Friday, November 26, 2010
Here it goes, my young son called at the last min. and begged me to come see him, said I was invited for dinner at my granddaughters other grand moms. My Mom could come too he said. Mom refused. Anyway, I decided to get up and take my time and drive the 3 hours, I would go to the huge gym there in the city when I got there. My son is a chef and he had to work the dinner shift.
The sun was out and it was a great drive. I got to gym after seeing my son, could not find my cell phone, the new one my older son just mailed me. Long story short, I drove over it cracked the crystal. After my son got off work at 8, we went to the A T & T store for a new phone. My other son does not believe in insurance. Plus the phone was free for him. That was the first night I got there.
Next morning heard my son talking on phone to Donna the grand mom, and then Tasha the Mom of my Grand daughter, so the story was I was not invited, Tasha did not want me there. So my son went and got Savannah, I spent 2 hours with her, then left at 1 in afternoon for the 3 hr drive home on thanksgiving. It was not how I thought I would spend the holiday. People wonder why it is hard for me at times, I have a very dysfunctional family, and I can feel not wanted or loved at times.
I ate for comfort for years. I am learning how to deal with this. The holiday was a bust for me mostly. But I did get to see Savannah and I gave my son her Christmas presents so they will not have to be mailed. Plus I went shopping for my Mom and sister and got them both things they wanted.