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How to Handle RAGE

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

At work tonight my boss comes up to me and tells me that "he loves me". I of course know that this means something is up. He tells me that he is taking one of my employees to work on the Battalion Truck. Of course he did this to me over a year ago. Both workers were really good workers. So of course once I get someone in the mailroom that works really well he want's to steal them for the truck. Instead of going out and hiring his own people. I just finally got fully staffed. I had 12 people including me for the holiday season. I had been stuck with 11 for awhile because I never got anyone to cover the first person my boss took from me to go on the truck.

I have other faster employees in the mailroom but the two he took they did their job without me having to ask for every little thing. They had a work ethic. Where oh where did the work ethic of my parents generation go? Because now days no one wants to work like they used too. When I give breaks they sit down on their buts and watch my move pallets and take out trash. I never slow down their is always something to do back there. Maybe I'm the problem not demanding them to do more. But sometimes I feel like if I don't do it myself it wont get done.

But this thing with my boss taking my employee that works really hard is just making me pissed. Plus not to mention I'm back to 11 people and down 1 guy. I just finally got 5 guys back there. With the big season coming I need more people that can lift heavier stacks. The older women that have been back there forever can't lift it and aren't going to start trying that's for sure. Plus the guy he is taking can't really be on the truck because his driving record is not good. So he is still going to be coming out of the mailroom payroll and I doubt they will let me hire someone else because it's going to look on paperwork that I have 12 people.

I was so mad that I couldn't even talk to him last night. Because I was so afraid I was going to say something that would get me in trouble. Plus not to mention had I started yelling it would have ended with me telling him to take those keys and shove them where the sun doesn't shine. He is always bugging me at home on my days off. I get at least 5 texts from him everyday. Plus now he gave me a laptop to take home so I could check his email during the day. Really a phone isn't good enough now I have to check the damn email. Then this happened it's really pushing me to tear out my hair.

Got in my car last night and just screamed the first 5 minutes I was in my car. I felt so angry and my chest was hurting but I couldn't seem to calm down. I must have the steering wheel a few dozen times I'm surprised I don't have a bruise on my hand this morning. Then about 5 minutes away from the job the crying started. I couldn't stop it and it was not the soft kind. I cried all the way home. I knew I had to calm down and it just wasn't happening. Plus Brandon wasn't home for me to talk to so I had to figure out someway to calm down. I finally stopped crying when I hit the door to my house. I went in the fridge grabbed a nasty STRAW-BEER-RITA. ( we are not drinkers at all) downed the whole thing. Ate 2 pieces of sugar free cheesecake I made yesterday. Then a mini bag of Movie Theater popcorn. After all that and the crying I feel asleep. So I guess booze and and food help anger and lots of crying to make you fall asleep.

I would so call out today if I didn't have to be there. But I don't think I'm staying the whole night long. It's not going to be a good thing to do at this time. I'm so glad I'm off the next three days because I need the break to calm down. The mood I'm in right now I still might tell him good luck finding someone to replace me. But I'm so not answering my phone or email. He can go somewhere with all that.

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REENSKI 11/6/2013 2:23PM

Sorry you got put into that position. Can you send him an email to transfer the guy so you can get someone else? Can you send a message to HR to have them transfer the worker?
I hate bosses like that.
Don't let him take advantage of the situation like that.

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    I'm glad you let it out with the scream in the car!!! I'm sorry things ar eso hard. I love you twinsy!!!

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LOTUSFLOWER 11/5/2013 10:29PM

    emoticon I agree with nancy, Hr should be able to help, it is not fair to you honey. Love you.

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UNICORN212 11/5/2013 10:17PM

    I agree that you should talk to HR. This is not right and he is taking advantage of you. I'd ignore the texts and email when you are off the clock. And I'd report the guy's driving record - that could make your company really in danger if he has an accident.

I hope you find the perfect job and let him know the reason why you are quitting - HIM. In the meantime, follow proper protocols at your work and report what he is doing.

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SGTSUNNY 11/5/2013 6:22PM

    Hugs, so sorry your boss and the situation have you so upset! I hope you let him know how upset you were. Glad you can come here to vent!

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ROBBIEY 11/5/2013 4:27PM

  I hope that it gets better for you soon. It is not good to get that upset.
Take care of yourself. You might want to speak to your boss regarding his demands. It is not good to keep things inside. emoticon

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    Wow! If there is a Human Resources representative at your company you could speak with, you should do so right away. She or he could help you to resolve this conflict with your boss. There is probably some kind of protocol for this type of situation. Sounds like you really need an advocate!

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STARLIGHT615 11/5/2013 4:05PM

    Ahh honey I am so sorry!! IS there anyone that you can talk to above your boss about your boss??? He for sure is a DB!!!!!

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PLUGINALONG 11/5/2013 3:56PM

    It's tough right now. Hope it gets better.

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CIPHER1971 11/5/2013 3:51PM

    emoticon I think your boss is a douche, and I hope your perfect job comes up in the Situations Vacant column, or that you win the lotto.

But until that happens may you have the strength and fortitude to not tell him what to do with his job.

All the best

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Back on the Wagon

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Well it's almost the first of the month. Getting back on track now instead of waiting those few extra days that could cause my lips to eat way more than I should.

emoticon Going to start walking once a day for thirty minutes. If it's in the gym or outside it's getting DONE!

emoticon Getting the 5 to 6 small meals in a day instead of the 2 or 3 big ones that I have been doing as of late.

emoticon Watching my sugar intake and making sure I log my blood sugar level at least three times a day.

emoticon Reporting to the Sunnies at least once a day more if I have the time.

emoticon Not looking at the scale everyday but once a week when I log in to the Sunnies for the weekly weight check.

I'm trying not to focus on the pounds but the way I feel and how my clothes feel and look on myself. Looking to improve my health and wellbeing.

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AMBER281 9/7/2013 3:27PM

    Way to go!! You can do it!

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    Sounds great. I need to specify my plan to... THanks for the inspiration. emoticon

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SGTSUNNY 8/31/2013 11:04AM

    You can do this! Sounds like you are back in control and on the right path once again. I think your Sept will be highly successful

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LOVESLIFE48 8/30/2013 8:02AM

    Now that's a wonderful plan!!! emoticon emoticon

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-ICANDOIT- 8/29/2013 4:40PM

    I am so glad you are jumping back in today instead of waiting til the magic "Sept1" to start! We are half way through our challenge- so you have loads of time to make lots of progress- let's get this done!!!! I know you can and will do it!

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SUEPERWOMAN 8/29/2013 3:50PM

AWESOME! You have all you need for success!!

Love, Ginger

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    that looks like a plan for success twinsy!

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    YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! Great that you've written out your plan!

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MJRVIC2000 8/29/2013 3:10PM

    God has blessed You, so don't forget to thank Him! In His Grace! Vic.

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Maid Service

Thursday, August 15, 2013

For weeks now I have felt like a maid in my home. I guess it's because we used to share things around the house and now it seems like I'm the only one doing anything. I know that he works 12 hours a day for 4 days. But he also gets 4 days off. Guess what on those 4 days he doesn't help either. I don't know what's going on with him. But I'm about ready to stop being a maid and seeing just how messy the house is going to get. Any takers how long I will last?

Don't get me wrong he isn't always like this. I'm trying to grit my teeth and bear it. Hopefully my hubby will come back to himself. Or else TDCJ (his job) has taken over his brain.

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AMBER281 8/24/2013 7:13PM

    I would talk to him as he might not be aware of how upset you are.
I hope things get better soon!

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OLIVIANIGHT 8/16/2013 8:33AM

    Have you asked for help? Men are terrible at subtle hints.

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    I would either talk to him or make a list for his days off. Give him the choice, do it all 1 day or spread it out. Best to talk to him.

I love your background.

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-ICANDOIT- 8/15/2013 10:45PM

    I feel your pain! I have 4 kids, a messy dog, and a husband who all think they help...and they don't. I have gone on strike, but nobody noticed. More effective was when I took pictures of all the piles and mess, and I showed them what I actually wake up to each day. They are not perfect still- but a bit better. The pictures embarrassed them all. I hope you get it worked out- cuz it is no fun (as I run off to do more laundry!!)

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    I was feeling this way around the house earlier this summer as well. I don't work and the fella does, but I was getting really burned out on doing all the housework, yard work, everything. We talked about it and now we do 15 minutes of cleaning around the house a day together...we even set a timer. It's amazing how much you can get done it that little amount of time, especially if you do it every day! We still do some additional stuff on our own as well, but that's more of just because we feel like it situation, and if we don't, it's okay. It really helped me feel less overwhelmed.

I hope you can come to a good solution on this soon! Feeling like a maid in your own home is no fun.

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SGTSUNNY 8/15/2013 4:18PM

    Best to talk to him, keeping it inside is not good. Hope you can come to an agreement that will ease some of the load off of you!

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    HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! men!

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UNICORN212 8/15/2013 3:27PM

    Maybe you can give him things to take care of on the days when he is off. Or give him a choice of items from a list - that way he can have some say in what he ends up doing. But he needs to carry part of the load.

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2 years tomorrow

Monday, June 24, 2013

Tomorrow will be two years since my mom passed away. I think it hurts just as much as the day it happened. I know I miss and love her just as much. So I guess that's why it hurts just as bad. I feel like I'm all alone in this and I'm just dragging everyone down around me if I talk about it.

My dad has remarried and I know that he has moved on I just thought he would still be a little sad from time to time. But according to his new wife he was always pinning away for her through the whole time they had been apart. Which maybe she is right. Maybe that's why it didn't take him anytime at all to go on with his life. After watching the Notebook I realized maybe my parents didn't have that kind of love. I always thought they did. Maybe I'm just deluding myself into thinking that kind of love is real.

I'm just having a bad moment and I know it will pass. If it hurts this much today what's tomorrow going to be like?

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JESSALOU 6/26/2013 2:00PM

    It is so hard losing a parent! No one can ever replace them, in any form or fashion. I know i feel your pain, I miss my dad ever day and its been years now and it still from time to time feels like a freshly open wound. What i would give just to pick up the phone and be able to call him. And I think that kind of love is real. i would not say you are delusional or anything like that. its just hard to find that love. And we all know there are different kinds of love, maybe he just has to mask it by having another woman,maybe it helps kill his pain, Men are so different from women. My mom has remarried since my father passed she admits she loves him, but it is no way the say that she felt with my father. Hugs, thoughts and prayers ! XOXOXOXO

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AMBER281 6/25/2013 9:29PM

Just know your not alone. While we may not all know exactly how you feel we are good listeners and can provide a shoulder to cry on when needed.

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    Thinking of you today and sending you lots of love.

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STARLIGHT615 6/25/2013 7:06PM

    I am so sorry your having a rough time sweetie!! just focus on you and your mom!! emoticon

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SGTSUNNY 6/25/2013 6:46PM

    Hugs, I know your love for your mom will never fade, I just hope the hurt will fade with time. Remember the good times, it will help. And remember you have so many friends here, please do not forget we love ya! and feel free to ask for help or someone to talk to.

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PRETTYPITHY 6/25/2013 6:46PM

    Believe it or not, I know how you feel, in a way. When my dad passed away, my parents were divorced and my mother and sister hadn't spoken to him in years. Because I was the only one close to him, I felt like I was the only one mourning. And mourning alone is a very painful thing. It will take some time but I wish you peace and healing. emoticon

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    uge huge hugs honey. It is awful what you are going through. Try not to focus on what your dad is doing..focus on the love you and your momma had. Great big hugs and love

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JENNCRRT 6/25/2013 4:20AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon It's so hard losing a parent. I'm sorry:(

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BROOKE008 6/24/2013 9:52PM

    emoticon The love you have for your Mom and the memories you have of her will keep her close in your heart even if she may not be here physically. I'm so sorry that you are experiencing such sadness! If you ever need an ear, my inbox is always open!

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-ICANDOIT- 6/24/2013 9:29PM

    I am so sorry for the pain and sadness you are feeling. I can ony imagine the empty space that is left without your mom here to fill it. But remember that love is a funny kind of thing....nobody has "The Notebook" love everyday...but hopefully in their marriage, they got that feeling sometimes and they worked for a lifetime at building a history together. There is no denying they had a wonderful history that included a beautiful family. And if you believed they had that love, they probably really did. Nothing can take that away.

I hope you find comfort in the happy memories you have and in knowing how very proud you are making your Mom each and every day! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Season of the Beast Week 2 Challenge

Friday, June 21, 2013

Mindful Eating Questionnaire

Are you a mindful eater right now? Take the following assessment to find out. While mindful eating canít be measured with complete objectivity, this brief questionnaire will deepen your understanding of yourself, and of how mindful eating can begin to liberate your relationship to eating and food.

INSTRUCTIONS: Answer each question with the number that best matches your experience. Answer as you think you are, not how you think you should be. Treat each question as a separate question. If you donít know how to answer a question, leave it blank.

1 = Almost always
2 = Frequently
3 = Infrequently
4 = Almost never
1.Iím unaware that Iím hungry, or full, until sometime after the fact.
2.I am stressed out.
3.I donít really taste or appreciate my food.
4.I force or control what or how much I eat.
5.I eat when Iím not hungry.
6.I avoid eating even though I am hungry.
7.I rush when I eat.
8.I eat without being aware that Iím eating.
9.I eat when Iím stressed out.
10.I believe that I can only succeed by controlling or being rigid about my diet.
11.I am unaware of thoughts that precede my eating behaviors.
12.I find it difficult to remain focused in the here and now.
13.I donít love and accept myself and my body as it is.
14.I donít regularly feel a desire to exercise.
15.My body image is negatively impacted by media exposure to the ďthin ideal.Ē
16.My exposure to media stresses me out or lowers my moods.
17.I am living or eating ďon automatic.Ē
18.I am stuck in mental and/or behavioral patterns that I would like to change.
19.Emotions ďtake me overĒ and I am not aware of what has happened until later.
20.I eat to manage strong or uncomfortable emotions.

SCORE YOURSELF: Add up your answers and divide the total by 20 (or if you didnít answer all the questions, by the number you answered). Your score will be a number between 1 and 4.

ANALYZE YOUR SCORE: A higher number (closer to 4) reflects more mindfulness (and freedom) in your eating behaviors. A higher number also reflects a more mindful and freer relationship to the many forces, particularly bodily sensations, emotions, and thoughts, that (usually unconsciously) precede and influence eating behaviors.

How did you do? Donít worry if you didnít get a perfect 4.0. Nobody is perfectly mindful all the time! Yet the more mindful you are, the freer you will be. This mindfulness questionnaire has given you a taste of how mindfulness can transform and liberate your relationship to eating, exercise, your body, your mind, your emotions, and your very self. Mindfulness is the foundation for positive change and transformation in any area of life Ė but particularly in your relationship to food.

I got a 1.65 not very good at all. If you would like to visit the website yourself here is the link:

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    Right there with you lol! This is pretty interesting!

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AMBER281 6/23/2013 6:15PM

    Mine is 1.9 so I have room to improve too!

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    I got a 2.25, basically right in the middle, but still lots of room for improvement. I was thinking I might download the program this week and look over it.

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