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Day 7

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Have let myself down a little the last 3 days. Have not done my walks and no 10 minutes the last 2 days. Tim is home and just can't exercise when he is home. He has also been at me to eat saying "it's Christmas enjoy yourself." Haven't got to the place that I want to exercise in front of him. It has been very cold and rainy so I choose not to do my exercising. I am taking responsibility for not exercising, it was my choice not to do it in front of him. Thank God he goes back to work tomorrow and I will have some time to exercise while he is at work.


day 5

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Today is day 5 with Spark Coach and I must say I am a little surprised at the content so far. It's good but not much more than what I have read on line without their help. I will continue it for the 3 months that I paid for and hope that it will pick up a little. I am still in the basics and they are what they are. I know for sure that you have to really get them or the results will not be permanent. Now for the positive I have done each days lesson. I think that starting during the holidays might be a little harder but that is why I did it. I could feel myself getting frustrated and wanting to give up when I didn't lose lbs. I am not going to weigh myself for a while. I want to hold out as long as I can as it seems to cause me to get depressed. I tend to want everything NOW not later. Today is my anniversary. We have been married 17 years but together for 27years. It seems just like yesterday we meet. I really don't feel much older except for all the normal aches and pains. It's amazing how time changes your perspective on most everything. Years ago I was worried about getting my children's gifts for Christmas and today I worry about my grandchildren's gifts. My granddaughters gift got back ordered so she doesn't have one to open. I have decided to give her a gold and diamond bracelet of mine. I hope she will understand the love I have for her and realize how much the bracelet means to me. Her mother and uncle got it for me several years ago. We just don't have any extra money to use for another present. She turns 13 in February and is somewhat of a tomboy but I think she will like it. My husband bought our grandsons flying fish that are remote controlled. He had a blast putting them together. I can't wait to see three huge remote controlled fish flying around my house.Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and New Year.



Thursday, December 20, 2012

As I look back on today's activities I am proud of the fact that I choose to get on with my life. Sure I still have some depression but I did not let it control me. I did the work that needed to be done. I exercised my 10 minutes and read a lot of motivational articles on spark people. Cooked a new spark recipe that my family loved. Tonight I am going to start looking for pictures for my motivational college and concentrate on what it is I really want to do with my life.


Day 1 with spark coach

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Decided to reread the book and use spark coach today. I have decided I need to be accountable to someone other than myself. I want to succeed at this and in the same process I hope to learn more about myself. It really struck home to that to succeed you first must know where you want to be. I find myself 57 and at a loss as to what I want to do with the rest of my life. I believe the weight I can't seem to lose and keep off is really more about not knowing what I really want to do with my life. I am going to work hard to find my way back to being the person God wants me to be and what I want for myself.

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Reality Check

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Woke up this morning with a bad attitude. Not sure why I was so depressed. Nothing new that I could think of to cause it other than the usual thing of not being able to find a job. I made myself get out and go for a walk. This usually helps but today not so much. It was a beautiful day, sun shining and the trail on the river was really pretty. I really concentrated on being in the moment and not on walking faster or longer. I decided to go watch my granddaughter play basketball tonight. That helped a great deal. It was fun yelling and cheering for the team. On my way home I decided to except that today was just that a day and it is almost over. Tomorrow is another day and another chance to get over myself. Everyone has bad days. Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow. I have nothing to complain about. My heart goes out to the families that have lost so much. How they can go on is just impossible to imagine. I pray that some how they will find a way to acceptance and peace.


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