Friday, April 17, 2009
My new favorite exercise... Turbo Kick! My least favorite part of my new favorite exercise... it's in a room full of mirrors!!! I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I weren't the largest woman in the class. But there I am in a room full of size 6s who I constantly imagine are thinking, "What is SHE doing here? Doesn't she realize she is too fat to be here? She is going to crack the floor bouncing around like that!" I already have trouble looking at myself in the mirror... it is detrimental to the level of denial I am in regarding my size. So between the frightening reality of how big my butt really is and the imagined snickering of my classmates, it's a wonder I even make it to class... but it is so FUN!! I get to punch and kick and basically throw a fit to music!
Maybe sometime soon I'll look in one of those mirrors and think, "Not bad!" Maybe in about 20 pounds or so...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I have decided that Spark needs an additional option when logging food. There is already Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, and Snack. Well, I propose they also add Binge. And then when you log something under Binge, a hand reaches out of the monitor and slaps you across the face.
Last week I did so well staying around 1200 and then last night I just... I don't know... lost my mojo or something. I had FOUR pieces of peanut butter toast. FOUR! And I wasn't even hungry! I am the Queen of Self-Sabotage. What is wrong with me?
So I go to log it this morning and I put it under Snack and just had to chuckle at that because it was NOT a snack, it was a bona fide BINGE!
Thursday, March 06, 2008
So, I took my daughter shopping at the mall on Saturday. After she had gotten all her cute little outfits, I bought her a soft pretzel and she sat down to eat it while I popped into New York & Co. While I was there, I saw one of the moms from the volleyball team my daughter was on last year. She looked right at me, and I smiled at her, and she just walked away. And I thought, "How can she not recognize me? Am I that forgettable?" Later, I realized that she didn't recognize me because I'm 40 pounds lighter! My skinniness is like a disguise!!!
Monday, January 28, 2008
I feel heavy and chunky and gaaaah!
That's what happens when you don't exercise for three days, don't drink your water, eat chocolate, and get your period. In that order.
I know I need to exercise today. I know I will feel better after I exercise. I know it will help my weigh-in for BL5 tomorrow. But all I want to do is take a nap. I'm working from home today which usually means eat, work, surf the net, eat, log on to Spark, nap, snack, think about working, snack some more, work, watch Dr. Phil, surf the net some more, scratch myself, think about showering, work, shower, eat... you get the idea.
So according to the above schedule, it is time to nap. Nighty-night!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Okay, so they aren't exactly NEW. I called my mom at work and said, "I'm calling to tell you I got a new pair of pants... FROM MY CLOSET!"
I rock. My butt is getting smaller. My fat apron is starting to retreat.
These were the pants that I was using as a guide to see how my weight loss was progressing. At the beginning of this journey, at 242 pounds, I couldn't even get them all the way up my thighs. Then in December sometime I was thrilled to get them on, snapped, and zipped, and they weren't even restricting my breathing! I showed my daughter and said, "Well, I can get them on, but I can't wear them to work just yet."
TODAY I'm wearing them to work! I was in the bathroom dancing, singing, "I'm wearing these to work, I'm wearing these to work. I look so cute!"
So, Girls, Go in that closet and find a pair of pants you know don't fit you... YET, and try them on. Keep going back to them until you too can do the happy dance in your brand new pants!!!
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