Tuesday, April 17, 2012
well ... maybe not THE thing, but... the current thing, something that occurs to me, and to mention... i guess:
knowing when to push. WHEN to PUSH and When NOT to Push. This is a universal conundrum, an ongoing life lesson, a balance beam.
My trainer talks about this dynamic in his own life and fitness practice, and he is an expert, an athlete. See...? You, I mean I, don't have this gray fuzzy thinking because I am remedial...it's cuz i'm human. AND... Yes... Being fat for the majority of my life, and having rote excuses and built-in back-offs and I-can'ts is baggage and habits to let go of....
You know what?
I think I've let go of the lion's share of the old fat-girl habits.
I think I may be in a new place, a place to celebrate, and yet a place to move on from.
See? that's the point.
Places to stay. No place to stay.
My body is adjusting to this 170#s. My skin and tissues and cells are reformatting themselves on to this frame. It's a good thing. Weird muscle spasms, and wrong recruitments, tendonitis or WHATEVER.... I'm working through these things.
I'm not focused on losing weight right now. I'm eating the way I ate with Spark the past two years... which means under 2000 calories a day, sometimes 1300 sometimes closer to 2000. But those high calorie days are when I indulge in liquor or sweets or ... cheese. Ha. Which... Im DELIGHTED to say... I don't crave or desire all that much.
Craving a sweet or a drink is NOT a bad thing.
That I can do so without opening a can of worms.... is AMAZING and WONDERFUL.
And... sometimes... yes... sometimes... I anticipate that it will be a problem... and create a problem.
I'm thinking suddenly of that Great Blog from MAMADWARF... the one when she brags about eating A cookie. Yep! yep yep yep.
So- Hey there ME
Keep on doing what you do.
Celebrate the body you're in NOW.
Move it. Dance it. Feed it. Water it. Swim it. Moisturize it. Take her for a spin. And then some.
When you are ready to PUSH for a lower weight and a smaller size... you will know! And then you will make different adjustments.
The body is different from day to day. Listen and respect her limits. Push them sometimes... but wisely.