    I can relate to your hunger issues. I have lost 46 pounds and kept it off for a year, but would like to lose more. Sometimes, I just feel so hungry, I have to eat. I find the closer I can stick to the plan, the less hungry I am. Going off, even a little bit, seems to make me hungrier!


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LORIBURKS1 5/11/2010 3:25PM

    I hear ya! I am ALWAYS hungry! But, I usually just plan my meals and snacks so I can stay within my calories and still eat every 3 hours or so...but, this morning, I cheated and had a raspberry chocolate chip muffin and guess what! It held me over and for the first time I wasn't starving at lunch time! Goes to show that higher calorie foods really do fill ya up!

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I don't hate my swimsuit body!

Friday, May 07, 2010

Revelation for today: I may not be bikini-ready, but I'm damn sure going to throw on a suit and enjoy myself. In the past, I've let my insecurities about my body stop me from doing things like going to the beach or swimming at a pool party. That stops today. The reality is that most people are way too busy worrying about their own imperfections to care what I look like in a swimsuit. Not to mention that if they do care and think bad things about me, then they're not the kind of people who matter to me anyway. I swim like a fish, and it's good for me, so f**k all those people who don't like the way I look. ;) I'm going to stuff my fat butt in my swimsuit and enjoy the sun!

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LILHLFPINT 8/26/2010 6:03PM

    (::high fives:: you go, girl!)

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CATHTAR 5/8/2010 8:48PM

    Great attitude! I am slowly coming around to that way of thinking myself.

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BARBARA_G 5/8/2010 3:57PM

    WOOHOO! YOU GO GIRL! That is the attitude of a strong woman and a winner!

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ALICIA0099 5/8/2010 8:57AM

    I totally agree! I can't wait to go swimming! :D

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WILDFLOWER- 5/8/2010 8:42AM

    Wonderful attitude! And your dead on -- everyone is too wrapped up in their own self image to notice anyone else. It's just how are brains are wired.

Enjoy the water --- Let the mermaid within be free! Woo Hoo!!

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ALEXTHEHUNN 5/8/2010 7:25AM

    Excellent attitude. You're exactly right - no one cares.
What drove that lesson home for me was years ago (when I was in good shape) going to a nude beach. There were all sorts of people there - people in all sorts of shapes. And no one cared what anybody looked like.

And, as you point out, as for anyone who might actually be investing their emotions in what others think, to hell with them. They're shallow people.

Life's far too brief to miss the fun because someone else might not like it.
Enjoy yourself. It's your life not theirs.


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ELCIA_S 5/7/2010 8:39PM

    good for you!

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    emoticon Enjoy the swim and your right people who are mean have no place in your view of you. emoticon

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ALISONF2 5/7/2010 5:35PM

    I love that attitude!!! I just bought a new swimsuit and though I'm very self conscious, I'm going to wear it anyway. Besides, once I get in the water, no one will be able to see anything below my shoulders ;)

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