Today I did something that I've avoided doing for the whole summer, I changed my weight on my tracker to indicate the 10 lbs I've gained. Now I feel totally transparent as well as honest. I'm back to "0". Now maybe I can work harder on sticking to a healthy eating plan and getting my 11 lbs back off again so that ticker moves once again. Kind of feels good to not be hiding. I like it.
I'm having a great summer in some ways, we have escaped the heat of Lake Havasu, met some wonderful folks in the campground we camphosted at, visited friends and relatives but I sure haven't done well with my food intake. I've eaten lots of healthy food but just too much of it I guess. I need a big fat kick in the butt. I'm rather disgusted with myself because I was doing so well until July. I need to get back on track and just can't seem to do it.
We are on our summer "escape from the heat' trip, currently in Utah heading to Washington. Yesterday was such a sad day for me. My dearly beloved cat that I have had for 18 years since she was 6 wks old got out of our truck and we didn't realize she wasn't sleeping in her bed when we took off (our stupid fault for not checking twice) By the time we noticed she wasn't with us and we returned to where we had camped for the night she was nowhere to be found. I just pray that someone took her in and will love her like I did. I really need to get back to the discipline I had before we left. It's very different planning meals and eating when you are traveling and takes much more planning and preparation. I have gained 1 1/2 lbs which isn't too bad but I haven't lost anything in a couple of weeks. I'm thankful I didn't go on a binge of eating a lot of comfort food yesterday. I'm writing this to say to the Spark People world that I am going to do better and start measuring and logging in all my food again. I have never missed a day of signing in and spinning the wheel and I feel like this has been a big security line for me that has kept me connected even when I wasn't eating my best. So to me and anyone else who is not doing their best....we will persevere and overcome. I know there are many caring folks out there who care and even if I don't know you personally it encourages me to know we are all a huge body of folks with the same goals helping each other be successful,. Blessings to all who read this today.
I had my blepharoplasty (upper eyelid surgery) done yesterday and for anyone considering it it's really easy surgery and no post op pain at all. I do have swelling and bruising but he did a little extra work so it's to be expected. No exercise for 2 weeks I'll have to be really careful with food intake.
Today we begin our summer escape from the heat of Lake Havasu in the desert and will spend the next 4 months in our RV. Right now we are in Mesa and I will have my very baggy eyelids operated on this Friday. I had Graves disease a couple of years ago and my eyes swelled up something awful. My thyroid levels are now normal but my eyelids are very baggy so I'm getting then fixed. It's a little, or maybe a lot scary because the list of possible side effects is long but I have a great plastic surgeon so I have to just trust him. Then we will ultimately end up in Washington on the western edge of the Northern Cascade mountain range and we will be camphosts at an RV park for about 6 weeks. We did it 2 years ago and we loved it there. Great scenery, great organic produce available as well as fresh eggs. This trip requires a HUGE shift in my cooking. It's all too easy to eat things that are just easy to throw together but those things aren't usually healthy so I need to plan and not be lazy. The pool is right across the from our RV so I want to get over there today. There is also a fitness center I need to find. We have our bikes with us but it's too hot to ride now, at least for me. Maybe in the evening. In order for eating right to work for me I need to plan ahead, really the sane as at home only my kitchen is smaller and so is my refrigerator and freezer. I am so thankful for SP because I can log in everyday (even from my cell phone if I need to) and stay plugged into my support system. It's a little scary because I don't want to gain any weight back that I've lost but I trust that the Lord will guide me and lead me and I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL. I don't think I've ever started a weight loss program with such determination to succeed. I intend to be a winner, a slim and trim one.