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Thursday, December 20, 2012

Still feeling depressed and defeated ,, kept going to day, sent out all of my Christmas cards,, had a nice visit with my only close guy cousin.. NOT DIABETIC of course.. we are very close, and are only six months apart in age.
Since I was always over loaded with vegetables at every meal before, I am at a loss as to what is left to eat without making me sick or fatter. NO fruit, juice, bread, pasta, fats, or sweets. That leaves water and leaves.. which count as a veggie, so I am not certain..
one good thing about being depressed about all of this, I do not have any appetite when I am upset..
If I was on antidepressants, I would be screwed....

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FLEMIDG 12/21/2012 12:20AM

    Sorry to hear you are so depressed. I know sometimes things overwhelm us. I had a lot of problems figuring out what I could eat when I was first diagnosed. It took me a long time to get the information I needed. Just take one day at a time. Don't give up on yourself. You can do this. We're all cheering for you. Have a wonderful Christmas. God bless you.

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PATRICIAAK 12/20/2012 7:46PM

    hope things improve

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ALDEBARANIAN 12/20/2012 6:49PM

    I'll tell you a probably pointless, but true (and somewhat amusing) story.

When I was a kid a bunch of us went on a canoe trip up in Canada, led by a wonderful gentleman we called Chas. About a month before the trip Chas went to the doctor for a checkup, obviously, the right thing to do. The doc called Chas and told him he had a bad heart, and there was no way he should be taking a bunch of kids off into the back woods for two weeks. Paddling all day, carrying heavy loads over portages, the only access by seaplane, no communication.

Well, Chas went anyway. We all had a wonderful time. When we got back we found that the doctor had had a heart attack and was in the hospital. So much for doctors. Maybe what you need is a different doctor...
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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/20/2012 5:08PM

    Sorry you are feeling down Lin.

I know how diabetes sucks big time. Mom, Dad, my twin sisters and my brother Dennis all type 1 diabetes with insulin. I'm the only type 2 diabetic and I'm proud of it. It's so ahrd to work at and some times I jsut want to give up but I love life too much and my daughter and my friends mean the world to me. I've learned lots from being on SP.

I ahve good kidneys, liver, heart and all my limbs. Can't say so much for the eyes though. Can't say the same for my remaining siblings either. It takes WORK but it can be done.

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Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Personal vent,skip to avoid boredom:

I know this seems VERY trivial to those on my diabetes team, BUT it is very depressing, saddening and defeating to me that I got the news from my dear family doctor yesterday.
I just came home from the hospital, he called me in-between patients,, not a good sign,, he never does that unless it is bad news..

I was totally floored, even in my groggy state, when he told me my FBS that I had drawn with my labs last Saturday, was ,,147. I know this sounds whiny and ungrateful to those of you that are already on meds, insulin,etc, BUT I did everything I was told, above and beyond, even the nurses wanted to know what my secret of weight loss and a change of my A1C from 9.2 to 6.1
My A1C Saturday was 6.3,, went up from 6.1
this is not a whine or complain, it is an old fashioned word called "lament". I want to scream and cry, am starting to,, what did I miss, do wrong, cheat on??

Both grandparents, all aunts, mother, cousins,uncles, all had/have diabetes. Neither of my sisters, nor no cousins on dad's side have it.. just me. They all party hearty, did drugs, some are alcoholics, very bad nutrition, but no problems for them..

Doc told me he will start me on the lowest dosage of glucatrol.. see how it works,, I am disappointed and ashamed that I could not keep the numbers down, that I must have been lazy in my shopping and portioning habits.. Short of cutting out fruit, I do not know how to eliminate any more sugar from my diet,, so may have to go to the classes again.. I went years ago for training a the hospital.. I did listen then, but it seems that nothing I did was right in the past five years, so I will see if my doc has a magic thing to do now....
Blessedly, he did not say anything about that to me except to lose five pounds in the next three months.. I lost three last night after taking my lasix again.. I will double the ante and do ten.. hope I can catch a miracle with weight loss and maybe go off the med later.. praying..
I am also blessed to have this blog to vent..

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PATRICIAAK 12/20/2012 8:31PM

    diabetes is a PROGRESSIVE disease. We may be able to slow it down, but it still marches on.

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KADYSMOM11 12/20/2012 3:48PM

    I was on diabetic meds for 10 years and then went off them. It's not a permanent solution ......you might just need them for a little while. Remember it's there to help you, not hurt you! Good luck and please don't "lament" LOL
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ALDEBARANIAN 12/19/2012 10:15PM

Sorry if that seems out of place, but really. You did everything you know to do. You've been faithful and consistent. It's very possible that there are other factors effecting you're body that don't affect others. It isn't fair. You have every right to rant. Have a rant party.

I'm sorry you react to the news with shame and guilt. For some of us that seems to come naturally. It's a hard thing to overcome. Maybe with time, assessment, and reflection the shock will ease up some. I'd think anyone would be disappointed. I wouldn't be surprised if there's some other factor involved that you don't know about. Finding out would probably set you free from that confusion about what's going on.

You're actually a very good person, and I'm glad to see your posts on here, and on that humor thread. You bring a lot of help and support to some of us. I'm sure you'll conquer those number problems too.

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TABBYARTS 12/19/2012 8:08PM

    My dear Pickie~ don't beat yourself up and stop apologizing. You are ding your best. Diabetes sometimes skips a generation. It would be upsetting for me to learn that, as well. But you are doing all the right things. You very may well reverse it or minimize its effects. You might have to eliminate fruits with high concentrations of sugar, like raisins or other dried fruits. You are a tough cookie. If anyone can lose five pounds in three months, it will be you. You have lots of determination. ANYTHING over five pounds will be BONUS! You can do this!
Love ya gal. Brie says don't set yourself up for failure. If the doctor says five, lose five or maybe six. Tis the season of temptation. So this ain't no joke. It will be easy to say no if you realize that your health is on the line. Thanks for contacting me/ Love TOBY BEAR

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CATTUTT 12/19/2012 5:07PM

    Please don't beat yourself up. I've read time and time again that diabetes is a progressive disease, and no matter how carefully you try to control it, odds are that it will still need to be treated at some point. I've read this in American Diabetes Association produced material, so I take it as true. But in any case, you ARE doing all you can do. I know going on meds sucks, but honestly, it's so much better to be on meds and be able to be reasonable rather than not on meds and so strict. I fought being put on multiple doses of insulin daily, and now I'm so glad I'm on it. I'm not trying to belittle your concerns, please don't think that. I just don't want to see you beating yourself up about the portion of the disease you have no control over.

Take care!


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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/19/2012 4:40PM

    You can vent all you want in your blogs it's aok. We're here to lend an ear and give you support. Love you!

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DOLPHINSINGER72 12/19/2012 4:22PM

    Please feel free to vent away whenever you need to. And you did not bore us. We all need to feel like we can vent. It is one of the benefits of SP. It is not your fault. It sounds like genetics might have a little bit to do with it. And you are doing all the things you need to do to beat those genetics. Just emoticon and you are doing emoticon .

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Happy day!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

I am home from my scope,, I drank all of the three liters of prep in four and half hours,, cherry flavored,, DD had two flavors of jello for me, tea and water were all I had,,
I learned something: I deliberately did not take my lasix, but did take my BP pill. Both are diuretics, ,, I gained EIGHT POUNDS YESTERDAY ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!! The prep is filled with sodium a nd sugar, so it sent that scale to new heights. I just got home and took a lasix with the rest of my morning supplements.. Ate a nice breakfast and am munching on an apple for fiber,, got to get back to normal so by tomorrow I will not be inconvenienced having to use the rest room a lot.
The great news is : doctor said I have no new growth and no old things, nothing bleeding,, health colon. I am relieved..
Back to work tomorrow as usual. I am still kind of groggy from the anesthetic, so will take anap now...
I hope everyone has a great day today.

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HICKOK-HALEY 12/19/2012 3:29AM

    That is good news!! emoticon

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NORASPAT 12/18/2012 10:04PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon NEWS for you LINDA. It will be my turn very soon. HUGS Pat in Maine.
That has to be a pretty darn good Christmas gift for you. It would be for me. I had polyps but the last scope they did not do the usual way, they did it VIRTUAL. Not my choice --his! After he hollered and he yelled I should not have been schedules so late he had patients waiting in his office . When i asked him about it he said i was in pain. He said I was screaming, I did tell him I heard what he said. He got all concerned and said he would arrange for X-ray to do a virtual right away so i would not have to do the prep again. Needless to say He has left town -Thank goodness and I have to have one now since that was 5 years ago. I will be meeting my new GI guy quite soon. Pat in Maine.
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JOYCECAIN 12/18/2012 9:15PM

    Wonderful news. You will piss it all out. So don't worry. hahaha Thank you for the orchids, they are lovely. Have a great holiday.

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DEBGIL 12/18/2012 6:15PM

    Happy Dance for good results!

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CATTUTT 12/18/2012 4:00PM

    Yay, good results! Hope you had a nice nap.


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DIET_FRIEND 12/18/2012 1:51PM

    Glad you got good results!

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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/18/2012 11:57AM

    Yay! that was fast and accurate. I'm glad things went well.

Did they tell you how long until the next one?

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crossing my fingers..among other things..

Monday, December 17, 2012

We are now off to pick he mom up and take her to the dentist. A big deal, hoping her dentures can be salvaged.. I have to get my prep in the fridge before we leave,, takes up the whole door space!!!!!!!

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PATRICIAAK 12/18/2012 12:24AM

    wishing you both the best

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NORASPAT 12/17/2012 10:44PM

    Hope all goes well for both of you.
Take care !
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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/17/2012 12:42PM

    I thought you start that prep early morning? What are you doing running errands for when you should be running into Sir John?

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SENIMMO 12/17/2012 10:04AM

    Hugs and prayer all goes well all the way round!

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DULCINEA54935 12/17/2012 9:25AM

    Hope things go well for you both.

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ALDEBARANIAN 12/17/2012 8:49AM

    Here's hoping everything goes according to schedule.

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LINDAMARIEZ1 12/17/2012 7:55AM

    saying a little prayer for mom! emoticon

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Good lazy day

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Our priest prayed an extra sermon for the slaughter victims in Newtown, Mas was very poignant. I am still praying they find a solution to the gun availability...

Tomorrow is prep day so DD made some jello for me, I am "proteining up" since clear liquids have none..
I am praying that things go will early in the morning with mom's dental appointment,, regardless, I have to be home buy noon to start my prep...
I hope everyone has a nice week, settles down and prepares for he real reason for this HOLIDAY upcoming...

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HICKOK-HALEY 12/17/2012 3:00AM

    Hope your Mom does well, and your Prep day. emoticon

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TIMOTHYNOHE 12/16/2012 10:11PM

    I think addressing the guns issue will not even approach the real issue. Mental illness. The shooter who did the killing was mentally ill and his momma seems to have been pretty much around the bend too.

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NORASPAT 12/16/2012 9:24PM

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Take it easy LINDA, our snow is just starting to fall. I will be snow blowing tomorrow.
I hope prep goes as well as it can, it is a necessity. HUGS Pat in Maine.

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PATRICIAAK 12/16/2012 8:11PM

    I wish you well.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/16/2012 6:49PM

    chicken & beef broth, blue or green gatorade, apple juice.Water, water, water.
Good luck

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GEORGE815 12/16/2012 6:41PM

    Hope things go well for your Mom's dental appointment. I have a couple of appointments scheduled soon also.
The Mom appears to be a collector. Kind of opposite to form, if there is a such a thing. Not the first time a son attacks there parents. Very hard job to have for the rest of your life, being a parent. A parent for life.

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