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Down for the Count

Monday, March 08, 2010

Sorry I am not well today. The whole house is ill with colds/ My throat is sore my heads hurts and I even get dizzy on my feet. So today I am just laying low and drinking a lot of water and taking care of self only. I am hoping tomorrow I can get back on schedule/ emoticon emoticon

  
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TEENY_BIKINI 3/9/2010 7:05PM

    Feel better soon.

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SHYTOWN7 3/9/2010 11:27AM

  Hope you feel better soon, there are a lot of flu-like colds going around.

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JGOLFER 3/9/2010 8:34AM

    You sound like you have what I had. I hope you get better soon. You are doing the right thing - water and taking care of yourself. Get plenty of rest and then get some more rest. You will soon be feeling Sparktacular!
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MYRTLY 3/9/2010 7:00AM

    Rest Rest Rest - Care for yourself and Spark on!

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GEEKYGRANDMOMMY 3/9/2010 4:56AM

    Hope you feel better soon.

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DARINGR8LY 3/8/2010 10:52PM

    Take care!

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MUVFASTA 3/8/2010 9:33PM

    So sorry your not feeling well. I hope you feel better soon! emoticon

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The Oscars Tonight

Sunday, March 07, 2010

I have to admit this is one of my favorite things I enjoy watching every year. I am a huge movie buff I love movies of all kinds. I love fashion also and this is the cream of the crop for fashion. I just enjoy this world that I know is not mine. I have my favorites of coarse who I look forward to seeing. They have a lot of my favorites up this year. But really 10 best movies is too many. They needed to take the animation out of this list. I know it is not my world it gives me the chance to fantasize about this world. Now with losing weight I could actually hope I could fit into one of these dresses. Not that I could ever afford one of them. That is why it is a fantasy.

We all need to escape at times this allows me to do it. So I just wanted to share something else about me. That I love this night.

I have seen two real Oscars, I once had a patient and his parents both won them. His father was a director and his Mom an actress. Many may not ever know her she plays Maria Antoinette her name is Norma Shearer. The director was Irving Thalberg, in fact the year Steven Spielberg won the Irving Thalberg award at the academy awards I was taken care of Irving Thalberg Jr. He was so interesting and told me a lot about the business. It was cool he had the two Oscars, because his parents were gone. But that is my six degrees of separation from the Oscars, and one reason why I like them so much. I was Irving 's private nurse and cook.

So just wanted to share this special memory I have and something about me and my past. that you my friends do not know about me.

  
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JGOLFER 3/9/2010 8:46AM

    Thanks so much for sharing a part of your life. What a great memory. I didn't get a chance to see the Oscar's this year but I usually love watching it. I love to see the fashion dos and don'ts or the best and worst dressed.
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DARINGR8LY 3/8/2010 10:54PM

    Thanks for sharing this neat memory! The Oscars is one of my must-see things to do.

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SAX_88 3/8/2010 12:15PM

    I am not really into the Oscars, but I watched it with my wife last night, seeing how she enjoys it, and I enjoy sharing her company. I am impressed with your six degrees of separation with the Oscars. Thanks for sharing your memories...that was very cool. (smile)

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AMALIA8 3/8/2010 7:04AM

    That's so neat ! :) Thanks for sharing! Keep up the great work and maybe you can reward yourself with a cheaper version of an Oscar dress!

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GEEKYGRANDMOMMY 3/8/2010 4:39AM

    What a great memory. What a great part of your life to share. That is awesome that you are so close to the Oscars. Thanks so much for sharing.

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LINOVER 3/7/2010 9:32PM

    I am also watching the Oscars at this very moment.

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SPARKIN_REESIE 3/7/2010 9:05PM

    I'm watching The Oscars right now! I have always enjoyed watching them, too.

I read Norma Shearer's bio! She's in one of my favorite movies - The Women. That's really cool that you got to see her and her husband's Oscars!

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Sixty Pounds

Saturday, March 06, 2010








Yes I have finally hit 160 pounds. That is so cool for me. I am more than half done. I have 40 pounds to go now. I have lost 60 pounds that is not a small amount. This is huge for me. I need to see and realize and give myself the credit for this. I really am doing this. I pray this will be the last time I have to go through all of this.

I need to reply to yesterdays blog. I guess I need to say I feel my son controls my actions because he owes the car. I have to bring it back when he wants it, because it is his. I came here to help them and get out of the winter weather, to help me lose the weight also. I do feel they push a little too much. But I also have always let them dictate to me so it is expected. I know it is my fault. I just accept it. i just vent here because I am learning I need to try and learn how to set better boundries next time if there will be one.

Thank you for all your advice and concern not use to having people on my side. It really means a lot and helps me to see I am someone.

I also feel I do not deal with this well. I am now ill, got sick and have to rest today. I also wonder if my body does this to me to slow me down and make me rest. All in all I have lost this weight and I need to give myself the credit I am due.

  
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SHERRY666 3/7/2010 4:36PM

    emoticon60 pounds is a lot to lose.......... You should be yelling it from the roof tops........ This is a big thing...... You have done an excellent job........... Treat yourself to something nice......... you totally deserve it... Give yourself credit for each pounds........ and keep moving forward... emoticon

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NJMATTICE 3/7/2010 10:16AM

    Congratulations.


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FITNHAPPYNOW 3/6/2010 10:01PM

    Wow! Big congrats on losing 60 pounds! That takes a huge amount of determination and perseverance - you should be VERY proud of yourself! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ONCEMOREAGAIN 3/6/2010 8:17PM

    WOW!! I am so proud of you for losing 60 pounds!!! That is AWESOME!! I hope your family realizes what a wonderful thing that is...and that they support you in this. As JLHGHOST said, you will be gaining more confidence in yourself and be able to maintain your own boundaries.

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CGREEN717 3/6/2010 6:50PM

    Congrats for the lost!! That's quite a feat!

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SHOCK72 3/6/2010 6:28PM

    Great job! 60 pounds is a HUGE accomplishment! Be proud and give yourself credit! It takes alot to get there, I know!

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CHATERJOY 3/6/2010 6:10PM

    emoticon emoticon Great JOb!

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LUV4CHOCOLATE 3/6/2010 5:15PM

    Good job!

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AMYTATH 3/6/2010 5:13PM

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JLHGHOST 3/6/2010 5:08PM

    YEAH!!!! Keep up the good work! 60 pounds is nothing to sneeze at. You will also find though, as you gain confidence in yourself (mainly the way you look) you'll be better able to maintain whatever boundaries you set in your personal life as well.

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JAJEKK 3/6/2010 5:06PM

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CARRAND 3/6/2010 5:03PM

    I am so happy for you. 60 pounds is terrific!

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TEACHEROF4TH 3/6/2010 5:01PM

    What a huge milestone! 60 pounds! Congratulations!

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VELVETCATT 3/6/2010 4:59PM

    That's fantastic - way to go!

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GEEKYGRANDMOMMY 3/6/2010 4:54PM

    Great job losing all that weight. We all love you here on spark people.

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AMALIA8 3/6/2010 4:48PM

    WOO HOO! Congratulations on the great job! :) Keep it up!

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Friday Swim Time

Friday, March 05, 2010

Got to go swimming again. I have a cold coming on I think, so I wanted to go to steam room and sweet it out. My son is gone again. Out to play poker again, I am taking care of Beto and Charlie.
Which is why I got to go swimming, he let me go for a little while. But I had to come back so he could charge his phone.

I at least got to take care of self in all of this. I am just looking to when I leave. I almost left early but they would not let me cash in my plane ticket so am here till end of March.

I have learned a lot while I was here this is for sure.

Soon I will be weighing myself again. Just cannot wait till I see the 150's. I still have this problem of not seeing what I really look like in the mirror. I get worried I am not seeing what I really look like I do not want to lie to myself. It will be nice to see my friends who will be honest to me and let me know what I do look like. I will have been gone for 6 months and have had a lot of changes in my lifestyle emoticon emoticon

  
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FITNHAPPYNOW 3/6/2010 11:06AM

    I am disturbed by you comment that "he LET me go for a little while, but I had to be back so he could charge his phone." Huh?? Who's the parent here? You have the right to go swimming whenever you durn well please! And his phone charging is his own responsibility!! Don't be a doormat hon, it's not doing you or your son any favors. emoticon emoticon

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IM_GETTIN_THIN 3/6/2010 11:00AM

    I agree wholeheartedly with what ladyraven said! [just too afraid to post it here] You are worth MORE than that!!

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AMALIA8 3/6/2010 9:24AM

    I don't think I've seen any changes in the mirror. There are times where I feel thinner but then look in the mirror and look the same to me. So, maybe that's the same thing LOL. I also haven't lost that much weight yet so that could be it too LOL. In regards to the going home thing, I think you'll be able to handle this much better once you get home as you're dealing with a lot of negativity here right now. :) Keep up the great work and just last through one more month!

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BOVEY63 3/5/2010 9:46PM

    I hope you find some peace when you return home.

I know what you mean about the mirror - I'm never sure that I am seeing the real me. Please post the response you get from those you haven't seen in six months.

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LADYRAVEN1963 3/5/2010 9:26PM

    I have a question: why is your SON dictating how you do things and where you go, as well as WHEN? Also, why are you allowing him and the Wife to walk all over you? You say you are not happy, yet you contiue this. I understand that you want to keep peace to see the Grandkids, but is it really worth your Self-Esteem? Seriously? This is not good for YOU on so many Levels...I can't even begin.

As hard as it will be, you need to tell them that you will NOT be used any longer...if they want you to watch the kids, then they need to ASK you and not DEMAND or EXPECT you to be available. They wouldn't do this to any other person....I promise this.

But, until YOU stand up for yourself, it WILL continue....

Sorry if this is harsh, but you really need to step back and see how their Treatment of you is affecting you and your Health...

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Venting Again

Thursday, March 04, 2010

So here I go again, letting off steam for my situation and learning how to deal with it and take care of myself. My son tells me this am that Mija my DIL is gone till Sunday again. This is the second week in a row. Guess she has a conference in Myrtle Beach till Sunday and she left this am. So he says to me can I go play poker tonight and tomorrow. I hate how they never inform me of there schedules till it happens. There is no respect there. He puts me on the spot and makes it look like there is nothing wrong with what he does. Me I am wondering how do I take care of the dog and the grandson and take care of self too. I also feel they are not fair to Beto my grandson. So I made my son at least give me the car for tonight so we are not locked up in house and I can take him out and give him a good time too. It is not fair to him either. So I am going to try and make the best of it for us and let my son go and do hi thing. In all of this I have to take care of self and do a workout too.

I have to be resolved to the fact they do not want to be considerate of me and it is my problem as to how they are and I will have to learn to fix the situation. That is what I am trying to do here. Am I learning and doing ok??

Thanks for being here so I do not go crazy in all of this stuff. emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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DARINGR8LY 3/4/2010 8:46PM

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You can do anything you want. You have proven that.

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SPARKINSASSY 3/4/2010 4:39PM

    I understand and am sorry you are in this spot. Until a few years ago I could relate to this situation, then I started using my "NO" muscles in my face. It took awhile but it worked and I get and give the respect needed.

Bet you enjoy your grandson bunches.

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MRSEATSALOT 3/4/2010 3:29PM

    emoticon Just remember that you have to put yourself first. Sometime kids just don't understand how disrespectful they can be. I'm so sorry you are going through a rough time, but I'm glad you are trying to make time for you!! Keep your chin up and I'm sure things will get better!!!

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