Sunday, April 24, 2011
This week seems to be my week for a-ha moments. On Friday, the boss was going to buy us all breakfast at McDonalds, I already had my food planned for the day and in fact had eaten most of my breakfast, yet i still ordered (the flesh was weak). Well he came in, and the only thing they forget to give him was my order. In the past, this would of upset me, and yes, i would of pouted, but you know, it was really ok. He offered me other stuff, but I really didn't want it, it was a sign i shouldn't be giving in to the taste now for pounds later, that was a-ha 1, a-ha 2 is the fact that by controlling what i eat, it isn't controlling me. Now it's Easter, and I have tons of candy...yes, even as an adult, mom hooked me up, plus i have left overs from the baskets i made. So i go to put it away in my private spot, not from my kids (they know where it's at), but from me. I find out of sight really is out of mind. In fact, i threw away some old candy from Valentines day. It's there if I have to have it (i'm a woman, there are always those times...lol) but yet, because i hide it from me, i don't have to have to have it all the time or binge on it cuz it's there.
Today was a good day...a little rocky start...hey, when you deal with my family, it's always rocky...but we ended up having a great time with lots of talking and laughing. And, i didn't over-indulge. I portioned my food and enjoyed every bite without it enjoying making me sick cuz i ate too much :)
Below is a picture of my children and 2 of my nieces and grand-niece -her mom wasn't there this morning, so she isn't in pic :(
Monday, April 11, 2011
So, I got lost for a week...darn menstrual cycles...but i did not gain any weight...i didn't lose... but i didn't gain...wohoo!! i am back to feeling human again and started the week with 45 minutes of cardio (broke up in 3 sessions) and did my strength training for today... despite getting only 6 hours sleep last night, i am feeling awesome... i think the fact that i can now wear a dress i have not been able to fit into for years helped that :) i ate good today and am proud of myself...
Beautiful-The grass getting greener
Learned-Purring releases endorphins that help cats to ease the pain and reassure themselves.
Laugh-My daughter put on her Facebook that she had the music up and that she was cleaning her butt off...so i asked her why she was cleaning her butt off? If she had an accident and why she needed music for that...yes, i tickle myself sometimes...and she and a few friends got a giggle out of it :)
Blessings-the rain that makes the flowers grow and the grass get greener...and makes me appreciate the sunny days :)
Bible Verse-But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. - Isaiah 40:31
Quote-Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
Decluttered My living room desk
Song-She's Country by Jason Aldean
A positive for today-I stayed on track nutritionally and can now fit into a dress i haven't been able to wear for years!!!
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Today has been a good relaxing day even though i have tons to do...it will get done tomorrow :) my eating has been off...can't get enough calories or carbs today... will work on doing better tomorrow...probably my body rebelling because i did awful yesterday.
My goals for today:
Beautiful-my dd2's baby belly (see below)
DYN: The length from your wrist to your elbow is the same as the length of your foot.
Laugh: at a lady in our church (she always brings a giggle to my lips)
Blessings-I seen flowers, outside...wow...first ones i seen so far this spring
Bible Verse-For he spake, and it was done; he commanded, and it stood fast.
Quote“Right is right, even if everyone is against it; and wrong is wrong, even if everyone is for it” -William Penn
Decluttered my church bag
Song-God's Been Good www.youtube.com/watch?v=UODpfuRvNNk
Thursday, March 31, 2011
ok..not wheather wise...lol. For those of you (the 2 i pay...lol) i started this month by saying March came in like a lion...though not weather wise...but work wise. one of my goals for the month was to get more me time...that meant ME time!! i made this proclamation on the week i was working doubles 5 days in a row and averaging about 3 hrs sleep a night...no, it wasn't lack of sleep that made me proclaim it...well...maybe some of it :) It will be a year in April that i had a surgery that by all means was going to change my life...i had a huge hernia that stuck out about 1/2 a foot...even tearing the outside of my stomach (sorry for that gross detail) so my self esteem was shot, i could not exercise really and i was always in pain...so this surgery was going to change that all around...for the good... well what really happened was a totally different story...what happened was, i had that surgery but also a bowel resection...i then developed breathing problems on top of my asthma...was was suppose to be 2 days in the hospital was 6 days. what was suppose to be 2 weeks off work was now turning into 8 weeks...i finally got my release to go back to work, though physically and mentally i wasn't ready...the weekend before i was to go back to work, my stomach started swelling....the fluid was building up from where my drain had been..and my breathing was suffering at an all time high...that monday they found blood clots in the whole vein of my left thigh and after a CT scan...found a very large one in my lungs...by all means, i should of been dead...again i was hospitalized for another 6 days. i was put on coumiden (blood thinnners)...and through this, they found my i had hypothyroidism (i believe from the 2 CT scans they had done to detect the blood clot in lungs). so now, i am not only on meds for asthma, but for clots and thyroid too... i did return to work finally after 10 long weeks...still weak, but mobile...it took me to January to even start thinking about getting back to me again...and until March to fully realize it... now i am dealing with what the doctor thinks may be scarring of my lung tissue due to the blood clots...this could of been a major set back for me...but i'm not letting it...not this time...no more road blocks...no more obstacles to get in my way...i'm tired of going around them...now it's time to bust through... and i feel i am doing just that...i am taking time for me...preparing better meals, planning what i eat each day, exercising more (though i will admit today i only rode the bike for 15 minutes and did not do my walking due to errands), and i am getting more me time...and more time with God...and for the first time in a very long time, i am looking forward to new things...i am looking forward to tomorrow... i'm now not only wanting to get back to me...but find the new me...ready to emerge... thinner and healthier than the girl before...the weather outside might look frightful, but this girl is not :)
My goals for today:
Beautiful-the snow on the trees (see above picture)
DYN: The success of the arcade game Space Invaders caused a shortage of 100-yen coins in Japan, which forced the government to increase their production subsequently.
Laugh: my mom acting like the UPS lady when she brought me my spice rack
Blessings-I got my new spice rack today (it's soooo pretty)
Bible Verse-Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth. With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.
Mark 9:23, 10:27
Quote-Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must do. -Johann Wolfgan von Goethe
Decluttered my To do file at work
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