Moods

Monday, April 12, 2010

Why do I get in such strange moods?? I really do not know. I do not know what causes it and I never know when it is going to happen. But this morning it did. i wake up just very grumpy and vague. i do not feel right, yet I cannot put my hands on why I feel like this. i do not want to do anything. i found myself thinking I do not want to workout anymore. Why am I doing this? I found myself wonder when this will become a habit i will not get discouraged about. i just know this is not good thinking but it is here anyway?? I am kind of scared and unsure of this feeling?? I wish it was not happening. and of coarse I want to talk to someone and no one is home or able to give me there time except my sons, who I cannot tell about this they would not understand it.

I did help my youngest file his taxes with my computer over the phone, so I got something done for him.

I have to figure out what is causing this mind disturbance, that is what it feels like. i just feel like off some how. Oh well I have to vent and here I can tell you anything and you will not judge me. I am so upset that I do not know my own body at almost 60 years of age. It is hard for me to accept this very common fact, that I do not know my body and who I am yet?? Maybe I never will figure this out! I keep trying and then my body through me a curve and I get scare and I get the feeling of being betrayed by my own body. Is this strange or what? God only knows.

  

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TSP2011 4/12/2010 12:12PM

Well our bodies tend to go through lots of changes. It could be depression and exercise is a good antidote for that but exercise may feel like the last thing you want to do. Perhaps seeing a doctor for a physical and praying for guidance might bring some answers. Best wishes. Report Inappropriate Comment

GODLYMOM_5 4/12/2010 11:58AM

You are in my prayers! I know that I sometimes feel the same way but it seems to always pass. I just try to focus on something positive and good in my life. I also ask God for the guidance that I need to help my through the day! I hope that this helps you! Report Inappropriate Comment

QUIET SUNDAY

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Today seems to be a very quiet day. Had to run to store real quick. Did some reading and catching up on some magazines. Then I decided to do one of the Leslie Sansone videos I have not done one of her vidoes since I have gotten home here to NY. I did the 4 mile one.

Rest of day I have been on computer and catching up on my shows I tape during the week. So it is quiet and not have heard from many people only my sister who I talked to via cell she is in NV.

She has had a lucky weekend winning money at the casino.

So it is all that I have to share for today. Nothing new, sorry is is a short blog today.

  

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GEEKYGRANDMOMMY 4/11/2010 6:32PM

Sounds like a good day. Report Inappropriate Comment

ZZYYGGY 4/11/2010 6:22PM

Glad you had a quiet day. Report Inappropriate Comment

BELLJOANN 4/11/2010 6:09PM

But a relaxing and quiet day. We all need those now and then Report Inappropriate Comment

Busy Day

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I was at the gym for 180m min. this morning, they are going to know my face across the street for sure. I like how it is so close. I need to get caught up around here. i had no energy today and I think I need to up my water with my increased exercise. I am learning about my body still. I did not feel very coordinated doing the Zumba this am. But I did do it and move for 90 min. i laugh a lot at myself. here I am this almost 60 y/o doing it with the 20 and 30 y/o but I do not care, it is my life and I want to get better at moving with should do it.

So hope you all have a nice rest of the week end. I will be here again tomorrow as always. I do not miss a day. If I can do it while in route i can do it anytime. I now feel lost if i do not get my daily Spark fix. I have come to be very dedicated and look to read and hear how you all are doing. that you for all the companionship it means a lot to this lady who lives alone.

  

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YARELL 4/11/2010 7:14AM

Do you know how inspiring it is for them to see you there? Come on, that's huge! I think it is awesome you're out there kicking and dancing. Report Inappropriate Comment

LINDAC714 4/10/2010 9:39PM

Keep up the Zumba, it's great fun and burns lots of calories! You will be surprised at how quickly it takes to feel really comfortable doing the steps! I enjoy it twice a week with participants are of all ages! Report Inappropriate Comment

BABY_GIRL69 4/10/2010 8:55PM

I have watched zumba on the infomercials & my hips ache from just watching! lol That's so ! I need to add something new to my regime maybe? God bless & they are going to know your face! Dee Report Inappropriate Comment

CAROLDEDOO 4/10/2010 8:23PM

I can't believe that much Zumba! (LOL) Well, I do believe you! BUT, really... Wow! for you. I walked around the grocery store for 45 min. and went home for a nap! (LOL) You're my inspiration... Keep up the good work and Keep on Sparking! I too, wouldn't go without my daily SP fix. Carol Report Inappropriate Comment

TECHSUN 4/10/2010 7:02PM

Zumba for that long would kill me right now. I bet you do need to increase your water. Good for you for working SO hard. Report Inappropriate Comment

My Closet

Friday, April 09, 2010

I finally got the nerve to clean out and try the things in the back of my closet. It was a fashion show for my neighbors. They helped me to see what fit good and what was too big. I have way too many clothes. I had some things with the tags still on them I gained weight and never wore them years ago.

I think i can say i am in a 12. Some things that are a tailored 12 are still a little tight. But I can wear mediums and some smalls even. Not bad from a tight 20 to a tight 12. I will take it. Hope by the end of the summer I can wear the 8 dress I have that I want to be able to wear again. I will post it on here when I get there for sure. Maybe I will post the outfit I had on today we will see. I had them take a picture to send to my dear friend. But the picture does still put on the pounds and I do not look as good as I feel that is for sure. But I do feel a lot better and what I have done and can wear. Got a lot of complements today on my cloths I now can wear. I still need pants though, have no small jeans and I thought I did have some. If I do I have not found them yet. I have other things to go through also yet. time will tell for everything. I just have to get to it. Have been so busy doing things. It has been nice and I have been sleeping so such better and getting up earlier. This was one of my goals to achieve. So this is great.

I lost 2 more pounds and it is early in the week i usually weigh on Sunday or Monday. But my neighbor wanted me to see what I weigh on there scale that they say is very accurate. It was after breakfast and coffee and it was 153. So I am down 2 more pounds I just may get to 150 by the end of April. thus will be great.

So it has been a great day for me. I think I will do my leslie Sansone tonight after I get home from my dinner appointment. have not done it since I have gotten home here. have a great week end friends.

  

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JGOLFER 4/11/2010 9:32AM

Way to go POSEY! You are doing an awesome job. Report Inappropriate Comment

MONARCHCT 4/9/2010 8:57PM

Hurray for you on your down-sizing! Doesn't it feel great? I have saved a pair of slacks I wore to the doctor to confirm my first pregnancy 33 years ago...and now they fit again!!! I will never wear them anywhere but they are cotton with no stretch & I was 27 then. Let's hear it for Spark Report Inappropriate Comment

Getting Better

Thursday, April 08, 2010

I am happy my back was not too bad that with one day of complete rest I was able to do my gym work today. I did the weights, the machines and 2 aerobics to get a great workout. I think the heating bad and hot showers did the trick. I am being careful for sure.

One of the ladies in the building is moving so she had a huge sale on this floor today. There was tons of people coming to get a deal. I did my share I got a box of plastic crafts sheets must be 40 sheets in the box placemat size and I got them for 6 dollars. I like to do this craft you can make tons of things. plus my sister can use them too so i will mail her some in NV.

I have been having so MANY COMMENTS ABOUT MY WEIGHT. i AM LOOKING THIN IN THE LARGE CLOTHES i AM STILL WEARING. sorry about caps just do not want to retype. I have no idea what my size is yet. Have not had the time to really check. many are telling me to stop losing that I am fine. I really wish people would let me do what I want to and not tell me what i need to do. I really do not know what my goal weight will be. If you go by my body fat I have 18% to still lose. I am 155. I think 120 to 130 in this range. I am 5 '4 so i know at least 100 pounds to 5 foot and then 5 pounds for every inches over. But I do not think it is a rule for someone over my age which is 59. Anyone have any comments??

  

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LALMEIDA 4/9/2010 8:16AM

Glad you feeling better. Report Inappropriate Comment