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Momma Said Knock You Out!

Friday, April 17, 2009

My new favorite exercise... Turbo Kick! My least favorite part of my new favorite exercise... it's in a room full of mirrors!!! I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I weren't the largest woman in the class. But there I am in a room full of size 6s who I constantly imagine are thinking, "What is SHE doing here? Doesn't she realize she is too fat to be here? She is going to crack the floor bouncing around like that!" I already have trouble looking at myself in the mirror... it is detrimental to the level of denial I am in regarding my size. So between the frightening reality of how big my butt really is and the imagined snickering of my classmates, it's a wonder I even make it to class... but it is so FUN!! I get to punch and kick and basically throw a fit to music!

Maybe sometime soon I'll look in one of those mirrors and think, "Not bad!" Maybe in about 20 pounds or so...

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MISSCHRIS3 4/18/2009 8:43PM

    Keep up the good work. Not only are you getting in shape Just think of the damage you can do to those size 6'rs once you've learned all the moves...... emoticon

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ROYALETBONE 4/18/2009 1:57AM

    I believe in the 'love yourself' into shape version of reality... but maybe when you see your butt you can think "I'm kicking the fat out of that butt" and really kick it HARD.
Tee hee.
Love this blog. Keep on keeping on!

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BEANIEISBACK 4/17/2009 12:10PM

    I agree with the others. It doesn't matter what other people think...it matters that you're there! You are burning calories and having a blast doing it. That's fabulous! Keep it up!
I hope you make it back to the PPP's for this round. We missed you.

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HIKINGFOOL14ERS 4/17/2009 12:07PM

    Woohoo. Glad you had fun punching and kicking to the music. Do not worry what the other people. Just keep punching and kicking and burning those calories.

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LADYDARYA 4/17/2009 8:24AM

    It's so easy to imagine the snide comments of others, they may be there and they may not. The important thing to remember is that it doesn't matter what they think...it matters what you think! Stick with it - you said it was fun remember that when the insecurities kick in....

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"Snack"? I don't think so!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I have decided that Spark needs an additional option when logging food. There is already Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, and Snack. Well, I propose they also add Binge. And then when you log something under Binge, a hand reaches out of the monitor and slaps you across the face.

Last week I did so well staying around 1200 and then last night I just... I don't know... lost my mojo or something. I had FOUR pieces of peanut butter toast. FOUR! And I wasn't even hungry! I am the Queen of Self-Sabotage. What is wrong with me?

So I go to log it this morning and I put it under Snack and just had to chuckle at that because it was NOT a snack, it was a bona fide BINGE!

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JANA_N_TN 6/17/2008 12:22PM

    Hmph! I just had to laugh when I logged my food today because there is now a place at the bottom of the page where you can add "extra meal categories" and name it whatever you want. It did not, however, offer a slapping feature. I'm sure I would have any number of volunteers here at work to take that on for me if I think I need it. :)

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ROYALETBONE 4/17/2008 11:18PM

    Well, butter my butt and call me a biscutt, darlin! IF you are actually entering your food, then I can tell you why. My calories are set a bit higher than yours, but I'm supposed to be eating 60-180 g of protien a day- yours might be 40-150, or whatever. Protein is a MAJOR important food block, and your body was saying- 'listen up, bud, we need more'. I read your food log, and you've been shorting yourself. I have that prob sometimes, too.
TRUST? OH, it looks like you should maybe TRUST your body? It might have some good things to say, now and then! Major, sweet concept. Nice.
Anyhoot, any time I get a major crave, I check my logs- I usually find I've shorted myself somewheres. You did.

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KEAHI.NOELANI 4/17/2008 7:49PM

    Hey, I know you're not feeling so great about it and it was by no means In The Plan, but 800 calories of good healthy food is the kind of speed bump you can roll right over. Hang in there!

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PAMELA984 4/16/2008 9:35AM

    Well, you know that they keep adding enhancements to this site, maybe they can even come up with the slap (virtual)! - LOL! It is like we have an out-of-body experience, isn't it? Just pick yourself up and start over - immediately!

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CBAVOSA 4/16/2008 9:30AM

    I totally agree! Why do we do it to ourselves???? Glad that you logged it though. Now jump on that bike and ride it off! Best of luck this weekend!!!! I am cheering you on from NY!

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Then it dawned on me...

Thursday, March 06, 2008

So, I took my daughter shopping at the mall on Saturday. After she had gotten all her cute little outfits, I bought her a soft pretzel and she sat down to eat it while I popped into New York & Co. While I was there, I saw one of the moms from the volleyball team my daughter was on last year. She looked right at me, and I smiled at her, and she just walked away. And I thought, "How can she not recognize me? Am I that forgettable?" Later, I realized that she didn't recognize me because I'm 40 pounds lighter! My skinniness is like a disguise!!!

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JANA_N_TN 6/16/2008 11:12PM

    I know it's been a while since you posted this, but I fell off the wagon for a while. I thought it was pretty cool that she didn't recognize you. There was a new girl working at the Y (before I took a hiatus) and when I asked her for my membership card back...she couldn't find it. After looking thru all of them, she finally asked me my name. Then she picks it up, looks at it and says...well, you don't even look like this! I could have hugged her! That was the BEST compliment she could have given me.

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ROYALETBONE 3/7/2008 10:42PM

    Way cool! You can go incommunicado! Witness protection program via weight loss! ...'-)

Comment edited on: 3/7/2008 10:42:32 PM

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EMERRUBE 3/6/2008 9:41AM

    that is awesome though!

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I Feel Heavy - Oh So Heavy

Monday, January 28, 2008

I feel heavy and chunky and gaaaah!

That's what happens when you don't exercise for three days, don't drink your water, eat chocolate, and get your period. In that order.

I know I need to exercise today. I know I will feel better after I exercise. I know it will help my weigh-in for BL5 tomorrow. But all I want to do is take a nap. I'm working from home today which usually means eat, work, surf the net, eat, log on to Spark, nap, snack, think about working, snack some more, work, watch Dr. Phil, surf the net some more, scratch myself, think about showering, work, shower, eat... you get the idea.

So according to the above schedule, it is time to nap. Nighty-night!

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BEACHINN 1/28/2008 11:30PM

    You forgot the part about beating yourself up because you're not perfect.

I wish we could wear off calories for that.

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HIDINGNOMORE 1/28/2008 8:07PM

    I know the feeling. I'm having the same feeling today. Hang in there! Did you get some exercise in? ((HUGS)) Kristina

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Happy Dance In My Brand New Pants

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Okay, so they aren't exactly NEW. I called my mom at work and said, "I'm calling to tell you I got a new pair of pants... FROM MY CLOSET!"

I rock. My butt is getting smaller. My fat apron is starting to retreat.

These were the pants that I was using as a guide to see how my weight loss was progressing. At the beginning of this journey, at 242 pounds, I couldn't even get them all the way up my thighs. Then in December sometime I was thrilled to get them on, snapped, and zipped, and they weren't even restricting my breathing! I showed my daughter and said, "Well, I can get them on, but I can't wear them to work just yet."

TODAY I'm wearing them to work! I was in the bathroom dancing, singing, "I'm wearing these to work, I'm wearing these to work. I look so cute!"

Yay me!!!

So, Girls, Go in that closet and find a pair of pants you know don't fit you... YET, and try them on. Keep going back to them until you too can do the happy dance in your brand new pants!!!

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GOOGLEMENOW 1/25/2008 1:51PM

  I just love this blog. The best place to go shopping is in your own closet, isn't it an amazing feeling when some of the old stuff becomes your new stuff. You really should post a pic., your pictures really show how far you've come on this journey. And you have really come a long way. You have every reason to do the "Happy Dance". Glad your Purple!!

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USC1715 1/18/2008 9:58PM

    Hey that is really awesome! Have you posted a pic on your gallery yet? If not, you should!

I have my pair sitting...and waiting...

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EMERRUBE 1/18/2008 9:05AM

    that is awesome! great job!

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GREGOR9416 1/17/2008 12:00PM

    YAY!!! Good for you, you totally rock!

I have my "skinny jeans" - or my goal - hanging on the back of my bedroom door. I WILL get there!

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