Thursday, September 08, 2011
i had a full fledged lapse yesterday.
wow. i forgot.
i really did - it's been a long time since i did that, since i "fed the beast"
you know- THE BEAST - that bottomless well, falling falling
every bite that goes in to feed the beast magnified and microphoning the beast's call/pull
i was running away from my feelings yesterday
i had no where to go with them, and felt unwilling or unable to meet challenge
hindsight: of course, i COULD have: napped, called someone, escaped some other way...
Escapism may always be a need
But, FOR ME, feeding the food beast is no longer familiar and I'd like it to stay that way.
Feed the Spark!
Today's a new day.
And the take-home is the refresher on what the past looked and felt like.
I think I'd like to play my old Marian Woodman tape some time = "Holding the Tension of the Opposites". Marian's universalizing of the pull (I want cookie vs I am hungry for sweetness, ---- the literal replacement for the listening to a more spiritual hunger).
Listening to the Spirit
Enlivening the Spirit
is so important to my life and happiness.
I love and appreciate all of you my spark friends for creating together and making a place to connect, to be real, to hear the inner call of my spark, my SELF and us together.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
just a little ditty about touch stones talismans and, well, habits:
All this past year i've had a blue water bottle that started my morning.
i liked this blue water bottle especially for it's diameter, for its particular height and hand-ability - the way it fits. i also really really, in an understated and not even that often noticed way, really really loved that the only markings on the bottle was the word QUENCH surrounded by a sunny sort of circle. Subtle. Right On. My a.m. get the water-drinking started coach.
Well, last week my Quench bottle disappeared. Mornings with regular old smart-water plastic refillables was awkward. Crazy, I know. I felt a kind of sadness. "Oh no!!!", I thought to myself. "Quench has been my good luck talisman! Will a spell of good luck be broken now?".
I looked for a replacement.
I didn't find one.
I perservered... I made the plain plastic work. It was okay. It wasn't any magic luck charm after all.
Then... two days ago, for $5 at Target, I bought a blue metal canteen of sorts.
Blue like Quench. Similar taper and 'hand' as Quench. But... alas... not a look-alike.
No understudy, shall we say. I feared. Why? Well, cuz I guess that's what I do. My first reaction to change.
Then yesterday at my workout, I saw it.
This new water canteen ALSO has a WORD on it!
(A sign!!!) [yes, i really thought that; and yes, i laugh]
What does the new water bottle say? in nicely subtle lettering?
e m b a r k
So that's my story.
Year One = "quench"
Year Two = "embark"
I'll take it.
I think the poetry says it all.
Better than a fortune cookie.
I'm reading into it. All I can. And drinking it down. Oh yeah.
Embarking into something NEW.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
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