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Monday, April 02, 2012

Did not sleep well last night:For the first time in my life, I could only dream about my death,, all night. I normally rise about five times in seven hours to use the bathroom. Every time I went back to bed, I started the dream where I left off before, until I was finally at the end of where I was supposed to be in heaven,, it was very stressful and scary for me..

This coming from a person who has already had a "death experience"..
I am hoping tonight will be better.. this dream shook me up so badly, I was distracted until about an hour before I left work...
I cannot wait to die, not exactly pushing it, but have no fear,, I am excited for it to happen when it does, I know and saw the area I will be in, what the main process is for real, but this dream was so detailed, so off the wall,, nothing like the real thing, that I did not want to go back to sleep, but needed the rest in order to work today!
and I could not stop it all night..

I think I will go into a deep meditation before I get under the covers tonight, maybe that will help...

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 4/8/2012 11:54AM


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GRACEMCDOG 4/2/2012 2:56PM

    I found it confusing, too. If you are not afraid and looking forward, then why do you think it caused you such unhappiness and stress to dream about it? I went through a phase when I was young of obsessing about and fearing death. Then I had two dreams in which I did die. Both of them were joyful and reassuring for me. I've never felt fearful or apprehensive since then. I have always considered those two dreams a great gift. I hope you can overcome the stress involved in your dream experience.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 4/2/2012 2:51PM

    Did you nap yesterday or take ny pain pills? they can mess with your sleep patterns.

Being excited about dying? Hmmmmm That's scary.

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GOLFLADY11 4/2/2012 2:41PM

    Do you mean that you are not afraid of dying - that your dream reassured you it was nothing to fear??? Your blog kind of freaked me out! So am a little curious.

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Sunday, April 01, 2012

A wintry day here, got my steps completed,, did some strength training also.. cannot wait to et outdoors in nicer weather,, maybe by July...

Finally tried a half pain pill as directed by my doc,, did nothing,, I tossed and turned all night, in pain,, now I have to wait until next weekend to take anotehr,, or I will never wake up for work all week,, this dosage is stronger than the previous one, so he suggested taking a half so I would not zonk out,, back to square one on that,,, oh well, I am just blessed I have meds, period...

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 4/8/2012 11:52AM

    So sorry you are suffering. Hopefully the warm weather will get here quickly and that it will help some.

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    I noticed that someone mentioned Fibromyalgia. If you are suffering with this, you might want to do a little reading about Gerson Therapy. Gerson has cured many cases of Fibromyalgia. Wouldn't it be great to not need any of those meds?

Best wishes to you,

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HARROWJET 4/1/2012 4:33PM

    Congratulations for completing your steps and strength training. Better weather IS coming - we just don't know when. emoticon

Judy emoticon

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DEBBIEANNE1124 4/1/2012 2:35PM

    Hope that awful pain goes away Lin. Is this from the Fibro and arthritis? Hugz

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Tires and testosterone

Saturday, March 31, 2012

I noticed I had a low tire on my car yesterday running errands, so I rose early this morning and got in line first at Discount tire near my home. My wheel is getting corroded just form normal wear and tear,, guy said start thinking of maybe replacing it next time,,
My car is a 2006 Buick LaCrosse, started out with 19K miles on it,, Got it in 2007,, it now has 36K miles on it,, 17K miles in five years is not much,,, literally, the only $$ I have spent on it is a set of new tires three years ago and gas and oil changes.

WHen I told him I only put 17,000 miles on my car in over five years, he offered to buy my car!! He put 250,000 on hi s in three years!! This car is the best-made car I have ever owned,,, keeping it for awhile!! I am leaving to take more documentation to tax preparer for mom's taxes..Hope to finish this up today,,,

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 4/8/2012 11:51AM

    A good car like that is definitely a keeper!

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GEMINI-SKY 4/1/2012 7:38AM

    I thought you were going to talk about some Guys Abs or Glutes !!!!
That would have been a GREAT Way to start my Morning !!!!
OXOX emoticon

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KASEYCOFF 3/31/2012 2:45PM

    What kind of car is it? I had an old Subaru Loyale and that thing could go forever - had to sell it when I came here...

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THINAGIN2 3/31/2012 11:36AM

    It's hard to let a good one go. May never find another one!

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DEBBIEANNE1124 3/31/2012 11:33AM

    Ahhhhh the Title got my attention! You fooled me.

Glad your tire got the work it needed.

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Snowy Friday

Friday, March 30, 2012

First rain, then sleet, then hail then snow,, about an inch so far,,, ah, spring!!

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FRAN0426 3/30/2012 9:08PM

    Sound like you had a bit of all types of persipitation today, I hate those kind of days. But never the less---spring is very iffy in the weather department where I live too. We usually still have plenty of snow this time of year; but the snow is all gone, we did have some awesome days---way warmer than it should be. Now it has settled back to windy days of March this week.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 3/30/2012 6:12PM

    LOL sounds like fun. I'm dresse in layers here. Not like my California Girl attire.

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NORASPAT 3/30/2012 5:27PM

    LINDA The swan was not there when posted before. I love swans. In England we went to feed the swans never going to fed the ducks like our grands do here. Nice photograph. HUGS Pat in Maine. emoticon emoticon

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sleet tonight!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

NO more 85 degree weather,, that was Tuesday,, now it is back to the snow.. sleet tonight, more snow later,,
it is greatly affecting my fibro and arthritis.. I worked extra hours again today and going in at 3:45 am tomorrow,, one hour early,, that does not help, but have to stop living off my savings,,

I am not sure how long I will be able to work full time at this pace,, six years seems like eternity when you hurt 24/7,,
My sister will be having a birthday April5.. she will be 58 years old,, wow.. got to get a card out to her,, we are getting old!!

see the pic of one of he nesting mute swans at the marsh here where we hike

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 4/8/2012 11:47AM

    So sorry your fibro and arthritis is acting up so badly. DH has been complaining too. I really dislike all the cold!!!

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DEBBIEANNE1124 3/29/2012 4:27PM

    You can do it Lin. You are wonder woman.

Beautiful swan indeed. that would make a lovely wall photo.

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NORASPAT 3/29/2012 4:25PM

    LINDA, we are back in winter too. We had snow yesterday and because of the weather last week we had two bad accidents. If people would think if snow is coming down and the wind is bitterly cold the roads becomes ice.
We try to stay off the roads these days.
I am sorry your fibro is acting up it just does not like the cold same with DH and my Arthritis. Mine is not much compared to his. We are expecting them to say he needs a hip and knee replacement. He has a Stent in his heart so anti-inflammatory do a number os his stomach and it messes with other meds too. I just realised i will be 69 this year then pushing 70. OUCH!! Pat in maine. take care stay warm Pat in Maine. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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