Thursday, November 22, 2012
Had a great Thanksgiving with family and friends. My heart was missing several of my family, my mother was with me all day in spirit. Talked with her sister today and she sounded so much like her it made me cry. No matter how long she is gone I will always miss her. Next was Jason. This was his 2 Thanksgiving in jail. My heart breaks thinking of him all alone. They don't even have special visiting hours for them at this jail. How he must miss Dylan and Shanna. I know everything is his own fault but still to feel like everyone has deserted him must be awful. i pray this makes him realize how he has to change his life. I miss my son, the one that I remember as a child with a beautiful laugh and that special glint in his eye. I miss the little things he used to do to help me out. How he use to cook for me. I pray that this is the year for Jesus to open his eyes and heart to how much he loves him. He needs to know without a doubt that he is loved. Some how I failed to make him feel loved and he has turned to all the wrong things to find happiness. I know that without a miracle he doesn't have a chance for a happy life. All prayers are appreciated.