Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Today my tracking really opened my eyes to the fact that I had no clue how much food I was eating. I woke up hungry and went to IHOP for breakfast telling myself I would just eat less the rest of the day. I did get egg beaters instead of real eggs and only ate half of them and only ate 2 or 3 bites of hash browns. That said I did go home and walk 2.5miles in my neighborhood which has some really good size hills. Of course I was hungry when I got home and ate a snak. Next came a nap. Don't know what happened to me I NEVER NEVER take naps. I just feel asleep on the couch. It was time to cook dinner for the family. It was salad, sauté chicken in olive oil spray, mac and cheese made without butter or milk and only 1/4 the cheese, mashed potatoes and cornbread. That said I knew I was in trouble so ate my salad before the rest of the meal was done. Than I rationalized to myself well if I just eat 1/4 cup of mashed potatoes and the mac and cheese I will at least not have pigged out. By this time I wanted to cry. Thinking oh well today is a bust I might as well eat the cornbread too. After all this I decided I would at least track what I ate. I did measure everything I ate so tracking was easy. I used the high end of everything because I was going to be honest with myself if it killed me. Imagine my surprise when I was totally on plan. On other diets I would not have tracked what I ate because I didn't want to know how bad I failed. Thank GOD I decided to be honest with myself and keep my goals in front of me or else I would have just given up again. Yes I could have made much better choices for weight loss, but the point is I DID NOT QUIT. That's a first for me after eating like that.