Monday, June 22, 2009
This may sound stupid but every week I have been taking a word and making that my theme for the week. It has been kind of working for me.
The first week was Oblivious
My whole goal was to stop being oblivious to everything going on inside/outside my body, mind, soul, search out what I am starving for and give it to myself. I came out with a whole outline of what I need EVERY single day and in every aspect of my life to be fulfilled. I now know what my daily basic needs are and how I can come out of a day and feel completely filled up. Hopefully this will help me to stop over eating to fill myself up.
The second word was Princess.
The whole thing was I didn’t feel like a girl anymore, I felt like this ugly blob, I really honestly wouldn’t even look at myself in the mirror. Well I changed that….with last week… my goal was to look and feel like a princess, to be the girly girl that I am and to stop wearing tattered clothes and hiding behind messy hair and a cluttered house. I removed 7 bags of clothing that were not flattering, did not fit correctly, and they are going to charity. I listened to girly music from the 80’s and went shopping bought a new body soap, got two new crystal necklaces, one was a gift from Chris. I also got 2 new tops a pretty sweater and some cute sandals. Everything I bought had to have some color or some sort of crystal element in it, they had to be affordable (I am on a tight budget here) and they had to be something that I wanted and felt expressed my style and gave me an uplift when I wore them. They also had to stand out a bit, I wanted women to pass by them and say wow I want those!! I got my jewelry out and I started wearing my bracelets/rings and earrings. I refuse to be the girl that does not take care of herself anymore… Oh, I also painted my fingers and toes, yay!!
So this week the word is Reinvent. I am not sure what I have in store for myself this week, I think it probably has to go along the lines of my theme of change already. I feel really good right now and so optimistic that as I start to be more true and honest to myself the easier my life seems to get, things are falling into place and things that seemed so hard to do were only hard because I made them that way.