Sunday, July 17, 2011
Ok, if you have read my blogs or are in one of my teams...you know...i'm pretty darned excited about being a grandma...lol... and even that might be an understatement... but, being caught up in the excitement of it, i never really took the time to let it fully hit me... i mean... i'm gonna be a grandma... well...that realization hit yesterday at the baby shower... and i'll be honest... it took my breath away...i mean... me.... a grandma... i thought i was ready...but am i?? i will be a big part of his life...but that means, i will be instrumental in his growth...yea, the parents will be the main ones of course...but i will also have a big part... as did my parents with my kids... will i be a good grandma? will i be able to handle an all nighter when dd2 needs to rest? will i have the energy to spoil him as rotten as he deserves to be :) just thinking about it makes my heart flutter... i know parents go through this right before baby is born...but truly, i never expected to go through this??? to have these doubts about my grandmother hood...i've been wanting it for so long and now i'm worried about it?? oh come on....really?? lol. i do know i won't be a perfect grandma, just like i was not a perfect mom...but i do know that the baby will know his grandma loves him...that he has a place to run whenever he needs it...all he has to do is call 1-800-GRANDMA and with his parents permission, i'll be there... he will know how to have fun and how to laugh...in this family, that's a must...lol... he will have a grandma that will play games with him and color with him...and hey, i'll be right there when he wants to swing... or play in the water... and since he is a boy... he may just find me right beside him in the mud helping him get dirty...lol.. and when he is here, he may just wake to find his grandma over his bed praying for him... and even if he doesn't wake up during the night...i'll still be there... praying...praying for him...and praying for me...that i will be the kind of grandma he needs me to be. My hope and prayer to my little bundle of joy is that he knows his grandma loves him.
Ok, now that I am crying...lol... the baby shower was terrific... laughs and tears... the devotional my mom did provided both... we had a good time and a healthy lunch... and baby has all the things he needs when he enters this world..well...all that is except a crib...lol...which we are still looking for that perfect one... the one we wanted was a roll down side and all those have been recalled...so...we are still looking for that next perfect one that is just waiting for us :)
Saturday, July 09, 2011
I have always been one of those people that can see a glass of water and truly see it both half full and half empty... an optimist with real life experience... i could drive my crazy because of this... though, trust me, he was the exact same way...lol... i can have hopes and dreams, but also realize that it could and most likely will be different than i had expected... but yet this one is still a shocker to me... Since dd2 has gotten pregnant, we have been absolutely thrilled... i have been wanting grandbabies since before my own kids were even thinking of marriage...lol... and dd2 has been wanting kids way before she should of... so when she did get pregnant... oh the joy...and yea, there were those people that advised she not get too excited..and in the beginning, we were on pins and needles... i having had a miscarriage before, and my dd1 having a miscarriage and not being able to get pregnant again... well, yea, we were scared... once the baby started moving, we let all those thoughts go... i mean... the scary part was over... though we also realized that anything could still happen... we tried not to think of that... so when they started testing dd2 for blood clotting disorders...i just knew she was going to be ok... i mean, just because her grandmother and i had blood clots last year was just coincidence... then that proverbial bomb dropped... she has Protein S disorder...which means her blood can clot faster... they say it's genetic, not hereditary... so not sure what that means for my mom and i... but this could be very serious for dd2 and baby... in fact, from what i have read thus far, there is a higher chance of babies being still born... though a couple reports said that they do usually try to induce labor a couple weeks earlier to prevent that... unfortunately, it is so rare, that it is hard to find much information on it... i do know for sure that her OB had said that if she did have this disorder she would have to go on heprin shots... she will see a specialist on Monday and will hopefully know more...
If you do happen to know anything about Protein S, please let me know what you know... i have googled it and read all that but am also looking for real life people who know something about it.
Also, please keep dd2 and baby in your prayers... she of course is scared... she doesn't do shots well anyways...but of course will do anything for her precious baby... but needless to say...we are all scared.... We know it's in God's hands, but being human, as we are, there is that part of us that still fears the worse...BUT we are hoping for the best.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Life is so busy since joining the gym...and some days it's rush rush rush from the time the alarm clock goes off in the morning until past bedtime...i know this will fall into place if i just keep to it...i just got to keep going...as for the other happening in my life... a little update on dd2. She is now 30 weeks pregnant...and huge...lol. at this point in my pregnacy with her, she was being born...a 3 lb 3 oz 15 in baby girl... struggling to live....now she is going to be a mama...now, we know from her early birth, that a normal baby at 30 wks gestational, should be about 3 lbs 3 oz... but i'm telling ya, i was not this big...lol... her doctor is even beginning to wonder... at last visit, she was 2 times the size she should be...after measuring yesterday, she is now 3 times the size she should be... and truly, she is not fat by any means... so the doctor is wanting to do another ultra sound to see what is going on... poor dd2 is paranoid that maybe there is actually another one that has been hiding (i don't know where she would get such a silly idea *blushes and whisles while she looks around for someone to blame* lol) Also, do to my mom's and my blood clots last year, even though we have been tested to make sure it was actually the coincidence it was and not a disorder, they have put dd2 on a baby asprin a day and is testing her to make sure she doesn't have some kind of disorder that we know we don't have.... but as i told her, yes its a pain, but it's better to be safe...
pictures below of dd2 with 10 more weeks to go...i'm thinking we may have an early baby on our hands...and maybe we should start the pregnacy pool for birth day....lol. but as you will see....she does make a beautiful pregnant woman :) and the belly is oh soooo cute... tehe.
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