Monday, July 07, 2014
I hadn't realized it has been so long since I've posted a blog. 2013 was a tough year for our family. We had a lot of change and a lot of struggles. As the year came to a close...all I kept saying was "I can't WAIT for 2013 to be over....... bring on 2014, it's got to be better!"
I was wrong.
2014 can be worse. And it has been worse...and it still keeps getting worse.
We've already dealt with medical issues & my father-in-law passing away..... and now it looks like my wonderful airforce hubby will be deploying for the first time since we've been together (that's almost 10 years!) . It's not his first deployment, but it is "my" first deployment.
And while I'm thankful that we've made it 10 years before it happened......I'm still having a hard time wrapping my brain around him REALLY being gone for half a year.
Right now my brain is swirling with trying to make lists and learning everything I need to know....what I need to do...all of those man-things he does.....all the things I never give a second thought to.....
I know this is going to sound weird, but I told him....don't get mad but I have to pretend that you are never coming back. I need to know everything I need to do if you don't come back. That's the only way my slightly OCD brain can do this. I will completely stress myself out if I don't have as much info as possible. A big binder full of info is the only way I will sleep at night.
And while he's fine with that, getting him to do it and not waiting until the last minute is a completely different story. I pointed out that I'm not on the cable account, or the phone account, or his credit card......what if weird charges show up on it??? If I'm not authorized they're not even going to talk to me! His response? Oh, huh....yeah I guess....
So, that's what's going on......it's the condensed version. No need to drag it all out. Hopefully, things will get better and I'll be able to keep my spirits up.
One good thing is that one of my daughters has moved back into our house while she's attending university and one of my other daughters is moving in for the summer. So, at least there's some laughter and silliness coming from them. They're great company and I'm so blessed to have them so close.
Hopefully, I can find a few minutes here and there to get back on Spark (yes, I KNOW I keep saying that......lol)
Have a wonderful week!
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Today I met with a nutritionist in hopes that I could get ANOTHER opinion on possible solutions to my digestive issues (bloating, swelling etc).
After reviewing everything I have done so far and the tests (blood allergy, environmental allergy, ALCAT) she recommended a different food intolerance test and jumping into the FODMAP "diet" for a few weeks to see if that will help.
So, now I have to go through the approved FODMAP foods and eliminate the dairy, soy, gluten and the other foods I react to.....and see what's left.
I'm willing to try anything at this point. I'm hopeful that it will help. We'll see.
On the bright side, I had to pull the brownies that I just made out of the freezer and share them with my family to get them out of the house before I started this tomorrow! lol
Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Friday, June 21, 2013
Yesterday my daughter and her boyfriend stopped by my workplace to have lunch with me. They wanted to go to Portillo's (a Chicago Hotdog place with a location in AZ). I LOVE Portillo's! Well, I should say my heart loves Portillo's but my stomach doesn't.
So, i contemplated what to have, knowing darn well that I really shouldn't eat any of it (full of gluten, dairy, soy etc). Welllllll......... I had a craving for a cheeseburger! I'm not currently eating red meat and I haven't had a cheeseburger in 2 years.
So i ordered a plain cheeseburger and a small fry. That's it.
I ate and enjoyed EVERY single bite.
Then we headed back to the office...... I could already feel rumblings and feel the bloating starting. I expected that.
But then about an hour later I felt like I had HIT A WALL. I mean, seriously, it took great effort to even keep my eye lids open. It was SO strange. AND.......then I started having these unexplainable emotions, like I was going to cry! My eyes would well up with tears......it was the strangest thing.
I felt horrible.
Eventually, I went home and immediately laid down. I napped for a little bit and around 10pm I got up to join my daughter in some TV watching. All of a sudden my legs started to tingle, my ankles started to burn and I knew what was happening......
HIVES !!!!!! Oh no!!!!! I resisted the urge to scratch, but that tingling and burning feeling is horrible! I sprayed some Bactine on (I don't know why...it never helps! lol).
Eventually I went to bed and I felt much better this morning with only a few hives left.
My daughter felt compelled to give me the following advice:
"Mom, i don't think you should eat Portillo's cheeseburgers again."
Gee, thanks honey.......I think I figured that out already.
Monday, June 10, 2013
As I typed my title for this blog....here's what came out of my fingers...
"Such a busty..." ha ha ha and as I backspaced to fix that OBVIOUS typo I laughed thinking.....how funny it would be to see a "bloopers" reel of typos/auto corrects. I know I've had some REALLY funny ones!!!
Anyway...... I had a super BUSY weekend ....lol
Friday night I went and played miniature golf (or Putt Putt, as we midwesterners call it!) with my old Hobby Lobby friends! It was pretty warm outside and we were running for water by the 8th hole. But it was still fun and a nice evening out.
Saturday I managed to throw my back out, doing absolutely nothing. That was pretty annoying and subsequently hurt all weekend and continues to ache. I'll be going to my friend Jimmy the chiropractor tomorrow during lunch! He is magical!!!
My oldest daughter spent the weekend with me and since she is newly dairy free and loves healthy experimental cooking......lol....which is my whole life, pretty much..... we did lots of cooking! We did a little baking.
First we tweaked an already proven gluten free banana bread recipe and swapped out the strawberries that it called for with some rhubarb! It turned out yummy! She said it was even yummier with coconut milk icecream on top!
Well, OF COURSE!
Then we made strawberry crumble bars. These called for rolled oats and since I haven't been eating oats (they were bloating me) I substituted quinoa flakes. Ehhhh......it was a little too powerful flavor. Plus the crust of the bars didn't firm up. They're probably better now that they're refrigerated, but I haven't checked.
Again.....they were MUCH better tasting with coconut milk icecream on top!!! Imagine that?!
We even tried to make faux mac and cheese..... without any cheese or fake cheese. lol....we found a recipe that used carrots and potatos to make a sauce. It was a little weird but I have to say that LOOKWISE it really DID end up looking and "sounding" lol...... like mac and cheese sauce!!
But.....in the end it was a little too potatoey tasting, so it's probably something that will need some tweaking.
We also went to the fabric store. I needed to pick up some fat quarters for a FQ fabric swap I'm participating in (oops! I just realized that I was supposed to mail those today!! oops! lol). While we were there my daughter found all sorts of beautifil fabrics that she loved. She definitely has the 'bug"! In the end, she picked out a pattern for some hot pads to make for gifts. We decided we'd just raid my fabric stash at home.
She spent the rest of the afternoon cutting and pressing a gabillion little folded triangle shapes. ha ha ha ha....now she needs to have a sewing lesson before she can actually put the things together! But they'll be super cute and better yet, we can share the pattern.
Sunday we spend more time in the kitchen, grilling chicken breasts and I even made homemade dressing! Raspberry Poppyseed dressing! It's so yummy! It's made with Raspberry Balsamic vinegar. I just ate my salad for lunch and it was great!
I also made a cheeseless quiche with a cooked rice crust. That turned out pretty good too! I put browned ground chicken and shredded zucchini in it.
My goal was to try to get some food made that I can easily eat or pack in my lunch box. I felt pretty good by the end of the weekend, I got a lot done!
I decided this weekend to take the bull by the horns and really cut back my food assortment to try to pin point what foods are still bothering me. So I made a list of ingredients that I felt were "safe" foods and tried to figure out 1000 ways to eat them. lol....
So in theory my stomach should be happy right now 1/2 way into the afternoon.....but it's bloated again. Maybe my new dressing is the culprit.
I figure if I widdle my diet down to just the bare bones of food items, I will be able to figure out what the problem is. I hope.
This morning my daughter got her call from the cruiseline that she has been assigned to a ship and she leaves tomorrow to head to the Mississippi! She's not sure which end of the river she'll be on...they have several cruises...but that's where she's heading. The poor girl has never really experienced humidity, being a Phoenix native! Ha ha ha ha ha ha......yeah, good luck with that, my dear! lol....... a nice hot, muggy summer on the Mississippi river!
Well, regardless, it will be a great experience and I'm sure she'll enjoy herself (and make some pretty good summer money for an 18 yr old!). But I sure will miss her!
And that about wraps up my weekend. I'm still struggling with getting back into the gym, seems like there's always something I, seriously, HAVE to do after work all the time. It's frustrating that I can't seem to resolve that. But I will keep trying.
Tuesday, June 04, 2013
It's been 2 years since I changed my diet due to my food intolerance testing. In a desperate attempt to eliminate the bloating, cramping, diarrhea, swelling, hives, weight gain........I completely changed my food choices.
And while I know that things are much better, I still have daily bloating and my life feels like I spend WAY too much time thinking about how I feel, what I can eat for the next meal, and what foods I'm missing.
Most of the time I try to stay upbeat and positive about these challenges. I have met a TON of people along the way......everywhere......that are faced with the same challenges! I mean, everywhere! Waiters, old friends, my tattoo artist, my hair dresser, my new boss, my own daughter! It's far more common then I ever knew. So I feel blessed to be able to share what I've learned with others that are struggling also. Together we can all help each other.
I get excited about trying new recipes, even though the odds are only 50/50 that it will be a keeper. Even though I'm sorry that my daughter is following in my dairy free footsteps, I'm excited to have someone who will get excited about my recipes instead of thinking they are "weird".
But even with all of that positive stuff, there are days that I get so down, the tears well up in my eyes and I get so depressed. I just want to be able to eat, with out any restrictions, to be able to eat the foods I grew up loving, to sit in a restaurant and order what ever I want without giving the waiter the third degree about the ingredients and cooking manner. I feel beaten down. Tired. I look at my future......I've got another good 40 years of this life (God willing!) and sometimes I just don't know if I have the energy to do this that long. It's a lot of work. And sometimes I just don't have it in me. I just don't. There are days when I make my husband a wonderful meal that I can't eat. I hand it to him and he says : What are you eating? And I just say, I don't know. I'm tired of eating. Mostly, I'm just tired of MY eating. Then I eat something easy and lame and pretty unexciting. Like a bowl of gluten free cereal with almond milk. Woo Hoo........
I think about the traveling my husband and I want to do some day. And the excitement is tempered by the hassle it will be for me to eat. What if we go overseas somewhere and then maybe have to throw in a language barrier too!? It just takes away some of the excitement, you know?
I know, I'm kind of having a pity party. But, I don't know where else to express this. This is the only place where someone might understand.
I know in another day or two, I'll be fine and that will go on for a while and then this mood will hit again.....it's a rollercoaster.
So, I keep coming back to the positive....
My emergency bathroom trips have ended for the most part.
My hives are rare now.
My sever stomach cramps are gone.
So, what I have to deal with is bloating and swelling. So, that's not THAT bad. But, I haven't quite figured out the mystery ingredients that are still bothering me. And that's where the frustration comes in. I have pretty good will power to avoid foods that bother me. But when I don't know what they are .....or they change (as often happens with food intolerances!) it becomes quite the challenge.
Ok, I'm done. Thanks for listening.
I know I'm not alone and I'm sorry if you're going through the same thing. You're not alone either.
I guess it's just one day at a time.
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