Monday, August 16, 2010
I'm getting very close to my two year "surgiversary" on Sept 9th. I can't believe it's been two years already. Time has flown by and yet every day I am still amazed at how different my life is now and how much happier I am.
I wandered away from SparkPeople for awhile....got caught up in weddings. My daughter got married in April and then my son got married in July!! Leave it to my kids to pick the same year and have their weddings three months apart.....Geez!! So throw in bridal showers and rehearsal dinners, birthday parties, a busy job, life in general and throw in a new addiction to FaceBook and I found that I was going weeks, sometimes over a month without even logging in. Throughout all of this mayhem I've maintained my goal weight, but have found myself falling way off the wagon with my exercise and just plain old missing the support of other people that have experienced the same life changing event as myself. So I decided to get my butt back on SP!!!
Guess what? The whole team is different.....(except for Nena) and I realize how far out of touch I've gotten with my support group. I miss my surgery sisters. We still see each other post on FB, so it's not as though we've all lost touch, but it's not the same. I wish everyone would come back. I'm hoping to make new friends on the Sparkler's team - so I'm just jumping right back in and becoming involved again. I know I need this team for support and encouragement and I want to do the same for others. I know this journey is never done, I always have to be on my game, and I know I will always need a support group as part of my plan.
Two years down, a lifetime to go.................................
This picture was taken at my son's wedding on July 10th, 2010!!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I'm inching closer to my 1.5 year post op mark. Seem's hard to believe that I've been living this new lifestyle that long already! I think back to all of the times I tried to diet and gave up and re-gained lost pounds and reflect on all of the wasted time. This past year and a half has gone by so fast - I wish I wouldn't have stayed on the roller coaster for so long. I'm so happy now and to think that all of this seemed so far out of my reach and now I'm living my dream. I'm blessed.
I recently went on my first vacation since losing all of the weight. I just can't get over what a completely different experience it was from past vacations.
I remember getting off of our cruise ship in Ensenada (1/2008) and having to walk for what felt like miles from the dock to town. I was bawling because my knees hurt so bad, and I was mad at myself and embarassed. I couldn't have a good time, because if any activity required walking - that meant I was going to be in pain. I also remember having to suck in my stomach so much to get the airplane seatbelt buckled without having to ask for an extender I thought my intestines would be permanently damaged and I also remember not being able to wear a heel higher than an inch - I couldn't walk on anything higher than that because of all of the pressure on my knees. Oh I was so miserable on that vacation!!
This cruise (1/2010) WOW....what a different experience! I worked out in the gym on the ship, I opted for the stairs instead of the elevator 99% of the time and I had extra seatbelt to spare on the plane! I wore 3 inch heels and walked everywhere, I dressed up and didn't mind getting my picture taken. I looked happy.....REALLY happy. I ate really good food and drank good wine - probably indulged more than I should have, but I didn't gain any weight. Although I did eat extravagant dinners, I tried to make healthy choices at breakfast and lunch opting for eggs, ham, fruit and a slice of toast instead of the french toast or pancakes etc. At lunch I would choose lots of protein items from the buffet like shrimp, roast beef or ham and fill in with veggies and salad. One or two bites of dessert was all I would take if I chose to try something. If we went to afternoon tea - I chose the salmon mini sandwiches instead of the sweets. My biggest vice was the stupid coffee bar (think Starbucks - but free). I couldn't stay away from it. I had a wonderful time though - and I enjoyed my new body and how I looked. My husband was proud of me....and he mentioned that even though I didn't notice it - other men were checking me out. (Thanks for the ego boost honey!!)
So I'm just chugging along - working at making the right choices on a daily basis and maintaining my success. My New Year's resolution this year was to "continue on my healthy path" and to try to spend less money on clothes! (Hey - it's a process building an entire new wardrobe ok?)
Is there anything I'm not happy about? Yes!! I love the way I look in clothes but I detest my saggy stomach, butt and thighs. I refused to wear a bathing suit at the pool or on the public beach in Grand Turk. I bought swim shorts instead. I'm really mad at myself for getting so fat that when I lost the weight it left these parts of my body looking like used, deflated, wrinkled balloon skin. UGH!!! If only I could take it all back!! I know I need to forgive myself but I haven't yet, and until I do I don't think I'll be able to come to terms with how my body looks. Plastic surgery would be an out of pocket expense and that is not financially an option right now. Other than that, I'm not complaining!!
Monday, November 09, 2009
I am 14 months post op today. I weighed myself this morning, and WOO-HOO!! I AM AT GOAL!!!! I feel great, I love the way I look, I couldn't ask for more. I am so pleased with the results from my RNY. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. Not one regret.
I went to San Francisco on a shopping trip with my 21 year old daughter and her friends on Saturday and I could have out-shopped them! A far cry from my pre-op days of painful knee misery. I am so thankful to be where I'm at today. I can remember being 21 years old and feeling miserable because I weighed 150 pounds. Sillly, silly girl!!!!
A new chapter in my life.......maintenance. Wow!!!!!
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