Thursday, June 11, 2009
Neeta & MissBear...i apologize now for my disobedience...believe me...it's not by choice....
For all those that are wondering what the heck...lol... This week has been one heck of a week for sleep...Sunday night the apartment was too hot for sleep...by the time it cooled down enough, and my body was tired enough...it was already 10:30pm...and i get up at 3:30am...so Monday night...i'm ready...i get to bed on time...except the landlord decides at 8pm, that it's a good time to mow the lawn...and weed wack...which he never does?! by the time he is done and i'm ready to doze off again...girls (dd2 and dn) see a spider...and scream... for a good 15 minutes...needless to say...it was 11:30pm before i got to sleep...tuesday night... take girls to lake for a picnic dinner and a walk...that, after going grocery shopping after work..then some other errands and didn't get home until well after bedtime...and by now, my body is all messed up and can't sleep...but at least a little more than the other couple nights....thankfully...cause here comes wednesday... where i learn i will be doing a split shift...and didn't even get off work until 10:30pm...luckily i was so tired at this point, i was asleep at 11:30...today...tired...and cranky... and we get the call... the night girl won't be in...at this point, i am about in tears...i can't do it... and say so... we do come to an agreement...i come in for just a couple hours and do the main part, and the supervisor finishes up...i don't see this working as well as boss says it will... but i have no choice... i did however, take a nap...so i am feeling a little friskier than i did this morning... and...tomorrow is friday...come saturday...nobody wake me up...i will be in vegetative mode for the day...lol.
You know...when i was younger...i could go weeks with little sleep...and still be my peppy self...uh...i'm not that young any more...and i just can't do it...that was more than apparent this morning when the only exercise i got was me staring at my exer-bike and thinking "oh heck no" lol.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Yesterday was a rough day...i'll admit it...i weigh myself...still nothing...i measured myself...nothing...i'm on a quarter of tank of gas and no fresh fruits or veggies in the house... but no big deal...i get paid and get my child support tonight...but then i get home... and no child support...what??? uhg... i don't even have enough money for rent...and now not for gas or food... i go into a panic....get depressed...or should say, more depressed.... and just down right cranky...living this close to the edge is always a stress, but for the most part, i deal with it...the kids are awesome in working with the money restraints of living with a single mom on a limited income.... so after snapping their heads off more than once....i sat them down and explained the situation.... they, as always, are understanding and forgiving.... brings tears to my eyes how wonderful they really are.... during lunch, ate fast food.... it was cheap....it was not healthy... and then the kids had a sweet tooth...i could of baked something...but honestly...who do you think would of ate most of it?? if you guessed me, you would be correct...so we dug up change and went and got a donut....only 1 for each of us.... needless to say though...i did go over my calorie count for the day...yea...the one that just moved up...lol... but you know...it could of been worse... i could of ate a full cake-had i baked it... but luckily, i knew my resistance was low....i knew i could really go overboard....i didn't.... so...as the song says below... i sang a sad song just to turn it around... read the lyrics and then click on play song.... i'm telling ya... music can be a medicine...and this one really helped me to turn it around :)
Friday, June 05, 2009
I get a daily devotion for dieters every day...and this was todays... i think this is something we could all use....
1 Peter 1:13
Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
Fighters have to prepare for their bouts in every way possible. They train for a long time, working toward physical perfection. They eat properly, they rest regularly, they follow the instruction of their trainers closely, and they psych themselves up. Psyching entails a preparation of the mind that equals the preparation of the body. Dieters need that kind of mental preparation. As the Scrip-ture says, we must 'gird up the loins' of our minds. We are fighters against fatness, and the only way we can hope to be victorious is to prepare ourselves completely, day by day, in body, spirit, and mind.
Today's thought: I'm ready for a good fight against fat!
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