Friday, January 22, 2010
Tonight was the night we went to visit Cody at the vet to see how he was doing and what tomorrow will bring. We took his sister, Prancer to visit and all of my kids were there.
When we went in, Cody was incredibly happy to see us. He scooted all over the entire animal hospital, every where we walked he followed by scooting. The vet says while he does have some feeling back, now he's in pain now (he was numb and feeling no pain) and he's been giving him narcotics all day. His hind legs are still unable to hold him up at all....although he did try to stand when he saw us. He said we could take him home tomorrow with steroids and pain killers, but he would need to be where he is on level ground only and isn't allowed to do steps (every entrance we have to our house has a lot of steps). He has no control of his bowels or bladder and just goes wherever he is at the moment. He's not sure if that would improve with time or if he would ever be able to walk. He said on the slight chance that he did improve with weeks of drugs and not being able to move anywhere, it would be highly likely (almost 100%) that the problem would recur again....in a day, week, month or a year or more. Soooo....I'm left with the decision. Everyone agrees that we should put him down tomorrow. In reality, I know this is best for Cody and for us, but a part of me keeps thinking maybe we could build him some sort of shelter on the deck and make him comfortable out there and let him go to the bathroom whenever he needed and just clean it and him up. I could put a gate up at the steps so he couldn't try to go down and hurt himself. What if he did get better? Then I stop and think how unfair that is to Cody. What kind of life would he have just laying around outside, unable to go down to the yard, unable to play, on pain killers and laying in his poop and pee until someone got home to clean him up? That's no way to live..... SO, I have to agree that putting him down is best for him. I can't allow my feelings to play into the decision because I don't want him gone. I need to remember all the good times with him and just let him go. I know it's always a hard decision as I've had to make it before, but the other times were different because the dogs were old had a lot wrong with them. Cody is only 5, still looks good, eats well, drinks well so that makes it much, much harder for me. I went to Petco a while ago and bought him a pig ear. Now I feel awful giving him a treat he loves right before he leaves us. I feel like I'm betraying him and not doing what's best, although I know in my heart it is the best thing.
Tomorrow is going to be awful.....thanks again for all of your well wishes, thoughts and prayers. Once it's over tomorrow, I'll be better as long as I keep telling myself this was best for him.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
What a day with a whirlwind of emotions. Thank those of you who sent me comments and goodies about having to have my beautiful 5 year old lab put to sleep today. That is on hold for the moment.
After Emily (my oldest daughter) and I spent a long time talking with the vet, we decided to wait and not have him put to sleep today. He said it's a disc problem (I thought it was his hips-but he said his hip XR is completely normal) and that the inflammation was pinching a nerve causing complete paralysis of his hind legs. He gave him Valium this morning while I was there and he was resting nicely when I just left again. I've been back and forth 4 times asking questions and trying to decide what to do...the last time with Emily when we really thought we were going to say goodbye. He said with IV steroids and pain meds and total rest there, there is a slight chance (15-20%) he will recover fully. There should be marked improvement by Saturday if it is going to work. As long as he's comfortable now and not in pain, I can't not do it. Cody deserves that chance. This gives me time to think and time to prepare in case it doesn't work. I couldn't just say yes and not try everything available to help. He was very blunt and pretty much said he didn't think it would work, but the choice was up to me. I still feel horrible, but I'm happy he's there, safe, comfortable and getting every opportunity available to him at this point.
Cody is a 5 year young black lab. He and his sister Prancer have been with us since birth (mostly). We adopted their mom, Angel from an ad in the paper, only to get her and see her getting bigger and bigger and then obviously pregnant! Just about 2 months after Angel's arrival in our home, she had 10 beautiful yellow and black lab puppies! Two were stillborn, leaving us with 8. They were born Dec 1, 2004, so we named them after the 8 reindeer :-) We chose to keep Prancer and found homes for all others once they were weaned and had their shots. Cody's original name was Blitzen, but he was renamed Malikai by his new owner. A month down the road, he was returned to us because his new family found out they had to move and didn't want him anymore. He found another new home and was renamed yet again to Cody and when he was a year old, I got a call that he wouldn't stay in their yard and that he kept getting into doggie jail. As much as they loved him, they couldn't keep him. So, at one year of age, he came back to us. I didn't have the heart to rename him again, so he's been Cody ever since.
Thanks again for all of your good wishes and please keep Cody in your thoughts.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Today is Meghan's wrist surgery. She has a ganglion cyst so it's a minor, short procedure but because of her age, they are using general anesthesia. While it's a minor problem, it's on her right (dominant) hand and has caused her pain and limited range of motion for almost 2 years, since it involves the tendons in her hand. She hasn't been able to do a lot of things and has missed out on a lot of fun activities. The surgery is successful 94% of the time (the cyst returns 6% of the time after removal) so we are hopeful after the six week recovery period she will be able to have full use of her hand again. She's more worried about not being able to write at all for 1-2 weeks and how she'll do in school, but I think the trade off of knowing she will soon be able to bowl and use her hand normally again makes it worth it.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Thanks to a post in one of my teams, I have picked a new streak. For the rest of this month, my goal is to track every thing I eat, every single day. I have not been 100% with tracking, but will work hard to make sure all gets tracked each and every day. I use the food tracker on Weight Watcher's and am not as familiar with the one on Sparks, but I will learn it quickly!
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