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Its been awhile

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

And I've been... I don't know how to say it.. lost, I guess.

I stopped going to Weight Watchers because my weight was doing the old see-saw -- up 1 lb, down 1/2, down 1, up 1... basically I've been the same weight for the past couple of months.

As for the running... I've let myself fall out of it, regularly. And my speed is still somewhere around 13 min/mi - 14:30 or so...sometimes slower depending.

On the advice of my trainer I've decided NOT to do Marine Corps marathon this year. I'm going to (but haven't yet) switch to the 10K.

I'm going to look for a full-marathon for 2015 with a GENEROUS course time limit. like 7hrs... and actually have one in mind.... the Baltimore Running Festival. Don't get me wrong, I want to do Marine Corps Marathon eventually... I LOVE love love Marine Races...but I think that for the first I don't want to have the added pressure of having to hit a certain mile marker by a certain time.... for the first one I just want to finish.

Diet-wise... I've flirted with low-carb, but not sure that I can DO that.. I'm also not weighing in at the moment. I weighed in on July 1...and am not going to weigh in until July 30.
I feel like I'm still stalling out...but of course don't KNOW.

Anyway, that's where I am... I'm still alive.. still fighting the good fight. ;)

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ROBBIEY 7/15/2014 3:33PM


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Being a good example

Friday, May 30, 2014

I think I blogged earlier in the year about encouraging my daughter by keeping track of the miles she's walked (or sometimes walk/run) with me since the beginning of the year.

Well looking at her log, I realized she was about 1 walk to school away from a milestone. Her school is about 1.5 miles from our house...and she was at about 48.5 miles... so one more walk to 50 miles. I had planned to do *something* special for her at 50 miles. And when I told her that (but not what I had planned) she was of course HOT to get one more walk to school in. LOL

Now I had taken yesterday off because I had a dentist appointment.... I have 4 teeth in the front of my mouth that have all had root canals and need/ed permanent crowns. This appointment was supposed to be to put the permanent crowns in....and the dentist (who is one of the sweetest women around ) ALWAYS takes longer than she says she's going to. So hence the day off.

So I had the morning off and *could* walk her to school. But I also had plans with my coach for a phone conference... its early days for us working together so I'm not sure if he wants me to say who he is...lol.. ;) Anyway, the plan was for us to talk at 9am. Miss Georgia's school lets kids into the school at 8:40am...so the only way I could make the phone call was to either put her on the bus, or get creative so I could walk her to school and still make it home by 9am...

So I had my husband wake me up a bit early... I drove the car and parked in a community lot near her school, then walked home. My husband went to work and I put big brother Thomas on the bus...then when it was time walked my daughter to school.

The whole way there she was wanting me to tell her what the treat was going to be. LOL and me, knowing her and her likely reaction said she had to wait until we GOT to the school... the walk will be done and she'd have earned it. I cautioned her that she wasn't going to GET it until after school... and after her daddy got home from work..but that I would tell her what it was when we got to school.

So we get there and I informed her that for having walked 50 miles so far this year... her reward/special treat was:.................. a trip to the nail salon to get her nails done.. manicure and pedicure. Well, she SHRIEKED in delight. lol And even more so when I told her that mommy (as ungirly as I am) was thinking of getting my toenails done at least.

So that was that. And I'm proud of her for having logged 50 miles so far this year.. that's a lot for an 8 yr old... I'm also proud that I'm being a good example by trying to live a healthy life myself...but also teaching her that she can set goals and hit them..

AND.... by rewarding her with a non-food reward. I want her to have a healthier relationship with food than I've had and not to equate food with rewards.

So yeah.. I'm proud of me too. ;)

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LIMOM2TWINS 7/15/2014 1:16PM

    what a great way to bond with your daughter - I know that this is an older blog post - but I wanted to add a comment - nice job MOM - we do lead by example and this is right up there! - you even got a nice workout yourself in this deal :)

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PS - I hope that you both had a fabulous time emoticon

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JAYKAYSTRONG 6/4/2014 3:47PM

    emoticon to you and your daughter!

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>Well done!


ps... I bet I know who the coach is, neener neener neener lol emoticon

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Upcoming race thoughts -- and the big kahuna (LOL)

Friday, May 09, 2014

The next big race I have is the Marine Corps Historic Half marathon.

I did that one last year with a garmin that died at mile 3 (my own fault for not making sure it was charged)...and in my worst finish time ever for a half at 3:21:07.

So I'm doing it again this year...and hoping to really do better than that!! And since training, like for the Irongirl, has been "so-so".... I'll be happy with anything just over the 3hr mark and THRILLED with something under 3.

Then I plan on doing my running club's women's distance festival 5k (hopefully with my daughter who is getting more interested in running).... and in September the Ft. McHenry Tunnel Run 5k with my son (We've done that for 3 years in a row so far.)..

Then, the big kahuna... my first full marathon. Marine Corps Marathon.

My plan has been to do it and fundraise for two charities -- one to honor each of my kids.
OAR (Organization for Autism Research) for my son Thomas, who is on the spectrum.

and LWB (Love Without Boundaries) who does work with children in China, to honor my daughter Georgia who was adopted from Jiangsu province in 2008.

I don't yet have a fundraising page for LWB because when I contacted them I was told they aren't participating in MCM this year... having not met some requirement or something as an MCM charity. BUT from their own webpage I see its possible to do an event on my own and fundraise for them that way: www.lovewithoutboundaries.com/progra
So I'm in contact with them and hope to have a page for them set up soon.

I'm not asking (exactly) anyone to donate...but if you do want to, then that would be awesome. If not, I'll definitely be glad of any well-wishes and whatnot I get as I work on training for my first full marathon.

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LEWILL1982 5/9/2014 2:36PM

    Also training for my first marathon, scheduled for 2/1/2015. Good luck with training!

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April 27, 2014 Columbia Irongirl Half Marathon

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

This was my first year doing this race. And I wished, going into it that I'd felt better about my training. But really... well.. it hadn't been the best. Thanks to Mother Nature and her hormonal mood swings.

Ah well...

The race was supposed to start at 7am. I live about 15 minutes by car (maybe less min, really) from the start area, but wasn't sure how soon they'd close roads, so I had my husband get me up early and I tried to be out the door by 6:15 or so....My mom wasn't able to come down so early (she lives like 1.5 hrs away)..so husband would stay home with the kids... I'd be starting and finishing this race with no cheering section. Anyway, I parked at the mall and walked across the road/highway to the start area.

As I walked, I turned on my garmin.... Okay, make that TRIED to turn on my garmin. The #$%^#%^ thing wouldn't turn on!! Cue panic attacks... I had planned to do run/walk intervals and how could I time the intervals without my garmin?

Well, as it turned out, there was a problem on the course (still not sure what) and start time was delayed about 1/2hr. In that time I found someone who helped me do a soft reset on my garmin. So yay!

The slowest pace group they had was 13 min/miles... the course time limit was 4 hrs, so we were told you had to keep a18:18 pace or better to finish in the time limit. I thought *maybe* I could hang with the 13 min/milers, and maybe in time (and losing a few more lbs) I could..but not this time. But being optimistic (and not knowing the course so well -- the map wasn't released until late) I thought I'd try..

is a link to my garmin's account of the race. Check out that elevation map! Holy cow!

As for the race itself... well timed intervals went out the window. To be honest, I expected my garmin to die at any moment... it literally gave me a "low battery warning" at mile 1.... and then proceeded to last the entire half. Go figure!

Anyway, if you look at my splits, you'll see mile 9 is abyssmal... I totally blame that on gut cramps and having to stop at a portapotty... and wait for said portapotty. I left the garmin running because... hey.. official race timer was still ticking. (That and I was afraid messing with the garmin would cause it to die.)

Up until mile 9 I had entertained the hope of breaking 3 hrs.. even if only 2:59... my other 3 halves being 2:48:35 , 3:07:40 and 3:21 something... but my biggest goals were to finish..and if possible kill that stinking 3:21.

Anyway, by mile 9 I figured under 3hrs was out... and as long as I beat 3:21 I was going to be happy. So I just did my best... tried to run for a min or two, then walk..then run.. more walking than running on uphills (of which there were a LOT)

But I finished. In 3:07:15...so not only did I get less than 3:21... I even beat (however slightly) my 3:07:40... and THAT was earned on a flat course (while recovering from bronchitis)... this was on a very hilly and challenging course.

Here's the first bling of 2014:

I'm satisfied. and I thought.. now that I have my treadmill (that's the subject of a whole other blog entry!!!) I will be able to train no matter what the weather... so next year I'll be better prepared.

And if I can do 3:07:15 with less than stellar preparation... who knows how much better I can do if I prepare better ---and in an ideal world, get the scale to cooperate.

**edited to add... and better still.. .garmin says my overall average time was 14:20 for 13.1.... and 14:11 average moving time. So I'm ALMOST there now at the necessary ave 14 min/mi for the first 20 miles to beat the bridge of Marine Corps marathon... so with good training (and MAYBE a little weight loss)....

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MUFFIY831 4/30/2014 10:07AM

    That is fantastic! Great job!!!

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    Great job!!! emoticon

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SUCCESSN2014 4/29/2014 6:22PM


I have the same type of Garmin that I use to train for a half marathon (walking, not running). I love it!

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2014 Racing

Thursday, February 20, 2014

I don't do a lot of races.
Mostly its because as funny as it sounds, I like the longer distances. I joke it takes me a mile or two to truly get in the grove and in a 5K that's almost finished! So I "like" 8Ks, 10K and half marathons.
The problem there is at least in terms of the half marathon as slow as I've been lately (past year or so since regaining about 35 of the 60 I had lost)... that I need a cutoff time of 3.5 hrs or MORE to feel like "Yes, I can do this one" --- best half time was 2:48:35 (at the -60 lbs) , worst was ~3 hr 21 min (Historic half in May 2013, after most of the regain).

Now my county running club usually has a "weekly series" race that the fees are like 1 or 2$ but the thing there is my own hangups. I am SLOW...and many of them are true gazelles. So I don't often do the longer races there.. especially since I run/walk and not do straight running like many of them do.

And of course there's always the simple fact that bigger races (with the crowd support, cutoff times, etc) are usually expensive. I just can't afford to do a lot of them.

So yesterday in my feed I mentioned I was trying to register for some Marine Corps races. The first one I wanted to get into was the Marine Corps 17.75k (~11 miles). I did it last year..and this is a race that sells out FAST. Last year it sold out in less than an hour. The main reason is that when you finish it you get a "golden ticket" -- guaranteed entry into the Marine Corps marathon..which has consistently sold out in about 2hrs.. in fact that is one reason this year, 2014, the MCM is going to a lottery registration. So the golden ticket race means more than ever to some folks.

Now I didn't NEED the golden ticket because I had done 17.75 last year and had gotten one (and into MCM) but deferred on MCM after the coward's attack on me. As a deferral I already had a guaranteed in. But if I had made it into 17.75 I would have given my golden ticket to a friend.

But as you might guess from my tone, I didn't get into the race. The race sold out in 9 minutes.. maybe less than 9 minutes. Oh well... I had hoped to do it, it was fun..but it wasn't necessary if you know what I mean.

I DID register for the Marine Corps Historic Half in May.
And yesterday was the first day I could, as a deferral, re-register for the Marine Corps marathon. So I did. This will be my first marathon.

I'm trying to be positive here.. it WILL be my first. I will do it.. I will finish.

But even as I type that there's the flutterings of panic. Sure, I can do a half..but I worry about of course doing the full distance... and there's the additional pressure of "beating the bridge".

This is from the MCM FAQ...
What is Beat the Bridge?
Runners must maintain the 14 minute-per-mile pace to reach the 14th Street Bridge and successfully "Beat the Bridge" just before mile marker 20. The 14th Street Bridge will reopen to vehicular traffic making it unavailable to runners after 1:15 p.m. Any runners unable to "Beat the Bridge" will be required to board the straggler buses and be driven to the event finish area

Last summer before I deferred, my pace in longer runs was at best in the 14-14:30 range. Almost, but not quite the needed pace. Toward the end of summer I was hitting faster paces in shorter runs 12-13 minutes, but then my training went into a tailspin with the summer heat and after that rat-b*stard coward groped me on the bike path. I didn't feel safe on the bike paths and finding someone to train with at my pace was... hard. Plus I had panic attacks at first at the thought of going outside to run. I was hyper-aware of my surroundings and my heart would just pound...even in situations where I knew I was safe -- like at the high school track, and initially at the treadmill at the gym.

Now the winter has been... BLEH...here in Maryland. Bitter cold and more recently snow. Its thrown another monkey wrench in the works. The last long outdoor run I did was on Feb 2 (so more than 2 weeks ago!)... a 7 mile run with an average pace of 13:43. (I think I was doing either 1 min run 1 min walk intervals... or it might have been 1.5 min run / 1 min walk)


So that gives me hope that with consistency and continued training I can hit the required minimum pace -- or maybe a tad faster. But a marathon is a BIG deal... so I have the flutterings of panic.
There's part of me that thinks "Who am I to think I can do this?" I'm obese! I'm no athlete!

I've heard people say "Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right." or something along those lines. So what do you say to someone who is literally arguing with herself almost every step of the way? There's part of me that says "You CAN do it....even as heavy as you are, you move at a decent pace... and you're back at weight watchers, working on the weight... you can do this."
and there's the part of me that says "I'm not an athlete.. not a "real" runner... I'm just 'fatgirl'." what my tormenters called me in middleschool.

I'm truly not fishing for sympathy... just trying to explain some of the stuff swirling around in my head.

That said.. I've got the Columbia Irongirl half on 4/27. I've got to see what I can do about picking my training back up to prepare for that. Its hard when the sidewalks are iced over in many places and my gym membership is lapsed. But hubby has said that maybe we can get me a good running quality treadmill with some of our tax refund. I haven't been sitting on my butt doing nothing... I've been doing indoor walks with Leslie Sansone...and that has helped maintain my fitness some, but it isn't readmill running....and it definitely isn't outdoor running!!

Then I've got the Historic half in May... the Ft McHenry Tunnel 5k on September (Not registered for this one yet, but Thomas and I have done it for 4yrs in a row... Ft McHenry tunnel being one of his FAVORITE places in the world.

I may or may not register for the Strider's 'metric marathon' (26.2k) which is also in Sept I think.. and then of course the big kahuna... the marine corpts marathon.

Sorry this is a ramble.. welcome to my mind (such as it is!) ;)

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CRYSBROWN1 2/21/2014 2:31PM

    You can DEFINITELY do the marathon, the fact of the matter is that you want it, you are committed (just look at all the races you have done!) so you WILL do it!

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LEWILL1982 2/20/2014 3:18PM

    I agree with IRISHBEANGIRL -tell the voices in your head to shut the front door! You've got this and the fact that you're signed up for the marathon is a pretty sure bet that you will figure out the training and get through this. I want to do one, but can't even sign up for it, so you are ahead of me! You have lofty goals and that will get you back on target. One.Step.At.A.Time!

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    "Fatgirl" or not - you are still a runner... so tell the voices in your head to shut up.

At 245 pounds I still lift much more than I did when I was almost down to 200. Someone wanna tell me I'm not an athlete because I put back on some weight? I dare ya!


Bottom line - if you don't try, you will wonder forever. If you do try, and don't make it- that will fuel your need to get it done the next time. And, IF YOU DO MAKE IT... those voices in your head will have to suck it... sounds like a win/win to me, all around.

Let us know what you decide.


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