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embark

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

just a little ditty about touch stones talismans and, well, habits:
so...

All this past year i've had a blue water bottle that started my morning.
i liked this blue water bottle especially for it's diameter, for its particular height and hand-ability - the way it fits. i also really really, in an understated and not even that often noticed way, really really loved that the only markings on the bottle was the word QUENCH surrounded by a sunny sort of circle. Subtle. Right On. My a.m. get the water-drinking started coach.

Well, last week my Quench bottle disappeared. Mornings with regular old smart-water plastic refillables was awkward. Crazy, I know. I felt a kind of sadness. "Oh no!!!", I thought to myself. "Quench has been my good luck talisman! Will a spell of good luck be broken now?".

I looked for a replacement.
I didn't find one.
I perservered... I made the plain plastic work. It was okay. It wasn't any magic luck charm after all.

Then... two days ago, for $5 at Target, I bought a blue metal canteen of sorts.
Blue like Quench. Similar taper and 'hand' as Quench. But... alas... not a look-alike.
No understudy, shall we say. I feared. Why? Well, cuz I guess that's what I do. My first reaction to change.

but...

Then yesterday at my workout, I saw it.
This new water canteen ALSO has a WORD on it!
(A sign!!!) [yes, i really thought that; and yes, i laugh]

What does the new water bottle say? in nicely subtle lettering?

e m b a r k

So that's my story.
Year One = "quench"
Year Two = "embark"

I'll take it.
I think the poetry says it all.
Better than a fortune cookie.

I'm reading into it. All I can. And drinking it down. Oh yeah.

Sparking On.
Embarking into something NEW.

  
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KT-NICHOLS-13 9/1/2011 7:44PM

    Love, love, love this!

So that's my story.
Year One = "quench"
Year Two = "embark"

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SONGBARDBIRD 9/1/2011 4:32PM

    Such a good post!! Seriously, it's so fitting...I love looking for meaning in seemingly meaningless objects :)

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BIGMAMAT 9/1/2011 6:44AM

    You rock! This is my favorite blog ever. emoticon

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JENDOOD 9/1/2011 5:57AM

    Non-Spark people just don't seem to understand the importance of the perfect water container... I'm glad, seems that all is working out! ;)

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ROOBEARZ 8/31/2011 11:57PM

    Embark!! Such an appropriate sign! Great blog, Tks!

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KCATHY 8/31/2011 5:56PM

    I'm ridiculously attached to my water bottle, and I'm sorry for your loss! It's wonderful that you've made room in your heart for a new hydration companion, though--enjoy!

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SHRINKINGLULU 8/31/2011 12:31PM

    Nice!! I love it!!

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PHEFEY 8/31/2011 10:52AM

    I love signs...and that one is a really good one in my opinion too!

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SLFRISBEY 8/31/2011 9:08AM

    Embark, good word for the day! Good word for the year really. It's not just about today after all, it's a life long journey and a starting point to living the life you want to live. Very nice!

I didn't make it to zumba last night, I got a horrific headache thanks to the pressure system that came through last night so I opted to sleep it off instead. Next week.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 8/31/2011 8:11AM

    I love it, and I also pay attention to those things. For instance, the amethyst I was *just* given? I already can't find it, but I have the hemetite and rose quartz safe and sound. I resonate so much with words, including your words, thanks for brightening my morning.

By the way, I'm in Chicago from Oct 4-7. We should do dinner or drinks one night if you are willing to come down to the loop. I won't have transportation or I'd come to you. I'm staying at the Millenium. If it doesn't work, then another time as I'm close enough to come back to Chicago!

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Can I See Progress? (photos) -- & a turning point?

Wednesday, August 17, 2011



This is what I've been saying. I've been doing what I've gotten used to to doing SP wise this past March-August... and there's been not a lot of measurable progress.

I celebrate my path. yes.
I honor my effort. yes.
And I wonder if it may be time to alter the program?

I'm going to use this blog as a place to look at before/after progress shots.

BEFOREish August 2010


December 2010


March 2011



AUGUST 2011 - YESTERDAY




I'm a whole LOT STRONGER.. That is FOR SURE.
The scale is stuck in the mid 180's -- though I was 199 in Jan2011, so that's -15 jan-aug.
My calorie range is stable 1200-1800 most days, through it all.
My cardio could be (should be?) more intense and more often?????????????????????????????
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Or... I'm fine as I am doing - averaging about 2# a month over time. ??????
I don't know.
I'm not sure.
I sense that I CAN, am able, might possible want to reach for more speed.
And also -- to be considered - there are other areas of my life that could really use my attention and intention, too.

Just ranting a bit.

I hope when I look at this that I see progress. And that I can look at this lady here and feel love for her.

  
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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 8/30/2011 8:30PM

    I can see progress. I am going to make an effort to return the love being given to me so unconditionally by you and other Sparkers. I've been so far gone, it's been hard to return. You should be SO proud of your progress.

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ROOBEARZ 8/27/2011 6:46PM

    It is most definitely noticeable that you've reduced your tummy, legs, arms etc!!! You're looking fantastic! And, amazingly, and quite unlike me - you've become more curvaceous! I think my bust was the first area where I lost!!! Tummy? Butt? Thighs? No my bust was the first to go!!! Keep up the good work!!!


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SWEETNEENI 8/23/2011 10:56AM

    DANG WOMAN! You are CURVALICIOUS DEF. emoticon You are doin' it! It's AAALLLL you! WTG!

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BIGMAMAT 8/18/2011 7:23AM

    Oh my goodness honey!!! Unbelievable transformation!!!! Wooooohooooo!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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DAWNFIRE72 8/17/2011 11:45PM

    I'd say over the course of a year you have done well. You are smaller even if the scale isn't moving very fast. Have you read The Slowest Loser's posts?? He is an interesting read and has some great perspective on losing weight slo-o-o-o-wly and steadily.

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SONGBARDBIRD 8/17/2011 3:42PM

    Um heck yes I see progress! This is awesome!! Upping cardio would definitely speed things along but you are still getting there no matter what! Keep it up!

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SLFRISBEY 8/17/2011 11:12AM

    You are doing awesome! The scale isn't the be all end all in the journey, but it does help give positive reinforcement :) I feel the same way about not understanding why my body does what it does, or doesn't do. Just stick with the program and you will succeede! Considering Zumba tomorow night? I am!

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FITMARY 8/17/2011 9:50AM

    Oh, my gosh! I can see a lot of progress! You are definitely getting there!!! You may want to bump it up, but you are already trimmer and more toned!

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DEBMARBAKER 8/17/2011 8:32AM

    You look great! Keep up the good work, and I agree with Donkey... track your other measurements besides that scale number... it always helps to have more than one way to see your progress!

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DONKEYGIRL35 8/17/2011 8:16AM

    Do you track your other measurements, like arms, thighs, etc? From your pictures it looks like your arms and waist have shrunk considerable-
Keep it up!

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rewind forward

Saturday, August 13, 2011

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SONGBARDBIRD 8/13/2011 6:35PM

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48 hours - wherever you go there you are

Friday, August 12, 2011

Reflections of these past two days:

1) Drinking alcohol and going out to hear music (first time in eons) is fun.
2) Day-After drinking alcohol translates into leaden/heavy body (lower stamina and reduced lung capacity) as well as big 'hunger'.
3) I used to weigh 300 lbs. Well... 299. It was 35 years ago. Loose skin.
4) I successfully maintained a 100lb weight loss for about 30 years.
5) I managed to not look at (much) or think about the loose skin, the wings, the puckering and creping. (How did I do that?)
6) So here I am now.
7) Building muscles (round 5 or so) again at age 53. And as I get more fit...
8) I celebrate this strength
9) And the loose skin is on my mind. In my eyes. wondering....
10) "What will it look like if/when I lose another 40?"
11) Can I lose another 40?
12) Come On, Let's Lose another 40!
13) Wait and see.
14) I don't think I'd want scars and seam lines on my arms and thighs.
I'm pretty sure that I don't won't want that.
15) Doesn't matter TODAY.
16) Spark on.
17) Two days of funny food... doesn't unspark me.
18) Today's a New Day.
19) Spark On.
20) I miss some of my first Spark Friends who I don't see around sparktown much these days. Come out come out WHEREVER YOU ARE!!!!
21) Spark ON..
22) Love ON..
23) Peace ON...

xop

  


woulda/shoulda/coulda --- a whine for no one but me

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

1) I've been treading water financially. Bravo on the one hand. O f*** on the other.
2) Living below my means in order to stave off anxiety has, over decades, caught up with me... and now there's less room to wiggle - and I can not forget about the bigger need to move ahead. (spark on with wt and body.. but also must must must reach forward and connect more to living and giving and earning -- and/or pick a vision for the next 20 years and make it happen as best I can). p.s. Even as i write this I clearly do not believe I will make it happen.
3) One has to believe that they can make it happen!
4) My honey is a great comfort and homemaker. He himself has never earned really and does not have a grasp on planning. So as much as I prod him to step up... I don't know if he is capable.
5) What should I do next? I don't know. (RHETORICAL QUESTION)
6) I am not willing to be an Office Manager again. Not unless hand to mouth depends on it. Only if I LOVED the people and the whattWEdo.
7) I am scared of school. And of cost of school. This is a 30 year song. This aversion.
8) I woulda shoulda coulda

  
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SONGBARDBIRD 8/9/2011 11:30PM

    Hope you are able to work through these issues and make some happy decisions! It seems like things have been pretty tough so I hope things start to look up...we're all here for you on spark! :)

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RAGAMUFFINKEL 8/9/2011 12:18PM

    I can relate to much of what you share.
The title of the blog caught my attention...typically when I hear woulda/coulda/shoulda it causes that anxiety in the pit of my stomach to want to explode.
Several years ago, I started verbalizing the saying, "Don't 'should' on me!" When said aloud it sometimes sounds like you are telling someone not to eliminate waste on you, but that is the point. Too often the woulda/coulda/shouldas are just totally unprofitable.
I also try really hard not to 'should' on myself. Good luck developing a plan of action to get where ya wanna be. If you can;t believe it will happen yourself...find a friend who can belive it for ya. Sometimes it is the faith of a few close friends that brings us through....
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