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Depressed

Saturday, July 12, 2014

The job hunt isn't going well. I've had two interviews, one for a permanent job, and one for a long term temping position, but didn't get either. I suppose I should be happy that I at least, finally, made it up into the interview rank.

And the younger child is having her issues, and taking them out on me. Thank God she's staying with her grandparents for most of the summer. She was going to spend the night here to make logistics with her library volunteering easier. My mother dropped her off a few hours before she was supposed to start yesterday, and after half an hour of her complaining, snarking, and shouting she headed off to the library, and I called my mother to tell her that she needed to pick the kid up after her library stint, because it wasn't going to be good for anyone if she stayed here. Of course this got kid upset, and trying to explain that we were both in a bad place and making each other worse, and that a few day cooling off period would let us maybe work things out when we were both over the immediate stuff didn't explain it to here (She's 16.) She started yelling that maybe I should just kick her out permanently. She slammed the door on her way out when my mother came to pick her up.

So I had comfort food yesterday. A DQ banana split, and waaaay too much Marsala and some cake frosting. And in spite of that my weight is up less than a pound this morning, but I had been way down yesterday because the day before I hadn't felt well and hadn't eaten much, so I'm still down from two days ago. So I suppose I should feel better that even with a comfort food binge, I'm not really overdoing it.

  
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LINDA! 7/15/2014 12:36AM

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Persistence. Sort of.

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

It's been over a year since my last blog entry. Wow.

And I put back all the weight I had lost and a bit more. I'd like to say it isn't totally my fault, and I think that is at least partially true. I got sick around the end of last summer, and as part of the treatment I got to take a 12 day course of prednisone. Which I'm only every going to take again if the alternative is death. I put on well over 10 pounds just while I was on the meds. And for quite a while after I was still starving all the time. I understand that prednisone acts like insulin and tells your body to store everything as fat, and of course you eat more because your blood sugar is low because it's all being stored away as fat, so of course then more of that is stored, so you're still hungry, and around and around it goes.

But now instead of sitting around 180, I'm up just over 200, and retaining water like crazy. My left knee hates me, and I'm actually having surgery on it on the 11th, to remove the torn frayed bits of cartilage as well as the 2cm cyst. That latter item probably explains why the left knee looks almost twice the size of the right and is getting progressively more unstable.

I should be able to keep eating under control for at least while after the surgery, since if it's anything like last time, I'm not going to be walking (or rather hobbling) around much unless I really, really, have to, and snacking out of boredom is not a good enough reason when things hurt that much.

But while the weight is persistent, at least I'm coming back again, for the third or fourth, (or is it fifth?) time to try to get it under control. Sigh.

  
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SCENIC_ROUTE 4/4/2013 4:28PM

    emoticon back. It's all a process and you are here and haven't given up so I only see success in your future. Will send prayers for an easy surgery and speedy recovery!

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CATHEMARIE 4/3/2013 8:56PM

    Get up one more time after you fall down. We are going to keep getting back up. Praying the surgery goes especially smoothly.

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IDICEM 4/3/2013 1:51PM

  As long as you don't quit, you don't fail. Congratulations on returning. Welcome back and good luck!
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FUZZIEBEAR3 4/3/2013 1:40PM

    Sigh.

Welcome back! Nice determination. I hope that your knee surgery doesn't slow you down even further, and allows you to get out and move again. emoticon

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January 15th - primalish and water

Sunday, January 15, 2012

I mentioned in yesterday's post that I had cooked a relatively primal/paleo dinner for the family. The husband seemed pretty happy with it, not being massively enthusiastic over the sweet potato hash, but happy enough to eat it. I'll play around with it to get the seasoning more exciting, I didn't have an onion so I used onion powder, and since I tend not to salt and pepper my food, unless I'm following a specific recipe, I usually forget to do it when I'm cooking. We've seen some recipes online which instead of a savory, make it a sweet with cinnamon and ginger added, so I'll try that next time. Maybe that would be a good desert?

I've got to start drinking more water, I'm just not massively thirsty right now, and I'm having to pee often enough and it's not dark, so I'm not getting signals that the body thinks it's at all dehydrated, but a bit more water wouldn't hurt. I've got to remember to fill my two nice pint waterbottles (that I got from Border's back in the day) first thing in the morning. If they are already filled it's much easier to remember to drink.

Now I just have to get the girls more on board. Problem is they both just love their carbs, and the younger won't eat pork, or anything resembling pork or ham except hot dogs. Now I just have to find a source of beef hotdogs without all the gross additives. I've been told there is a butcher a few towns over, which would only add about 10 miles to my trip home from work (if he's open that late), so I'll have to wander over and see what they carry. At least the elder child likes salads, and maybe I can start getting younger to do them if I put tuna on them, since she just loves tuna.

Next week I'm going to see about getting some good reusable lunch boxes (I'm thinking Happy Tiffin), which will probably pay for themselves in a few months anyway since I suspect I'd be spending less on the lunches I'm packing than the $2.65 and $3.00 the girls' schools charge for the less healthy school lunches.

So I'm off to read my articles for COHP, do my WIO for that challenge, and for my 5% challenge exercise time, as well as some strength training for COHP, and then lots of dishes and starting the roast chicken for dinner. That and a big salad with olive oil and balsamic or red wine vinegar out to make at least me and the husband happy.

  
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DIHEALTHYHAPPY 1/15/2012 8:53PM

    Wow! Sounds interesting.

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2BEEFIT 1/15/2012 12:23PM

    Good luck on your paleo conversion. I am a slow starter with my kiddos. I add a lot of paleo but I will throw in a piece of toast every now and then. I also have been trying smoothies out of Coconut milk instead of dairy and they have been going over well. There is a cookbook called Everyday Paleo that features families.
Good Luck

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January 14th - children. Sigh...

Saturday, January 14, 2012

The girls spent most of the afternoon yelling at each other, enough that I ended up sending them both to their rooms *without* their computers. While they were up there I put the laptops away where they wouldn't find them, and they didn't get them back until after dinner. Things were much quieter without people screaming at each other about problems with computer games and how other people weren't helping, and other people were stupid, etc., etc., etc.

I was so glad when my sister came over to take me out for coffee. A starbucks tall latte with only one packet of sugar in the raw was sweet enough, and I hope this is a sign of changes in my tastes. Hopefully this will keep up. But it was nice *not* wanting to put tons of sugar/honey/flavored syrup in a drink.

I tried some sweet potato hash at dinner. I grated up three small sweet potatoes, added in two eggs and some onion powder, and then fried them up in a dollup of olive oil. We also had eggs and some (guilty pleasure comfort food) turkey spam with cheddar cheese on top. I know spam isn't "real" food, but I've seen supposedly "good for you" food with a worse set of ingredients. Which isn't saying much for the spam, more something bad about what the modern world considers good for us.

  
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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 1/15/2012 1:51PM

    Hope today is a better day for you!!

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January 12th - disappointed 8(

Thursday, January 12, 2012

My Tai Chi class has been cancelled.

The local parks and rec offers it regularly, but always during the day while I'm at work. Finally they had the beginners class in the evening, so of course I was the only one who signed up for it. The next session will start in late March or early April, and hopefully they'll keep it in the evenings. The instructor told me that this session is usually very small if they have it at all.

As for diet/lifestyle changes....
I printed out the readers cookbook from Mark's Daily Apple, and my husband looked at it last night, and thought several of them sounded quite good, especially the avocado deviled eggs. So I think I know what I'm going to try this weekend.

I looked at the pantry last night when I got home and realized that virtually all of it needs to go. We can't afford to get rid of it and replace all at once, so I figure we'll just start easing the family into this lower carb primal thing finishing off stuff and replacing it with good things. Hopefully we can get rid of most of it by the beginning of February.

So the next step is our storage containers. Naturally everything is plastic, and that includes a lot of stuff that gets used in the microwave, or to put warm food into to put in the fridge. I have a flat of pint Ball jars I bought this summer when I thought I might need to can some tomatoes, so maybe we'll just start using them, and the old spaghetti sauce jars for the fridge, picking up some of those nice pyrex lidded bowls as we can. We can wrap meats and other solid stuff in wax paper before putting them in plastic to freeze them, but I'll have to figure out what to do with soups and other liquids. Perhaps chill them in the pyrex or other straight sided glass before putting the them in the freezer? All I know is that the more I read about plastic today the more sick I felt, partly about what I've been doing to myself all these years, but more about what I've done to my kids. Maybe that's why I'm not so hungry today.

Which segs nicely into that. Most days I've eating about 1000 calories by the time I leave work. Today it's almost time to leave, my calorie count hasn't reached 500 and I'm not sitting here thinking about what I have on hand or can get from the cafeteria. Of course I'll probably feel like pigging out on dinner, which will be something with turkey sausage most likely.

Which reminds me that I need to start looking for some nice lunch boxes for the girls. Right now Happy Tiffin has a set of three, a 2 tier, a 3 tier, and a 4 tier, for under $50, nice grade stainless steel, and a rubber gasket on top tier. Perhaps next week, after the pay screwup has been fixed? (Work withheld $50 too much this week for fed tax, so I'll get it back next week, so they tell me....)

  
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SEDGEY 1/12/2012 5:02PM

    Too bad about the tai chi class! Maybe you can find a video online to follow?

Good for you for getting rid of the plastic. Do keep in mind that some are safe. I use plastic freezer containers (older Freezerette) and don't worry about them. One way to ensure quality is to use only American-made plastics. We have way more stringent regulations here. If you have any particular questions, my honey is a plastics engineer. Do not microwave *any* plastic.

Congrats on the progress!

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