Sunday, February 21, 2010
Well I am glad that week is over. I am trying to get back on track. So many things happening that I have no control over. I did do my treadmill today, I took someones suggestion and raised the level of the treadmill to try and get a little more heart rate up. I read a few blogs and the rally went great here in SC. I had the party so I could not go. i went to my grandsons soccer game it was so funny. There was 4 and 5 years old running all around not knowing what they were doing. I laughed so hard. Beto has this stride where he swings his arms when he runs and it is so cute. He stands out because of this. There were girls on the team too and one little girl just kept cartwheeling in the field when the game was going on. Seeing children play a sport when they are so young has a whole different prospective. They have no real idea what they are doing and it is lucky if they even kick the ball. I laughed a lot when the game was going on. It only took 45 min. for the game. We had a beautiful day for the first game is was sunny and in the high 60's, just perfect. It feels like spring here in SC.
So I did make sure to get a workout in, even with all the other stuff going on today. I feel so much better if I apply myself to taking care of myself. I get to sleep in a bed again tonight too.
Just one more thing to vent and share, had a fight with my son on the wawy home from the game, he made a wise crack about me not giving him food stamp money for groceries. It all started when they were going to stop at Walmart after the game and I did not bring a purse. I needed two things, mentioned it to my son, and he somehow turned it around to the food stamps I had not given him. He invited me here for 6 months, I watch his dog and son, do a lot of the cleaning, and he want me to give him money for food from my food stamps why I am here! I just get upset thinking I am not worth much to him that he is not willing to feed me that I need to pull more than my share. I had been using my money why I am here, I buy what is needed, I told him this and he wanted to know exactly what I had gotten. Like I have to give him the list. Sorry my memory is not that good. Besides he should trust what I say that I have been buying food. I ended up just telling him I was not going to speak to him about this cause I knew I was not going to end up looking good, in the fight. I live at home on a limited amount. They both work and make lots of money yet I have to pay him while I am her. Just does not seem right, and he can not see my way of thinking. I know no one can do nothing about this, it is the way he is. I do not know what I did with him bringing him up but he has a very selfish streak that bugs me at times. So I just needed to vent it and get it off my shoulders. Thanks for all who listen and do not judge me. Just listen. I know i am not perfect, and I may be in the wrong, but I just am not willing to give and not get in return at times. Have a great night.