Thursday, October 27, 2011
I'm thinking of doing something for the Marine Corps 10K... but I can't decide if its being justifiably proud of myself or too self-serving... hehe
I will be running with the OAR (Organization for Autism Research) team and wearing their singlet. But I was thinking of making a sign to put on my back saying -62 lbs w/ Weight Watchers and running.
(and maybe "This is my first 10K") -- and technically I'm rounding up since I'm at 61.8 but hey...
I am proud of my accomplishment.. and I'd love to have other people see it and maybe be inspired. (And heck, there is a part of me that figures I'd *definitely* get in some pictures that way.. lol)
But it does feel a tad self-serving.. selfish even. Bragging. But is that the old me talking -- the one who tried as hard as possible NOT to be noticed.
Thoughts on this would be gratefully received.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Goals of all sorts.
I haven't done so well on my October goals. I've tried one or two new recipes, but not the 1 a week that I had planned for. And the cleaning? LOLOLOLOL yeah, its a nice goal, but my follow-thru hasn't been so good. And I may or may not hit 1200 fitness minutes. (I'm over 900 right now...and the Marine Corps 10K is this Sunday, so... I dunno.. its in the realm of possibility I guess.)
That said I am not feeling like a "failure" like I would in the past. I'm doing my best -- even despite an awww [expletive delted] week I had awhile back. It was like the spark dimmed but didn't go out. And THAT is definitely a victory.
Yearly goals... at the beginning of the year I had set two health related goals: to end the year weighing less than I had at the beginning of the year. On 1/4/11 I weighed 221.8... as of this past Tuesday I weighed in at 191.4. So that goal is met. My second health related goal was to rack up at least 10,000 fitness minutes in the year. I didn't work out yesterday at all but despite that I'm at 9,898 for the year. So I will *definitely* make that goal, easily. (and wonder now if I should change it/up it??)
I like having goals...but I've learned against setting weight goals with a deadline. For instance awhile back I *had* been averaging 5 lbs/month....so I had hoped by the time MCM rolled around that I'd be at -75 lbs down. Well, -61.8 isn't shabby by any stretch of the imagination!!
But.. my birthday is 7 weeks away. (Dec 13) Its not a milestone or anything - I just turn the answer to life, the universe and everything. (Geeky reference! LOL) But I'm wondering if I should try hit a certain weight/lbs lost by that time. Not that I'd beat myself up or consider myself a failure if I didn't get it..but just as something to shoot for. You know?
Why not. I think I'll shoot for a modest 1 lb a week. If I achieved that (or greater) I'd be at 184.4 -- which I can tell you right now would be simply AWESOME because I'd be at 29.8 BMI for my height.. over weight VS the obese I am now and *morbidly* obese I was at my heaviest.
I'm trying to decide what if anything I'd like to get myself if I hit the goal... I'll have to ponder that.
As far as ultimate weight goal.. well, the range for my height at least as far as weight watchers is concerned is 124 to 155 lbs. I have never in my life (expect maybe pre-puberty lol) been as low as 124. I can't even begin to imagine it. The first time I did weight watchers I got down to 135.
I've decided to set my official weight watchers goal at 153, because that would be a little over 100 lbs (I want that 100 lb charm for one thing!), but then after maintenance was over I'd like to maybe get a bit below that.. how much lower I'm not sure. 140? maybe 135 again? My primary care physician doesn't think I could get that low..but I am sorta wanting to prove him wrong.
We'll see how it goes.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Some of my CAMO crew buddies heard this one last week, but I thought about it and it bears repeating.
My usual routine on Tuesdays is to put the kids on the bus, drive home (the bus picks them up and drops them off at daycare), and then go out for a run before my 10am weight watchers meeting.
The usual running route I take is a 2.91 mile loop from our neighborhood, around a local lake, skirts by the kids school and then to home.
As I'm rounding the corner from their school on the road to home (I am on the sidewalk), I see the kids bus coming up the road. I waved -- not sure if they were still on the bus, or perhaps the bus driver dropped them off and got another load of children.
And the next day (last week), the bus driver's aide tells me that my son said "There goes Tracy Lynn Day. That's my mommy. She is running and exercising."
So I may have to stick to that route on Tuesday mornings because it just gives me an extra "oomph" and makes my day to see my kids like that...and have them see ME being an example of good health.
I had another thing that happened this morning... a definite NSV (nonscale victory)... there was a new member in my Weight Watchers meeting and as she glanced back at me (still wearing my running capris and WDF race tank top and asks "Are you a runner?"
and I nodded yes.
and didn't feel like a phoney.
Friday, October 07, 2011
No, no, not a binge-eating episode, I promise!
Last night I ran with the ladies of GIRL (Getting Inspired to Run for Life). Our schedule listed the night as a "challenge night"..and what that meant was for us to try and move up to the next group.
Ie walkers would advance and train with the run/walk group, run/walk went "up" to Runners B group, and runners B group went up to Runners A. (Runners A stayed where they are since they are the 'top' group)
I was quite a bit nervous about this..Run A is the fast group. There are some women there that 10 minute miles are their *slow* speed. But okay.. I'll give it a whirl...
The entire GIRL group set off on a 2 mile run together.. Runners A in the lead. Now in any group there are natural graduations of pace..but to my own surprise for at least the first mile.. maybe 1.25 miles I was able to stay up in the front..the *VERY* front with two of the Run A coaches. I had no idea of our pace... then on the way back as we hit this huge #$%#$ hill I ended up falling to the middle of the group. The front people were at a 10:30? pace according to one of the coaches.
Then afterwards the groups split up to do their own thing -- well, some were done at that point, but Run A group was supposed to do some speedwork (on the road/sidewalks as the track area was occupied by a football game.)
I managed one of the speedwork segments and as I was coming back from it... I guess the expression is "hit the wall" -- at least mentally if not physically. I felt SO weepy and just .. no, I can't do it.
There was part of me that wanted to, but another part that did just want to sit down and cry and drink some water, which I did do. I don't know if it was because I hadn't eaten since lunch time or what.. but I had hit my limit and that was that.
So.. my cookie crumbled. LOL Two parts of my mind at war -- one part that tried to celebrate the positives (As SandiegoJohn says to) -- I DID the two mile run -and kept up with the faster folks for most of it.. WOOHOO.. I guarantee I couldn't have done that 60 lbs ago.
But that negative side of me that is there comes back with "Yeah, but you quit during the speedwork, you didn't do it all."
I thought about SDJ as I was driving home and thinking these negative thoughts and said out loud "STOP!" (meaning myself).. Stop that negative talk! Maybe it was low blood sugar.. or maybe that was just your limit.. for now! You did your best and that's all anyone can ask -- including yourself.
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