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I workout so that I can eat (alot...)

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I am all aboard the exercise bandwagon. Strength training 3x week- check! Yoga 6x week- check! I even throw in a little cardio for good measure- but that's my least favorite. I don't drink alcohol (unless 1 drink every month or two counts) or smoke. I eat lots of healthy foods- fruits, veggies, non-or-lowfat dairy, whole grain breads/cereals, lean meats, nuts, lots o'water. But I also eat dessert, every single day. I eat cookies and cakes (although, in my defense, they're usually homemade and with whole-wheat flour). I eat chocolate (again, in my defense, it's usually dark and usually at least 60 if not 70% cacao content). I eat cheese and icecream (sometimes it's lowfat). Basically, I probably eat too much. That's why I have to work out, almost every day. Because I love to eat, but I need to stay fit and healthy. I know I should cut back on my eating---but it's so hard.


Am I a yogi?(...or am I too fat?)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Recently I read some articles on one of my favorite blogs "YogaDork" that made me contemplate the implications of one of my favorite activities- yoga (duh!).

The first thing I'm wondering is if the simple act of practicing yoga daily (or even just weekly) makes one able to refer to oneself as a "yogi." Now, I never would have thought this before except that it seems that she often refers to her audience as fellow yogis. Now, with her not knowing who exactly her audience is except that they have even the slightest interest in yoga, it makes me think you don't have to be a certified yoga instructor or a guru to be a "yogi." If this is the case, then I, who practices for about 15 to 20 minutes five to six days a week, could supposedly refer to myself as a yogi. This would be fine with me except that I really thought that a yogi is someone who doesn't just "practice" yoga (i.e. literally going through the motions) but who "lives" yoga. Now, I don't even want to expound upon what this means, but in a nutshell, I picture concepts such as zen, vegetarianism, buddhism or hinduism, transcendentalism, detachment from earthly things and even people, and always remembering to "do none harm"---even a mosquito biting your arm! So, I would have to say I was NOT a yogi if this were the actual definition because, while I value and admire all those concepts, I definitely don't live them, day in and day out.

My second issue is with the whole concept of classes being created for "plus-sized," or as some have even put it, "round" people. Apparently, yoga subculture is populated by lithe, graceful beings who have little, if any body fat, and "bigger" people may be ashamed to go to "regular" yoga classes. Now, I have not been lithe since I was four years old, and have always considered myself at least kind-of-chubby, but I never thought that I shouldn't take a yoga class because of my size. I am not obese, but I am overweight---should I have been uncomfortable taking a "regular' yoga class? Because I was not! Should I have waited around for a "chubby girl" yoga class- because I didn't. If there's anything that I really took away from any and all research and experience that I've had with yoga it's that you only do what's comfortable for you, wherever you are is fine, and NOONE IS GOING TO CRITICIZE YOU WHATEVER LEVEL YOU ARE AT. So, I wonder just how "big" you have to be to take one of these sometimes called "mega-yoga" classes. Do they measure your BMI at the registration and say "Nope, it's over 26---you go to mega yoga, not the regular one..."

The last thing I want to address is the critcism of certain "yoga rock-stars" (aka instructors who have attained "celebrity"-like status) who tout yoga as a weight-loss workout. Apparently, some "yogis" (ahem!) believe that doing this undermines the whole, holistic/spirituality/lifestyle thing that yoga has going for it. But I don't get what the problem is---since yoga is about acceptance (yes!) then shouldn't they just accept that this is what yoga is going to be for some people. It possibly will even open the door for them to actually embrace the entire yoga lifestyle.

My point in waxing verbose about all this is that I believe that yoga really is about acceptance, accepting your limitations, and continuously striving to get better, little-by-little. Practice it if you want to, live it if you want to, or don't do it at all- it's your choice.


My Body is Very Strong

Friday, January 21, 2011

My body is very strong,
It hadn't been for oh-so-long
But now it is, and I must say
I really do love it this way

I challenge it most everyday
With resistance training, yoga and some cardio play
I nourish it with whole grains, lean meats, dairy, veggies, fruit
With some indulgences like chocolate, potato chips and ice cream, to boot

Once upon a time every little slip-up
Would have been a sign for me to just give up
But now I know that every moment is a start
For me to do something smart for my body, mind and heart

So instead of soda, I'll have water or unsweetened tea
And I'll just take one serving instead of three
I'll eat a salad with my meal
Or maybe an apple, with the peel

I'll do my workout, even if it's late
Because I know it'll make me feel great!
Little changes, here and there
Soon become noticeable everywhere

Pants that once made me say "ow!"
Feel so loose and comfy now
And all those tank tops I used to want to hide,
I think I'm ready to wear them outside!

My hair seems thicker, stronger
My legs seem leaner, longer
I sleep better at night, than ever before
And I'm not tired all day anymore!

Because my body is very strong
It will get me where I need to go
And healthy living is everything I need to know


Poem for a Stressed Out, Emotionally Over-eating Mom

Saturday, April 10, 2010

You sit there listening to the children's cries,
tears stinging the backs of your eyes,
but you just keep on eating fries, eating fries, and eating fries
Staring out the window, looking to the skies
Meanwhile your thighs, your big old thighs
Are growing fat as pecan pies

And you daydream, wish you could play hooky
and say "No, you will not have that cookie"
But maybe you'll just take a look-y into the bag,
and your tummy sags and sags and sags
Then you clean up some spit-up with a rag

I love my children
with all of my being,
every moment I am seeing,
they really mean the world to me,
but sometimes, I just want to be free...

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From Blissed Out to Stressed Out: I want to give up

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

For the past month, my family has been on and off the road. From Hotel to Home to Hotel to Home to Hotel, I'm not exaggerating. At first it was kind of exciting and invigorating because Ian quite fond of traveling and actually enjoy living out of a suitcase and staying in hotel rooms. But my workouts have begun to become cumbersome...Like right now I really should be doing my thigh strengthening session, but instead I'm online. Also, midnight snacks have become the norm this week. Sometimes (like right now), I really want to hang up my hat and just give up. Do you know what I mean?

Sometimes I actually start to justify my un-healthy habits in my head. I start to tell myself, "You're just not meant to thin. You're "thick" and you've always been and always will be" I tell myself that I should just give in to all my cravings and just begin to accept and embrace the fact that I'll always be a "chubby girl" But I know I only need to see photo/video footage of myself to know I'll never feel like my "best self" (sorry, I'm going crazy with the quotation marks tonight!) if I let this happen. I just think the words, "double chin" and I start to panic. I know this is horribly vain, but it's true I can't stand the thought of having a double chin, let alone a triple chin, which I know I could actually be capable of growing if I gave in to my every un-healthy impulse. So I guess I'll wrap up this entry and try to do some strength training before my son wakes up looking for me. Hopefully I won't wake the kids or my hotel neighbors with all the noise these creaky hotel floors make...


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