Sunday, October 16, 2011
The last two months have been a roller coaster ride. I started grad school in August and its been a struggle to juggle classes/course work, lab, work, nutrition and exercise. I would love to say that I've balanced everything perfectly well and have been on top of things while managing to eat consciously and exercise. Unfortunately, the truth is that I've just about managed to keep my head above water in all things related to school. On the nutrition and exercise front, theres no better way to say this- it has been a total disaster.
I have tried my best to prepare my meals in advance. Unfortunately, the emotional eating beast rears its ugly head whenever I'm faced with a high stress situation. This happens to be every night when I'm staying up late to study. Almost every night I find myself overeating and going over my nutrition limits by a considerable amount. Exercise has been non existent since the last two months, except maybe once a week, when I do get the time.
It was hard in the beginning when school started to accept that I just do not have enough hours in a day to do everything. But I have accepted that grad school is hard, especially the first semester, and it requires an input of a lot of my time. A lot of money is being invested in my education and it is my priority to do well and spend time studying. But it is also my priority to look after my health. I feel like crap because I don't eat well and don't exercise.
I also cannot ignore the fact that I have gained 15lbs since August 10th (140lbs). I now stand 20lbs further from my goal weight. I do dwell a lot over the fact that I had touched my goal weight, and now I'm back to square one. But instead of doing that and moping, I have pick myself up, dust myself off and just move on.
I know that I do have it in me to work out atleast 3 times a week if not more. I already wake up most days at 4am to study. My plan is to swap one morning of study time for exercise. Saturday and Sunday are the other two days I plan on doing this. So probably Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday. I will try and stick with this plan for atleast a month. I'm sure I can manage 3 hours of exercise in a week. Its not that hard. This will help me get into things slowly, so that I can consistently stick to it. I also plan on walking more (even though it is getting chilly), especially at lunch time.
Next comes nutrition. I'm doing alright for breakfast and lunch. Its the time from 4pm-11pm at night when I become a compulsive emotional eater. My plan is to come home (usually 6.30-7pm) and directly have dinner, while leaving room for a small snack (which actually isnt even necessary). I snack, even after eating dinner mainly to calm my nerves when I'm studying. I am not hungry but I still overeat. My plan is to brush my teeth as soon as I'm done with dinner.
I have realized that my portion sizes have been getting much bigger since August. I will now also be more vigilant about my portion sizes.
I also plan on blogging more often. This will help me stay accountable.
Alright, I've rambled on. I really am hoping that I can get a handle on things, albeit slowly.
Goodluck to all my fellow sparkers who struggle like me and goodluck to me!
Until next time....ciao!