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Happy New Year

Friday, December 31, 2010

Wishing all my Spark friends a very happy 2011. Thanks for supporting me on my journey this year. It is my hope to continue down the road of good health, stay cancer free and make better choices for myself. I remember all about 2010, the good, the bad, the ugly night-time eating habits. As I ring in the new year, I put away those habits that side-lined my healthy lifestyle in the past. emoticon2011! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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NISSANGIRL 1/1/2011 12:27PM

    Happy New year Inga! Hope you have an awesome 2011! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    Happy New Year!! emoticon

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MEMARE 12/31/2010 8:53PM

    Happy New Year!
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TAFODIL24 12/31/2010 7:56PM

    Happy New Year ~ Be Safe! emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 12/31/2010 7:14PM

    Hugs, dear Thinster! 2011, here we come!!! We'll do this one together too!!!!
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Gettin' on the Stationary Bike

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I have always tried to turn problems into possibilities, make lemonade from lemons so to speak. In my last blog I cleansed myself by sharing my burden with others, yes that horrible night time eating. I have to work harder than ever to give it up, last 2 nights were fine. I also need to exercise so I am proud to report that I got on the bike the last 2 days, 40 min. each time. So I have 80 fitness minutes under my belt this week, I hope to keep this routine going 5 days a week. When I make it to 3 weeks it will be a true habit. I have faith in myself and as one of my favorite character's from the movie "Cars" says Towmater (sp?) I'll getterrrrrrrr done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticonInga emoticon

  
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DJ4HEALTH 12/15/2010 8:36PM

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JAZZID 11/21/2010 9:37AM

    emoticon... we are in this together... WE CAN and WILL DO THIS emoticon emoticon emoticon...

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EVER-EVOLVING 11/18/2010 9:40AM

    You are amazing, Inga! emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 11/16/2010 9:04PM

    You can do it, sweet Inga!!!!! I know you can!!!

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JOCALAT 11/16/2010 6:15PM

    that's determination....good for you and yes you can do it!!

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Problems with Nightime binges due to Emotional causes

Sunday, November 14, 2010

This picture represents an eating episode from earlier this year, March 2010. I am sad to say this pattern is continui9ng, has been off and on for about 6 years now, since I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Even years before that I have comforted myself with food. I have been depressed lately, my health always under scrutiny with ongoing medical tests due to chronic pain issues from my 3 bouts with cancer. I really need some encouragement, support to help me emoticonthis, it seems to be getting out of hand again. I don't like eating myself to sleep because life is painful and hard to deal with, that does not make me any stronger and life any easier to deal with. Right now, baby steps, God give me the strength to conquer this and give me friends, like angels to light my way. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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JAZZID 11/21/2010 9:32AM

    Hi Inga, sorry for the late response, I didn't check my Sparkmail until today. I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with this and I can relate because I have the same problem. You would think that because we are breast cancer survivors we would have the resolve to conquer those cravings and temptations that can sabotage our health, but it's deeper than that.

Recently my doctor told me that my LDL level (... bad cholesterol) is higher than it should be, and I was given a diet to follow. This seems to be motivating me to stay the course; I am in my 2nd week of following this diet, but just yesterday, I ate something that was not on the diet and I know it was full of saturated fat! After I ate this meal, I made a promise to myself that although I know I will probably not be perfect 100% of the time, if I can eat clean and healthy for 6 days a week, if I eat a "LITTLE" something of what I like on day 7, it's ok... But the way I do this, to make sure I don't over indulge and undo all of the good I did for the week, is... 1.) eat this treat when I am out and don't bring any of it home - OR - 2) buy a portion of what I want and bring it home, that way it is "portion controlled" and I won't be tempted to binge on it... "SWEETS" being my Achilles heel!

I also have a problem with eating in the late evening and this is real a struggle for me. I love popcorn and although I pop it without any added oil, I tend to eat a lot of it, and I always seem to crave it around 8 - 9 PM, and I just at at 6:00 or so... another Sparker gave me a tip to "drink a protein shake when I get this craving", and I tried it... "it worked"... the shake is just around 100 calories, 0 fat, and 18 - 25 protein grams. If you want more information on it let me know.

Try to find substitutions for the things that you crave... I am working on this now. For instance, for Thanksgiving I love sweet potato pie, but you know how rich it is, so I am going to make my own version, minus the pie crust, using Smart Balance enriched Omega-3 margarine, sugar substitute, pan roasted pecans and non-fat whipped cream to substitute for it. The same with my stuffing/dressing, instead of all the butter, I am going to use more chicken stock (fat free) and a limited amount of Smart Balance margarine for moisture...

Inga, emoticon... you have conquered worse things than this. It will take time, but like you said "baby steps" and know that I and your other Spark friends and sisters in "Pink" will be here for you as you have been a constant support for us. I love you, and I want the best for you...

If you need help and want to talk, you know that you can call me, I will give you my number again; call me any time... I mean it. Hang in there and take it one day at a time, forgive yourself and don't dwell on what you have done, but instead, strive for balance and consistency not perfection!

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PINK-SOLDIER 11/16/2010 10:00AM

    My sincerest thanks to all of you who posted on my blog, helping me, supporting me and giving me suggestions. I take everything you told me to heart, I know I need to clear my mind of some very horrible past experiences with people who I thought loved me, but there actions wounded me to an unbelievable point of pain, my cancer pained me, leaving me sick so often and like a burden. I am glad I reached out and it will get better I believe that. Hugs, My very Dear Friends.
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HEWIES 11/16/2010 9:06AM

    All the lovely people who responded to your blog have expressed my feelings better than I could. You are not in your boat alone. God give us all the strength to meet life's challenges and come out on top. emoticon

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STANNER3 11/15/2010 10:19AM

    Inga, you are not in this "boat" alone, truth be told, I am prone to the same self destructive actions in the evening!! (did you have to put samoas in your picture, they are way too good to pass up!!)

We all love you and are here for you, praying for strength and wisdom in how to handle this, you have been through so much, please don't get discouraged about this small weakness!!

Big, huge virtual hugs to you girl, we LOVE you!!

Suzanne

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JOYSGARDEN 11/14/2010 6:33PM

    Inga, I have always thought of you as such a strong person, to have gone thru 3 rounds of cancer, and still be as upbeat as you seem to be. You've taken the first step, by reaching out to all of us. We all have that problem at one time or another. "What's past is past". Put your bingeing in your past. When the urge to do it again hits, go do something- take a nice bubble bath, go pick on your son, go for a walk, even if it's just around the yard. Pick up a good book. Do you knit or crochet? Start a project, and call it your snack time...when you want junk food, go work on your project. I love Greg's idea of the mirror! I think one is going to join the BIG red NO that's on mine now. I don't do it every night, but sometimes when I'm looking for a healthy snack to keep my blood sugar level thru the night, I do find, and eat, things I shouldn't... We ALL do it. Keep a journal, writing down how you are feeling when you want to eat- bored, tired, bored, lonely, bored....you get the idea! You may find a pattern. YOU CAN DO THIS! We're all here for you, anytime. Hugs, and love, Joy

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METALLICAT1 11/14/2010 6:30PM

  Inga, I know what you mean about comfort food and the roller coaster ride on eating. I'm also on that ride because of stress starting agian with husband. Things go fine them WHAM! Iget to feeling totally worthless and if it wasn't for my mom and cat....

I know you're a strong person and even strong people need help so just call and I'll be glad to come over, we can go for coffee or a walk before it really gets cold.

Take care sweet friend & prayers for you,
Hugs, Em

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CUTTINABBY 11/14/2010 5:31PM

    You have made a very important step forward Inga by sharing.Emotional eating in all it's forms is our way of comforting ourselves from worry loneliness fear.It's so easy to slip in to the habits that protect us from the world or so we feel.
We don't have to face the world alone but it's easy to convince ourselves that if we ask for help we are weak. Many times we ask for understanding,reassurance or love and get rejected so we begin to be afraid to reach out in case we get shut down yet again.We emotional eaters tend to feel that if we don't let anyone help us then they can't hurt us..yet ....if we open up just a little and take a chance here and there we learn that we are stronger than we give ourselves credit for and then we can begin to take the steps to break the cycle.
Step by step Inga you are going to spread those wings and give them a test flight.You are worth it.. now it's time to believe it.
I'm so proud of you for taking the first and most important step ..reaching out !
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JOCALAT 11/14/2010 5:30PM

    Inga - I too have been on a roller coaster with eating as of late- it hits every day at 3PM or after my workout....I think its a control thing..It started right around Halloween and I know why - I don't want to do meds...so if I sabotage myself and gain back weight it will be the meds fault then I won't have to take them...that's me!! .You too have been through sooo much - I mean 3 bouts of cancer. Eating may be the only are of your life right now where you feel in control and need a little comfort....talking to someone may be a good idea. Is there a nutritionist, or WW or even a buddy who is close to you that is also a bc survivor that you can call and talk to you or make arrangements to walk together...sometimes just having someone to check in with helps!! We are all here for you and having had a lot of conversations with other team members as of late we all seem to be struggling with this area...maybe as a team we need to come up with some sort of check-in thread to help each other out.

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THINKTHINTAMI 11/14/2010 4:59PM

    Inga ilove you and you know i am always here for you when you have that urge no matter what time it is please call me???? im your number one supporter :)
Hang in there!!!!!
Love & Supporting Hugs
Tami

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EVER-EVOLVING 11/14/2010 4:12PM

    Inga, so much has been happening in my life that I haven't taken the time to eat right. The bingeing you're talking about is very familiar! Always before when I got in this situation, I looked for lots of inspiration...I would put up a picture of me skinny and a picture of me fat on the fridge, I would listen to old music that reminded me of fun times when I was skinny. But I finally realized that the easiest way to get inspired was to be like the Nike logo: JUST DO IT. That's my inspiration this time!

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SWEETMNTHING 11/14/2010 4:09PM

    Oh Inga, I am so sorry you are going thru all this, but it takes alot of guts to post a blog and tell people what you have done! You are in my prayers, girl! I have been doing the same thing-eating for comfort due to some depression going on over some things that have happened recently. If there is anything I can do let me know..I'm here for you. Just keep reaching out to your sparkfriends. Are you plugged into a church? I know you go but it's not the same thing as being plugged in. I would highly recommend that as well because anything to break isolation would help get your mind off food and getting spirtual food is SO important. I would also recommend a devotional called Streams in the Desert. It's for people going thru hard times such as this. It helped me so much when I first started reading it however lately I've been not reading it and I need to do it on a regular basis.Some of the passages brought me to tears, so make sure you have kleenex nearby if you get it! The enemy really loves playing mindgames with us esp when you are struggling, and this devotional really helps. emoticon

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LUTHERANGIRL 11/14/2010 3:00PM

    Hi Inga, You are a beautiful child of God. In the Spirit we have the strength to overcome sin and without Him we are powerless. Night times a bad time for me too. After a day of work or play we weaken whether we feel it or not. Don't keep any of the foods you would binge on in the house or just enough for your beautiful children. When you bring it in don't forget to tell them it is for them.Don't be down on your self about this one, we are in it with you. God gives us the power to overcome temptation. Remember,we all are sinners and we will fall but through God's forgiveness in Christ we stand back up on solid ground. You are not alone.Pray wihout ceasing,your Father in Heaven feels your pain. I'll pray for you Sister!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 11/14/2010 2:47PM

    You, sweet Inga, are in my prayers, and will continue to be. We are Sisters Chosen after all.

Dear One, you know that I've spent a time of my life experiencing those dreadful nighttime callings to food also. It took a lot of journaling, a lot of forgiving myself, a lot of trying again the next day. Food is not going to fix our hurts, rather emotional or physical. It does take our attention away from the matter at hand for a season. But so does yoga, pilates, a good book, a talk with a friend, listening to nice music, a cup of hot tea, flipping through old pictures.

My friend, you can bring new habits into your life. You can overcome. You are soooo worth the effort.

Love and big hugs, my sweet friend,
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DEETHEDIETITIAN 11/14/2010 2:17PM

    Inga,
I know exactly what you mean. I too have found myself bingeing and I hate the way it makes me feel. Like you said, it doesn't help out situation at all! And somehow, while we are in the midst of a binge, there is some solace (mixed with guilt of course).

Have you considered seeing a therapist that specializes in eating disorders (we may not be have an actual eating disorder but for sure we are having eating issues!) ~ If not, have you considered Overeaters annonymous? You don't need to be heavy or wanting to lose weight to attend one of those free meetings. Honestly, I tried that but it didnt' work for me - but still - it might work for you.

Of course, I keep you (and all my BC Spark buddies in my prayers ~ You are a beautiful woman inside and out. I just took a look at your summer photos and you are just beautiful! And I know you are beautiful inside just by how much you help others on here ~ I can't thank you enough for having this team and for all that you do for it!

Sometimes, Inga, all you need to do is talk with somone (I'm willing to listen) -- binging is literally our attempt to push down --- waaaayyy down emotions that are simply too scary for us to handle. So ... we eat until it hurts and then our focus can turn from those scary thoughts (that we have no easy solution to)... to the thoughts of how uncomfortable we are physically from the binge. Get it?

Well, that is my two cents! Hope it helps in some small way - and I am always here if you want to chat.
Hugs,
Dee


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BIGDAD1211 11/14/2010 2:05PM

    First off, I am keeping you in my prayers Inga! God is faithful and true and His Will is perfect. Trust in Him!

I used to do the late night eating too. I still do a little nibbling from time to time but what I found to be a good idea is to put a small mirror on the upper door of the fridge so when I am eating when I shouldn't be, I have to look myself in the face! Whew! That really helps me. And another thing, throw all the junk food out and replace them with fruits and veggies and good things to snack on. I love the Girl Scouts, but I can't have the cookies in my house or I will eat them all!

And last but not least, keep a positive attitude my friend! We can sometimes be our own worse enemy. Wake up each morning thanking God for another day and live that day to the fullest! And reach out to your SP Family! I am here whenever you need to talk or vent!
Love you and God bless you!
Greg


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NFL is in the PINK for Breast Cancer Awareness

Sunday, October 17, 2010

During October, the NFL is showing it's PINK, to raise awareness about breast cancer and how important early detection is. As a survivor myself, I am proud to see this disease recognized by the sport of football, and it's reminder to all of us that breast cancer can be beat. I'm sure there are many football wives who have faced bc, My favorite football player, Brett Favre, is the husband of a breast cancer survivor, Deanna. Her book is a great read for anyone who has the disease or supports someone with it. I'll be checking the pink out for the rest of the month on the football fields, it reminds me of how I fought this disease and won. emoticon
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NISSANGIRL 10/21/2010 7:35AM

    I love seeing the NFL support the cause. Great blog Inga! emoticon emoticon

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LINDA! 10/19/2010 12:15AM

    I also really enjoy seeing all of the PINK on the field.

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JOCALAT 10/18/2010 6:26AM

    It's nice to see the guys in pink!!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 10/18/2010 4:56AM

    emoticonBravo to my PINK winner, Inga!!!

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A Tribute to my friend Donna, MRSFIXIT, you were TOUGH!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

A wonderful lady I met here on Spark People has lost her fight with breast cancer. Her name was Donna, screen name MRSFIXIT. She was a courageous warrior in the fight against this disease that can take over your whole body, it raged inside her, spreading to her liver. But despite the cruel spread of cancer, the light of hope never dimmed in her mind. Her spirit was happy, alive, hopeful she fought as tough as she could and never gave up. Her body became tired and as she left her husband and family physically, her spirit and joy will remain alive in them. She now is safely in the arms of Jesus, her love for Him showed even in her last days she read the Bible, it meant so much to her. When we see a RAINBOW, let us think of DONNA, shining her colors of light and love from heaven above emoticonWhen we see a BUTTERFLY, let us think of DONNA, flying freely with peace and joy emoticonWhen we have a chance to SMILE at someone, even if our day is rotten, let us think of DONNA, and the smiles she shared in her LIFETIME. emoticon emoticon emoticon I will never forget you DONNA, your courage touched my heart emoticonYou are an ANGEL to me. emoticonI pray for your family now, God be with them. emoticon You made a beautiful difference in our world emoticonI thank God for letting our paths cross in life, I will always remember you, dear Donna, our MRSFIXIT.

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NANNER2121 10/17/2010 8:35PM

    An amazing tribute for an amazing person. Donna touched many with her openness and honesty, but above all, her sense of humor and acceptance. I will miss her.

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LOVEDKCHOCOLATE 10/16/2010 10:10AM

    Inga, I am sorry for your loss of a great friend. While no one wishes for family and friends to struggle with the pain of cancer, it is hard not to wish them back here with us. Peace and love to Donna, her family and you. emoticon

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RJFERRARO315 10/13/2010 11:59PM

    Thank you. I didn't get to know Donna, but I now know what is important to her.

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DEETHEDIETITIAN 10/13/2010 10:59PM

    Inga ~ I could not have said it better.
I will miss MrsFixit (Donna) ~ she was a pillar of strength and courage for me and always handled things with such grace. I keep her family in my prayers.
Dee

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JAZZID 10/13/2010 9:06PM

    Thanks for posting Olga, I had just visited her page not too long ago... this is sad news... I HATE CANCER... ~ Dee

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 10/13/2010 9:00PM

    A lovely tribute from one beautiful lady to another.
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CUTTINABBY 10/13/2010 8:50PM

    Thank you for posting this Inga.I'm touched by your sincerity and friendship . emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SPARKLE72023 10/13/2010 5:16PM

    You're both special ladies!

You Inga - - for being the fun-making, enthusiastic pink warrior that we know, love and admire - - and Donna, God rest her sweet soul, for being an inspiration to all of us.

Thank you for sharing this most touching tribute. Tears fell from my eyes; tears of sorrow but mostly tears of joy that the world has special women like you & Donna!
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Margrit

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ELDORADO2 10/13/2010 5:09PM

    Inga, your tribute to Donna really touched my heart. It was so beautifully written. I am sure she is looking down smiling.
Eldora

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DRADISCH 10/13/2010 5:04PM

    Inga, what a beautiful tribute to Donna. She was and always will be an Inspiration in the fight we face everyday. May she RIp and Fly with the Angels.
God Bless her & her family.

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AKASHA66 10/13/2010 4:39PM

    What a lovely post. So sorry to everyone who lost a sparkfriend. She sounds like she was a special woman.

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LINDA! 10/13/2010 4:29PM

    Inga, thank you for posting this lovely tribute. She was my Spark Friend and we were on two teams together. What a strong and brave woman. She kept so busy, in spite of her illness. She thought of her family members and talked about them frequently. She enjoyed posting and was a very detailed lady. I would read her posts and be amazed at how busy she was. She stayed busy even after the recent breast cancer diagnosis. It seemed that she didn't slow down - until the end. What a wonderful example our human spirit. We must keep going and strive to live. I already miss you, Donna.

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JOYSGARDEN 10/13/2010 3:12PM

    Inga, that was a beautiful tribute to Donna. I'm sure I'll think of her when I see a rainbow, or a butterfly, or a bird just gliding thru the sky.

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EVER-EVOLVING 10/13/2010 12:51PM

    Inga, that was a moving and wonderful tribute to your friend...a toast to Donna! emoticon

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MAURIZIA 10/13/2010 12:31PM

    Only knowing Donna for a short time, I know we will miss her greatly...but her light will shine on us always...her beautiful spirit will guide us.

My prayers and sympathy to her family, friends, and my fellow teammates.

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THINKTHINTAMI 10/13/2010 11:46AM

    thinking of you Inga & all your breast cancer friends...hugs & prayers~~~
Tami

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LUVS2EXERCISE 10/13/2010 11:31AM

    So sorry to hear of her passing, but she's in a better place now, and will suffer no more!! Huge hugs to you and her family emoticon

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STANNER3 10/13/2010 11:24AM

    Thanks Inga, that was beautiful. She was indeed a special lady!!

Suzanne

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BUBBLEJ1 10/13/2010 11:06AM

    I'm so sorry that you have lost your friend.

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JOCALAT 10/13/2010 10:42AM

    What a beautiful tribute...it made me cry!!

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PAULETTELORAINE 10/13/2010 10:34AM

    I wish I had known her. I've also lost friends and family to breast cancer. I am thrilled that she met Jesus and trusted Him because He is our Hope. Thank you for posting this beautiful tribute. emoticon

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