Friday, June 26, 2009
I took today off work...a couple reasons...we are very slow, so may as well take the time off now...wanted to spend time with kids...and i wanted to get my house clean...i mean really clean... and...i just wanted some me time...and get back into center with me... i got up about 6:30ish...which sad to say, is sleeping in for me. I had started cleaning the living room yesterday, along with piles of dishes...oiy, what teenagers can do...lol. dd2 left for a trip to WV with her fiancee and future brother in law...along with his kids. but before leaving, we were able to have breakfast together. dd1 called to tell me not to forget her, and oh by the way, she is getting out of school early, so can i pick her up then...sure....no problem...except for the fact i got so wrapped up in my cleaning that i totally forgot i have never forgotten my babies before....never...and in fact...i had gotten all over then boyfriends case for doing that exact thing....how could i forget my baby i stopped at mcdonald's and got her a sweet tea (she just loves these things) to hopefully make up for it...with lots of "I'm sorry's" by then it is nearing dinner time, and i had forgotten that also... i could of grabbed something out of the freezer, but really just wanted to go in somewhere where it is air conditioned (we don't have ours put in yet), so i pick up ds and go to mcdonald's....i will admit...i did not chose wisely...but i was so wanting a fish sandwich and fries... we sat and ate and talked some....then headed home... after recording my food, i realize that, hey, it fit.... it's not like i do it every day...and i stayed within all my limits...wohoo!!!! so....my house is clean...my eating has been right on... now it's time for me time...i take my bubble bath...read a couple pages of book, but all i really wanted to do was play with the bubbles...so...i did...lol.... washed up, shaved legs and put on my favorite night gown...then decided to do my nails...and happy i did :) now i just sitting and chillin. some where in all that, i did fit in a few games of solitaire :) so all in all.... i would say i did exactly what i planned to do today...get back into center with myself...
though...i still feel awful about forgetting my dd1 :(
Thursday, June 25, 2009
When my 2 yr anniversary came up, i was working splits...and too exhausted to actually write a blog...by the time i was over that hump and rested, i had other things to write...but i feel what i have to write is important...for me later down the road and for those that just might be inspired by what i have to say. Hopefully, you are one of them.
When i first started on SP, i really didn't think i could lose the weight....i mean...i had before...and gained it all back... or...i would last 2 days on my DIEt and then binge... so when i started SP, i didn't put a lot of hopes into losing weight...but what i did do, was concentrate on one thing at a time...first it was drinking my water...then eating a healthy breakfast... one step led to another...and then a year and a half later...i knew i just had to start exercising... it's not that i hate it...i just did not have the time nor energy for it... so i started with 24 wall push ups every morning... i have since graduated to doing those 3 times a week only....but every day except sunday, i now ride my bike...it started as 5 minutes, and is now holding steady at 25 minutes.... we are starting to throw some walks in on top of that also... and 3 times a week, not only do i do my wall push ups, but i actually add at least 9 more different types of strength training exercise in...wohoo!!! i am feeling great...yea...i'm still tired... but really...not as tired as i was before exercising... i feel better about myself...my self esteem is going through the roof... and underneath this extra fat...i can actually feel some muscle under there....wohoo!!!! and you know what... i am actually thinking about dating again...ok...not right NOW...lol...but i can actually see it for me in the future... i have now officially lost 35 lbs...wow!!! i can actually see things getting too big on me...my underwear practically fall off now...lol.... and i can actually say...i'm lovin' it...i am excited to ride by exer-bike in the morning...i can't wait for strength training days...and i look forward to finding new things and ways to eat healthier.... and i am really loving the calorie counting...making it a game to see how much i can eat instead of what i can't...
so friends...here is to another year!!! let's get it done!!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
A couple weekends ago, i had made a couple dozen muffins-1 blueberry and 1 banana. Then i saved enough for the next days breakfast, and then threw the rest into freezer bags by serving sizes. Since we want a variety of things for our breakfast, this helps to spread it out without anything going bad. We also have bagels of different varieties (no, these are not homemade but was bought on sale for real cheap) and also english muffins. this week, we started doing the same with out dinners. We usually make enough for a small army.... and eat like we are the small army...lol...well, with everyone getting into the new lifestyle that i have set forth, we decided that we like the variety we get through breakfast, and we want to do the same with our dinners (or for future lunches) so we have started making things that can be frozen and later warmed up. I would like to share a few of our recipes to hopefully inspire...i would also love to hear some of your favorites to freeze for later use :)
Kitty's Cabbage Roll Casserole
Kitty's Sausage and Noodles
Tuna Salad Sandwich
Freeze the bread separately, and before serving tuna salad, mix up-good as new :)
Kitty's Hamburger Helper
Sunday, June 21, 2009
a couple years ago, i lost my father suddenly...but not suddenly...unexpectedly yet...not.... see...my father had a heart attack the day i turned 13. He was told then that he had very little time to live and to say his good bye's. Because of my mom's tenacity and God's wonderful love, they did a triple bypass that they swore would only kill him quicker... about 10-12 yrs later, he was again told that he only had days to live and to say his good bye's... and again with my mom's tenacity and God's wonderful love, he got to meet 4 more grandbabies (i had already had the first 2 and was pregnant with my 3rd and my brother was expecting his first of 3). at that point, he had a quadruple bypass. So when he had his massive heart attack on March 10th, 2005-it was something we knew was coming....yet.... one never really expects their last good bye's to actually be their last.
As daddy's little girl, i really could do no wrong...and if i did...refer back to the other half of this...lol... yea...we had our rough times...on my 13th birthday, we had gotten into a huge argument.... i was a teenager after all...and yea, i thought i knew it all...he had been sober for 6 months, yet i still judged him as if he was still drinking.... needless to say, i just knew it was my fault he had a heart attack....it wasn't...he was actually having one before we got into our argument which was why his temper was extra short with his baby girl that day... but it years of convincing... uhg... and i wish i could say i was a perfect daughter after that....i mean, knowing your father could pass away at any time...right?? but we never really think it will happen, even when we know...the day he passed away, him and mom had a special morning and talk of the future and all lovey dovey.... which really wasn't all that unusual, but just seemed more special that morning....dad and i got some time to talk and enjoyed a cup of coffee together....he even got to eat lunch with my brother that day... in all respects, it was a very special day...and none of expected when each of us, at different times, said good bye. Never thinking it would be our last.... we were very fortunate.... we had 25 more years with him than any doctor said we would have.... that day was very special because we did get extra time with him....as if he knew.... to settle anything from the past, to say our i'm sorry's and to say i love you.
This morning, i got up earlier than the normal sunday wake up call, so i could spend some time alone with my thoughts...and if you will, have coffee with my father... yea... the tears flowed...as they are now... and yea, i know he would chastise me for it (he never liked to see his baby girl upset, he thought he should be able to fix it all...lol) i thanked God and dad not only having a wonderful dad, but the extra time we got with him.... the special time we had even on the day of his passing....to say i loved him and missed him but yes, i knew he was still near.... and in each child, there is a special part of him. and though i do miss him, i am also at peace today....i know he is in a better place....no pain, and lots of rest...and that...for all he had done for his family....he deserves.
Dad...i do miss you.
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