Sunday, February 12, 2012
A long time gone. A long time coming. Must keep it new.
I woke up last night and found my way to the goblet which has been sedentary and had lost its luster, lost its meaning to me, over the past months. I even had to re-count the pebbles, the rocks, the stones (you may remember, some of you, the beach walk in 2010 that originated this visualization that has SO HELPED my inspiration and my accountability these past 2 years).
Well... the count was way off. And now it's fixed.
New stones. New count. New vision.
I love that these little elephants sit adjacent, trumpeting and making me smile each day when I dress.
I'm not done. And I've been exaggerating the total weight lost.
And, these past ten days, since I got the back-to-normal invite from the doc, my food has been loose and looser. Yesterday I ate past satiety at every meal. Red light. Warning Will Robinson.
So here we are. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY to
REFRESH the IMAGES
Refresh the settings. Gather no moss.
The stones in the goblet represent current weight of 175... even though I last weighed in at 168. Hilarious or not, I wanted room to have gained.
Next time I weigh myself
** BACK TO WEEKLY WEDNESDAY WEIGH INS only * *
I will move stones to make it right.
New goal weight 135-145 (ten lb range, and see when we get there).
** BACK IN TOUCH WITH Nutritionist with terrific ED skills **
My lifelong ED is tremendously interwoven and related to my history of couching my power in invisible places. Aversions and avoidances. Part feminist issue, part ED issue, part Just-Me issues. I wrote about the smaller body causing a sense of "fragility". Oehme suggested that the smaller frame is actually MORE powerful. I didn't expect this comment, and I'm sitting with that. Letting that come in to focus.
2012 Goals --
Movement 1hr/day or more (add walks and yoga and non-burn activities, too)
Calorie target 1540 for wt loss therefore 1250-1700/day guidelines
Weigh in on Wednesdays only
Make LIFE my focus -- even the ways that that is challenging (*more on this soon)
Moyers is on TV again.
The relentless US election circus parade blares (must find a way to relate to it)
My shopping ocd is still real - even so the IT upgrades and house search is on the agenda
Sewing (not stupid)
One Day At A Time
YES. Onward & Downward!