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Home Again Home Again - (onward and downward)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Hello!!! I'm Home!!!!
I did well(ish) on my trip Sparkwise and foodwise -- the first week more assiduous than the second. It was definitely much harder staying focused and journaling while being a house guest, sharing meals and someone else's kitchen.

I MISSED YOU ALL quite a lot; I missed hearing how you are and sharing the waves and little daily celebrations of sharing a vision and a path. I look forward to tuning in and being in touch, moving forward... And, thanks to MEZZOANGEL for my new credo "Onward and Downward!!"

The Trip:
Joe and I were on a voyage of discovery -- venturing to Northern CA to get a feel for towns and whether or not that is a place for us to move to in the future. The little cottage we stayed in was perfect -- helped to create the illusion of living in the area instead of Motel-ing it. The orchards and vineyards, the country roads, the sun... driving driving and enjoying each other.

We did one wine tasting a day, usually at the end of the day -- splitting a flight. We saw some fabulous properties and sipped some fabulous wines. Our last day we splurged and did a full lunch on the terrace overlooking Coppolla's new property in Geyserville. We had a ball! Coppolla's 'democratization' of 'the good(rich) life' is actually pretty impressive. The price points are lower and it welcomes more people into the experience without going Disney.
Still, some of our favorite spots were more nestled and tucked away.

Then on to Big Sur (via SF 101, 68, 1) to stay with Joe's Family there. Party at Hawthorne Gallery. Jade Festival. A week in the hills with people we love. And more driving -- checking out PG, Monterey, Carmel Valley. Of course with stops at Nepenthe and HMillerLibrary.

And Home Again!
The scale proved I put on 2# while away. I know they'll come off (I moved the stones back from the goblet to the jar all the same).

My health problems became profound while away. I've continued to have inflammation and very uncomfortable g.i. symptoms all through the trip. By trip end I'd broken out in hives and had to get urgent care and Rx's. I saw my Doctor yesterday here at home and will be scheduled to see a specialist hopefully next week.

I need ME to be Sparky. To be "Sparktastic" as my new friend MAIA says.
And so it is!!

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Brazillian Dance Class starts 10/27!!

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BIGMAMAT 10/18/2010 12:05AM

    sounds like you had a wonderful time until the end... Love the pics! You look very happy and adorable!
Have they discussed the possiblity of a food alergy? The hives have me stumped. Have you ever broke out like that before?
Have a great week honey. Tricia emoticon

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MAIA2011 10/17/2010 11:12AM

    Only two pounds!?! I didn't know I had befriended a ROCKSTAR! (Literally, I love the rocks in the jars!)

I love your pics and I hope you guys come out here. This is really a great place here in northern California! (Southern not so much LOL)

Also, so sorry to hear about your stomach problems. I hope they resolve soon!


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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 10/17/2010 11:05AM

    What a great trip and I'm impressed that you pretty much maintained your weight during the travels - 2# is hardly enough to 'count' since my weight can fluctuate that much day-to-day without much effort or changes.

DH and I plan to take a similar trip to yours one of these days - we had thought maybe last summer but family situations changed those plans so now we're thinking maybe this fall, maybe January, maybe late next Spring depending on other trips we decide to take. It's nice having a retired husband because we have so much flexibility now, we can enjoy more destinations on the spur of the moment!

Welcome home!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 10/17/2010 10:56AM

    Bravo!!! I loved this blog :)

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Tomorrow is Another Day.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Night time. I had a good low calorie day today. Got to the gym, but only spa'd in the schvitz.

Why not? Why didn't I get there to get my aerobic movement and the burn?
The day got away from me. I warped out in desk work all day and tizzied myself around erranding for our trip. Instead. Hmmm. Not a good enough reason, I say.

Today Joe reminded me--- as I asked him to--- when I seem to be not in Flow with my get-to-the-gym intentions --- Today he reminded me of MY 4x to the gym minimum. It smacked. I didn't want to hear it. Boy oh boy... I must have been in a not-good space? On other days, when I've been closer to my best intentions, I have embraced the nudge. But when I have a head of steam of procrastination or denial, such a nudge felt like a big push/shove. And it wasn't.
Nope. The weird energy today was mine.

So. Tomorrow is Another Day. And while I'm no Scarlet, I surely can quote her. ;-)

Friday / Saturday are my last days at home. We leave Sunday for our 10 day trip West.
I expect to get a good amount of walking around. Parks. Beach. Discovering new spaces, towns, etc. I DO think that getting my endorphins up tomorrow and Saturday will FEEL GOOD.

Yeah... FEEL GOOD.
It does.
You all, We all KNOW that.

So... Today was still a good day. It contained a missed opportunity. And I'm blogging here (for better or worse) (may be tedious to you, and if so ... ahh well). I'm blogging to TAKE NOTE; to REMIND MYSELF:

This is what resistance looks and sounds like, hindsight.
And it's not as joyful as surrender and flow.

Embracing the positive.
Getting ready for bed.

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MAIA2011 10/16/2010 12:22PM

    I'm too scared to let my husband be my accountability so I am impressed with you. Also, I can't join a gym with a spa because I would just sit in the spa until I became a big prune. (It has come to my attention this year that I am a tad (?) self-indulgent.)

It is time for some Spartan discipline.

Take care!

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DREAMS2LIFE 9/30/2010 10:21PM

    We all have bad days. It is good that you have an accountability partner. Shrug it off and make new choices from this moment on. You can do it! emoticon

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Autumn Goals & Plans 2010

Monday, September 27, 2010

OKAY -- One and All, especially me:
These are my GOALS for Autumn 2010 !!! (There are three months til 2011)

• I will Drink 8+ oz water -- Go for consistency! B2b! emoticon
• I will Track in Spark Nutrition Journal Daily
• I will choose whole foods rich in nutrition and pleasure
• I will stay within calorie range AND take Coach Nicole’s suggestion to VARY it a bit – lower end of range on non-exercise days and some higher exercise days going to upper limit of range. (Variation is the key to keeping the body out of sticking-points and set-points)
• I will lose 10-15 lbs by New Year (ONEderland !!) emoticon
• I will Track Fitness Daily/Weekly – move my body a minimum of 30 minutes a day, and more than that depending on which activity I’m doing (see options)
• I will plan weekly fitness more -- the better to integrate new options, classes,times
• BRAZILLIAN DANCE on Wednesday evenings 5:30-7pm Wow!! emoticon emoticon With Joe!! ;-)
• I will keep in touch with my Spark Friends – for that is one of the most enjoyable and important parts of my program!
• Blog more on Spark!! (Maybe 1x a week? We’ll see. But more consistently is the goal ;-)
• I will say Yes more often when Joe wants to walk around the block, especially after dinner.
• I will also stay aware of my posture and adjust throughout the day.
• I will stay within our household budget (and I will not go overboard buying gifts at Xmas).

And I will vary my fitness activities

Sun 8:30 Step (M)
10:00 Body Barre (Y)
Elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

Mon 12pm “Abs Glutes Thighs”
Elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

Tues 12pm Body Barre
Elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

Wed 5:30-7 Brazillian Dance at OTSFM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

Thurs 9:30 Cardio Sculpt (M)
10:00 Body Bliss (Y)
4:30 Step/Strength (M)
Elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

Fri 9am Aqua Zumba
Elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

Sat Outdoors, elliptical, treadmill, ST, other

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AND here are my successes since joining Spark!

Spring 2010 Successes emoticon
• Quit Drinking Sodas
• Generally cut sorbitols and artificial sweetners

July 20-Sept 26 Successes emoticon
• Tracked Nurtition and ALL Foods Eaten Daily
• Stayed within my calorie range every day
• Consistently made and enjoyed whole foods choices, abundant local produce
• Added exercise back to my weekly experience and raised endurance so that new goals can be more vivacious
• Drank a lot of water every day (although not making the 8 consistently enough to “streak”)
• Met, befriended and maintained wonderful connections with Spark Friends.
• Created Spark Page, posted photos, and even Blogged a bit
• Dropped 10 lbs (222-212) (
• At peace with the fact of no loss Sept - perhaps due to illness or set-points?
• Asked for and received support from friends and family.
• Celebrated and shared my journey.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

VIVIBARAJAS 10/8/2010 11:27AM

    Aqua Zumba? Hmm that sounds something I should look into!
You will make your goal of being in onederland by 2011. WOrk it!! emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 9/28/2010 7:17PM

    Lovin the blog my dear friend! I am so excited for you and I can't wait till you start this brazilian dance thing so you can tell me all about it!.
I like it that you have cut down, given up those artifical sweetners. (me too and i can think so much clearer!)

Water, water, water! emoticon

I am very proud of you and all your accomplishments so far!
We can do this thing! Woohoo! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ELISELOVE1 9/27/2010 12:18PM

    emoticongreat blog.

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KRITKRIT 9/27/2010 11:08AM

    Great goals!

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BBDAZY18 9/27/2010 10:16AM

    Keep up the great job!

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PARKERB2 9/27/2010 10:15AM

    emoticonyou are doing great.

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Yes, indeed. Sparkie's have goals, make plans and take action.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Saturday. What a beautiful dawn it was. I can hardly believe that it's been a whole month of physical ailment (g.i. trouble complained about justifiably in previous memos), which I am eager to not have cause to talk about again. Fingers crossed. And new special pro-biotics in the cabinet. For the last week I found myself not feeling "well enough" to get in my planned exercise. Wholistically, I think that may have been the right choice. However, as many of you will understand, I'm not entirely sure about that. Hence, I'm committed to speak out to/with myself and you -- (the better to see the yellowbrick road with, my dear).

8/20 - 9/24 -- a) no weight loss b) steady sparking and some continued Streaks
a) Okay, I accept that. b) Hooray for me, thanks to all of you.

So, I was finishing The Spark this morning -- reading again about motivators and action steps, the importance of planning. AND I was reading my dear SF BIGMAMAT's tender and funny and wonderful blogs about her new goals, and have decided to start anew with Goals and Exercise Plans for myself as well.

Here is my promise to Self:
I will make a list before Monday... Of Successes to Date, Goals for Autumn 2010, Actions to integrate/take, and Rewards contemplated/planned.

My most vividly experienced Positive Motivation is most definitely reading and seeing and exchanging notes with all of you. THANK YOU.

I've got a vacation coming up Oct 3-16, so I especially want to use this week to be sure I'm current with myself here and inside and with you.

Let's Have A Joyfilled Day.

Today I will go for a walk in the autumn sunshine;
Maybe see a movie with Joe;
Maybe find new walking shoes to break in this week for trip.

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BABY_GIRL69 9/25/2010 4:37PM

    Wonderful plan! God bless & continued success! Dee

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BIGMAMAT 9/25/2010 4:10PM

    Awwww. I am speechless. Thanks so much for mentioning me in your blog. Together we can do this thing! I am coming to realize that evaluating and reminding yourself of where you have been is as important as where we are going!

I am looking forward to seeing your blog on Monday to see your specific goals. emoticon Tricia

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Oh my -- Shoot me???

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Well.... I'm breathing deep. Wiping away some - i'll admit it -- slow tears.
I'd postponed a weigh in for ten days... not because i hadn't been staying with my program.... but because the slow changes in my digestive problems had me feeling quite sure that the scale would illustrate how confused my colon is ... and i didn't want to be discouraged.

I know for SURE that I've been sticking to my calorie range. (The one that should work with or without exercise for my BMR/RMR and stats). And I have made it to the gym 3x a week for 45 minutes, averaging a 400c burn each time.

So........... Is my metabolism totally broken??? (by a lifetime of yoyo diets) ??
............Is the g.i. problem I've had since late August totally screwing with my weight loss?

What Gives????

I have totally embraced my Spark Program.
On so many levels, the simplicity and connection and boundaries are serving me so well!!


WHY WHY WHY is the Scale Stuck at 212???????
(it was 211 after a long awaited poop last week)


Oh my! When will this GI problem be totally clear from my body!!

I want a level playing field!!!!!!!
I want to know what adjustments I can make to get that scale moving.
(I've been stuck here for a month - and have not wavered).

I feel ridiculous. And compassionate to my self too.

After all, I DO have goals. I DO want RESULTS.

I want to be and feel healthy.
This "tiny little fat person" -- as I sometimes laughingly call myself to Joe-- wants to see the clothing sizes go down. And, god forbid, wants to be free and clear of all this bloating and distention for our trip in October.

What can anyone say to me? What can I tell myself?
Hang in there.
You're STILL doing great.
Maybe talk to doctor or a metabolism person. (Raise or lower calories????)
Maybe you'll take a 4lb poop?
Up the exercise?

Keep on. Keeping on.. Keep your sights on where you want to be. You'll get there.
IF all my wonderful lovely emoticons can move the scale...

I will too.
(will decide which intervention needs to be done, with some advice / feedback)

Love to anyone who had the patience to read this.
Love to all my spark friends whose kindness, brightness, stories, trials and successes make me feel in such good company.
Love to me, too.

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BIGMAMAT 9/21/2010 9:07PM

    Ok hon. don't give up. i know you exercise, and are eating your calories. do you drink at least 8 glasses of water a day? Do you get a propt on the fitness weekly totals that you are eating too few calories? let me know. I talked to one the dietitions from sp about my calories. Trust me, there is a solution. we just have to find it. emoticon

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VIVIBARAJAS 9/21/2010 10:48AM

    I am sorry. I feel your pain. I was stuck on a number for 3 weeks and I thought I was doing everything right. I got the number and kicked it in the butt. I doubled my exercise. I burn 1000 calories instead of the usual 500 and the number on the scale melted away. I know this is not your solution but there is one out there for you. There has to be.

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