Saturday, July 10, 2010
Here I am at another Saturday. I hate work right now so I am glad to be at home. The stress is causing me serious issues. My B/P is up and I generally don't feel well. I am having female issues and my patience is at an all time low. I am doing just about all I can manage and more is still required. I don't know how much more I can do. I need a break but don't dare take one. I am doing my best but it doesn't seem to be enough. I don't know what to do to fix it. I am not doing so well with my diet either. No surprise there though. It is a new high that I am still trying to keep healthy eating as a main priority. I normally would have abandoned the attempt due to stress. I am determined to do this. I know almost all of the different trends and techniques. I am still searching for one that will allow me to overcome my biggest huddle. That is the issue of emotional eating even more specifically, stress eating. I have been able to overcome so many huddles over the years. This one is like a lot of the others. I haven't quiet figured it out. There are probably more huddles behind it that I can't see yet but one at a time is more that enough. At least I realize that a set back is just that. A small moment of weakness. I can get back on the horse anytime and every time it happens. That has been a blessing the last few months. I am still doing well with my exercise at least. I am determine to make it a habit. I know all the scientific info that says it takes 6 weeks-6 months to create a good habit but I also know myself. It will more likely be 6 years for me. Knowing that makes it easy to face one day at a time and consider that a huge step in the direction of my goals. I am not going to give up on this one. I never really have just paused for different reasons. I am even more determined now than I ever have been. I gained this week ( a pound) but I am not going to let it slow me down. I am in it for the long haul.