Thursday, August 20, 2009
So far I've been doing ok reducing the number of cigarettes smoked along with watching my weight and calories. Today is an affirmation day...I've manuevered pretty well so far with my cig count, but I know the time is drawing near when I need to just say NO! Thus far that hasn't been hard, but it's only been the last year that my smoking increased from 20 to 30 cigarettes, and decluttering my environment and my mind has allowed me to scrunch up my nose and gently say I don't want that...Not that I haven't been rehearsing other responses to change my responses to stimuli. Example, a week ago a slow leak developed around my toilet. I'm creative, so I did a temporary fix, but it needed to be fixed. I had someone look at it, and they did an even better temporary fix, but it was still leaking. Yesterday, they came to finish the task, with all the tools they needed. 1 hr passed, 2 hrs passed and they were still working on it. The next thing I knew my bathroom was flooded (the water was originally turned off, but the repairman thought it was good to go so the water was turned back on). Needless to say, the first thought was "I need a smoke." Fast forwarding to the end, the problem has been fixed, and I said no, but I had to pace a bit and repeat my positive internal voice going...I stayed on point and met the daily goal but it showed me that I need to practice more...I need to say no more often, I'm back to my normal level, but the true mission to is change that normal level and eliminate the activity altogether...after the fact I can say that yesterday was a good practice run...if I can continue to say no to the actions I do not want in my life, I will be successful!
Today's affirmation: I can and I will!