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Not Alone...not even close!

Friday, April 30, 2010

I just read another person's blog post and she wrote exactly what I am feeling and was going to write about. It started me thinking that we are never as alone as we feel. Yesterday I poster my first pictures on my Spark Page. They go back to just before my bypass surgery in Jan. 2003. Since I posted them I have had an uneasy feeling. I have never enjoyed having my photo taken and most every diet I have done has been in response to a photo. I have the same feeling of dread that people I have know over the ears will see how I looked then. What if they didn't know I had gained and lost a whole person 2 or three times over? I still have 25 pounds to go. I am still over weight. Luckily I'm not "obese" anymore. Well in my head I know there were lots of reasons I gained weight. Heredity, stress, eating habits, comfort foods, hating to exercise, night shift for years and on and on. I also know that there isn't anything to be done about the past. It is history and not worth losing too much sleep over. I need to concentrate on today and going forward. I need to look at my new healthier lifestyle. I should celebrate my victories as the come my way. I am still me just smaller than a few years ago but still larger than a few years earlier than that. It's all good. It has made me, well me. Nothing wrong with that. I will continue to do my level best at life and when I stumble here and there...I will just plug along and come to this site for encouragement and to encourage others. I doubt I will get over my issues with having my photo taken or seen by others but if that is my worst flaw, I am in great shape!!
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CELES2010 4/30/2010 10:39PM

  I know what you mean about pictures. I am usually the "official photographer" at most functions. And while I do enjoy taking pictures, I mostly do it so I don't have TO BE in any of the pictures!

And, like you, I realize that when I'm done with this I will still be the same person I've always been. Just smaller. I appreciate you bringing that to light.

Good Luck with the last 25! I know you can do it!!


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PARKERB2 4/30/2010 11:42AM

    I'm with you! I just posted my first picture on my Spark Page yesterday. emoticon

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Here we go....

Thursday, April 29, 2010

I said I was going to pull out all the stops for this last round of weight loss...so here goes.

I am eating more healthy and at a reduce caloric intake so I can loos the last 20-25 pounds. It isn't as crazy strict or obsessed as I have frequently done in the past. I am riding my Life Cycle for 45 minutes every weekday morning before I get ready for work. I get my laptop and check emails and do my SparkPeople points while I ride so it isn't too boring. It actually goes pretty fast. I am not a big fan of exercise but I know I need to do it if I ever want to be truly healthy and happy. I got the Fit, Firm and Fired Up video and will start doing 10 minutes a day, seven days a week. Saturday will be my first day for that streak. I need to find the power cord to the DVD player in the room where I do my morning fitness routine. I seem to do better when I ease into things, although it has taken me years to finally figure that out. I used to go 110% at something immediately and then I would drop it like a hot potato at some point because I got busy, bored, sick, insert excuse here. Now I realize that I am not going to be perfect on anything really but that is no reason to quit something. I used to "rocket" along toward my goals until I exploded and fall off the wagon. Now I plug along and it seems to fit my style better. I guess it is the old tortoise and the hare story being played out again. Maybe I finally figured out it is the journey and not the destination that is the most important.
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    emoticon i know you can do it

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