I am so glad it is a three day weekend. It has been a rough year at work and I am extremely grateful for any day away from the office. I was not very strict this week week with calories. I had a bad week in that regard. I am not upset about it. I am 50 and will have more than one week or so with not so smart eating over the next few years. I am okay with that. I did do all of my exercise plan this week. I am going to be especially diligent when it comes to that if my dietary goals are a little off. It is a more holistic approach to my life than I have tried before. I am trying to figure this all out as I go instead of waiting until I am at goal and failing again. That is something I have always known but never applied until now. Maybe it is Spark People or being older and not wanting to do this again in a year or so. Either way I am going to do it this time. I have always needed to and that never was enough. I have always wanted to and that wasn't enough either apparently. Now is my time. I know it and I am going to do it. Life is a highway. I'm gonna ride it. (Tom Cochrane song lyrics)
Yesterday I found out I will have to work over the holiday weekend. One of the guys I work with is on vacation and was supposed to take his laptop with him to manage a huge project. He forgot it and didn't want to turn around an run back home to get it because he was already 15 minutes from his house. I am trying to piece together what it is that I am supposed to be doing but without any details from him everyone may be very displeased with the way the weekend goes. I usually can wing it but this is a much bigger project than a normal day. I will do my best and pray everything works out okay. I didn't have any official plans but now I will have to be around the house most of the time. Hopefully it will be at least a little restful. My goal is for everything to run so smoothly no one will realize it was me behind it. I haven't decided what payback to use but I have time to figure that out. ;-) I am having some issues staying on track with eating lately. I am not doing too bad but I am not doing my normal calorie intake. I seem to be up by 300 calories a day for about a week. I am going to concentrate on getting back down this weekend. I am so close I really don't want to loose the momentum I have had the past few weeks. We shall see how that works out. I also am not planning on any serious deprivation at this point. I am enjoying my successes and don't relish the idea of making it miserable. That just entices me to be even worse. I had better run. I have a lot to do to get ready for the work I will be doing over the weekend. At least it isn't supposed to be too hot in ABQ this weekend.
I can't believe I didn't post a blog message yesterday. I was so busy at work and tired after I got home I completely forgot. At least I got my workout in yesterday morning before everything went to hell. I had an issue with my email at work and by the time it was fixed I had 207 emails from the last 4 days that did not make it into my email box. I was up until 11PM trying to get them all double checked to make sure everything was done. I am finishing up the last few this morning. I only have 2 more to do. I had some uncontrolled eating yesterday afternoon. I am not going to beat myself up about it but it is a red flag that I am still going to have to work on emotional eating. I was tried, didn't feel good and had just had a ton of work dumped on me from cyberspace. I had chocolate and a breakfast burrito for dinner. Also some sugarless candy that I thought would keep me on the straight and narrow. Oh well at least I know that it is still going to be an issue. Part of the solution is figuring out the problem and that I have done. I have know about this issue for years. It is part of the reason I had a weight problem in the first place. It hurts no one but myself. I did exercise this morning so I am back on the band wagon. I am really looking forward to the 3 day weekend. It will be a welcome break for the doldrums of work and stress at work. Speaking of work, I had better get back at it. I am almost caught back up. I just thought I was having a great week....silly wabbit!
Tuesday is such an odd day. Monday is over (thank goodness), but the week still has a long way to go before the weekend. Some days I wish I was back to shift work so I could have the occasional day off during the week. I miss being off on a Thursday or whatever. I could always get so much done on those days. It is just a matter of proprieties. Do I want to sleep at night with my hubby and be off holidays and weekends or have days off during the week. I think I still prefer the first but wouldn’t it be nice to be able to have both? I had some uncontrolled eating yesterday but it was not as bad as it could have been. It was sugar free candy and that is great in moderation. Of course if you are going to cheat that is a good choice since the gastric discomfort that follows is a pretty good deterrent in itself! I now have no desire to cheat at all. Negative reinforcement works too sometimes. I still have trouble believing my current size. When I close my eyes and picture myself, it isn’t what I see when I open them. I guess it will take a while for that to become the norm in my head (if it ever does). If that is the biggest hurdle I have to face I am in fantastic shape!
Why are the weekends so short these days? I really love my time off, more now than ever. I suppose it is the general desperation of the work force in this economy. I know I like being home where the stress is just my own and not the entire business world. I am really looking forward to the upcoming three day weekend. I usually do really well on the weekends. I have been exercising 7 days a week. I don't require it on the tracker but as long as it is convenient I am going to do it. I am really starting to notice the extra skin. I knew I would have it but it doesn't make me like it. I hope I can get a total body lift. I will start with the lower since that is where the main issues are. Once I get that all paid off I will look at the upper. My boobs definitely need some help. ;-) It look like when the tire on my car was flat. Some one let the air out! I am only 8.2 pound away from goal. My plan has always been to maintain for a year and see where I am. Then I will have an evaluation and estimate on whatever needs to be done. Sounds like I am planning body work on my car!